Aksaberyl
The One Eye

..."They said they were going to free me and my wife, for real it was just a trick to make me fall deeper and I regret losing my most precious one"...

...~ Si Mata One ~...

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You know what I was most afraid of when I entered this old house? Yeah, loneliness. The loneliness that keeps coming when I go in alone, the loneliness that is more lonely than when I am in the future.

I put the groceries I bought earlier on the kitchen table, before cooking I want to wash my face first, disappear the sense of loneliness that continues to spin in the head and hope it will be effective.

Wasa has not come, I do not want to wait too much even though he himself said today will come after the incident is not bad. But still I wish he had come to drive away my loneliness and I'm selfish.

I kept thinking after moving dimensions to the past, why did I move to the past? what's with my past? what should I look for in my past? is there anything unresolved here? why am I the only one going back in time? why in the past did I have to be alone?

After her, my tears just fell.

I cursed myself, if I hadn't gone to that tourist spot, if I hadn't had a day off, I wouldn't have gone back in time.

The terrible events that happened after I moved into the past kept spinning in my head, a lot of things that threatened my life and I don't know how much of it would happen.

"Why are you Beryl?"

As I cursed myself and cried wasa had come and noticed me, I did not realize his existence because I was busy struggling with myself.

I looked towards her, anxious face and wet clothes walking over to me.

"Why did you break through the rain?" ask me to clear up the question.

"Karna wants to meet you quickly" replied his now only 5 meters away from me.

"No need to rush, rainy day you will be sick if you break through it. Get your clothes, let me dry them in the fireplace. I'll get you a towel." I said and intended to leave.

But it's not Wasa's name that if she doesn't prevent me from leaving, I know the question I haven't answered.

"I've answered your question, so now answer my question Beryl." Her words.

I don't want to stare at her when my eyes are still in tears.

"I'm feeling sad, Wasa" I don't want to lie to her.

"Sad what's Beryl?" ask her.

"I'm not ready to say it yet"

I'm not ready to tell Wasa what I'm going through right now.

"But why? Am I a stranger to you, Beryl?" ask her again.

I kept quiet and did not answer her questions. I wasn't ready for what she was going to say after I told her about myself changing this dimension. I don't want him to look at me weird.

"Jawab I'm Beryl" she said.

I'm weak if his voice is out.

"Wasa, please understand me. I'll tell her if I'm ready, now my feelings aren't good." This is all I can tell her, I hope she understands.

"All right, I'll be waiting for you" Wasa said, skipping me to the fireplace.

I walked to the bathroom to get a dry towel and no more chatter after her.

I continued the cooking I was going to make earlier, the rain outside had begun to subside and Wasa was still faithfully sitting in front of the fireplace. Sometimes I notice her who still does not move from her sitting even though I still feel guilty for not telling what I feel right.

"Wasa, have you eaten? I cooked spicy shrimp mushroom soup to warm up the body" I said.

Without answering my question he sat down at the table and faced me.

I know you're upset, Wasa.

I painstakingly took a serving of soup for her, filled her drinking water and wished she liked my food at least after this she wanted to talk to me.

He ate my cooking without a sound and just looked at the dining table.

"How was your day Wasa? I'm a little bored here" I said to melt the atmosphere.

"As usual Beryl" said his brief.

"I want to go for a walk but I don't remember where to go."

"I'll take you for a walk" he offered me.

"really? If so we go after eating yaa mumpung rain has subsided, I will be ready first." said I girang, I hope my mood improves.

And he silently watched me get ready.

"Have you finished eating?" ask me who is wearing a robe.

"Already" he answered.

"If so let's go" I said and clasped his hands to get out together.

We rode the same horse and Wasa did it. The horse we were riding was traveling at medium speed towards the southwest of my old house. I don't know where Wasa's taking me, but I feel safe when she's with me.

For about 20 minutes on the horse I could finally see on my right there was water. Is that a beach? Is Wasa gonna take me to the beach?

"Where are we going Wasa?" Ask me

"To the port, just look you'll like it later" he replied.

I nodded obediently and enjoyed the breeze that tried to expose my robe, this trip was refreshing.

"I wish I could have horses and walks like this" I said happily

"And you have me Beryl" whispered Wasa

Although what Wasa said was slow but I can still hear it.

"What do you mean?" ask me

"There I am, you can ask me for help. I can take you where you want" he explained.

"But I don't want to trouble you, let alone you have a job that can't be left behind. I don't want to be a burden." I said again.

"You are not a burden, you are a blessing" he said.

Degs...

I think it's like I'm special to her, didn't she say we were friends?

I don't want to return his words, I'm still confused by his ambiguous words.

"Come down, we have arrived" said Wasa who went down first.

His hands swiftly stretched out towards me, he was a considerate man. But if the attention he shows to me is excessive I will feel burdened.

"His word of the harbor in the afternoon was beautiful, we could see the sun sinking with its beautiful colors. You want to enjoy it?" ask him to me.

"I want to" I said and followed.

There are so many ships that are pulled over, from small ships to the largest ships are here. This port is so vast and I have never been to the harbor, it is only natural that I am stunned here.

"Beryl ayoo" she said and then clasped my hand without excuse just like I did before her.

"You know Beryl? If the ship here is not just a tool to cross people from one island to another but more than that" he said began the conversation.

"More than that?" I don't understand what he means.

"Yes, besides that here is also often a place for suspicious transactions. Such as drugs, sharp weapons and also confidential information." he continued.

"Why did you bring me here?" ask me I don't understand what Wasa did.

"I just want you to know that being alone can be dangerous for you, especially if you're not with me. So that's why I said earlier if you need help or just want to go for a walk can tell me, I will accompany you." he said sound sincere.

I thought about Wasa's words again, all this time without Wasa my life was often almost threatened. What Wasa said is true, but why does part of my heart not accept what he said?

"Hey Wasa!" Someone shouted at me.

"really right? You're Wasa?" ask her again and walk closer to Wasa.

"You who?" ask Wasa

"Oh my God, the heart of a Wasa forgets a handsome man like me" the man said as he unfastened his cloak.

"It turns out the heartbroken" led Wasa on her.

"Look, you're the one who often broke his heart hahahaha" the man laughed.

I watched the man who greeted Wasa from top to bottom, if I noticed any more of the clothes she wore were the same as the one Wasa wore on her farewell to return to the palace. Is he also one of the knights?

But they look very familiar.

"Ehem, for the first time I saw you walking alone with a woman. I'm guessing she's your lover" the man said as he looked at me.

I heard him shocked especially with Wasa.

"Bu. openings. He's my friend" I replied quickly.

"Yes he's my friend, not what you think Neo is" said Wasa.

"Oh yeah? why don't I believe ya?" the guy named Neo.

"As far as you are" said Wasa.

"If he is not your lover may I dong acquaintance with him, who knows the soul mate right" his grin in front of me and Wasa.

Sorry you're not my type.

"Beryl, you know this Neo. Neo, meet Beryl" said Wasa introducing me and Neo.

"Hallo Neo" I said politely.

And he returned my greeting politely as well.

"I'm sorry Beryl, I borrowed her Wasa for a while yes there is something I want to talk to her about" Neo said asking my permission.

"Beryl, don't go anywhere. I'll be back" Wasa told me.

I just nodded assuring, after all, what to use the permission of all, anyway me and Wasa just cement.

"What the hell is it?" said Wasa who was slowly getting away with Neo.

And I'm alone now, no problem. Wasa was only a moment of conversation with Neo, I will take a short walk around this pelabuahan.

I saw a lot of people doing activities, some were unloading goods, some were lifting goods, some were cleaning the ship and some were transacting goods.

Waitaminute!

A transaction?

I just saw a group of people transacting on one of the ships. Their all-covered clothes drew my attention to getting closer to the ship. What are they doing transaction?

"It's all?"

I vaguely heard their conversation.

"The boss" one replied.

The boss?

"Good, let's go before we get caught"

Caught? Meaning her?

"So you guys mess around" someone remembers them before they actually leave.

And after they had gone, a girl ran towards the old man, whom the group of men had commemorated.

"Dad, who are they? why are they creepy?" ask the girl.

"You don't need to know who they are" said the old man.

"But yeah, I heard they threatened me before I left."

"You misheard" his father denied.

Whahuh? Why is the old man lying? Obviously I also heard that they were threatening the old man but he denied it.

"What's right, yeah?" ask the girl to make sure.

"Yes. And what are you doing here? Father has forbidden you to come to the port" said the old man.

"I stopped by because I happened to pass by here" replied the girl.

"Now home! I don't want to see you here again." the old man ordered.

And with a lethargic face the daughter left her father.

"Captain, I'm sorry. Because I was late in sending the drugs they came here and destroyed the captain's ship. I deserve to be punished." said someone who was struggling.

So what they're dealing with, isn't it drugs? And this old man who sold her?

"Basic fool!" kick the old man to him.

I was shocked by what I just saw, it must have hurt a lot.

"Because you're negligent, they almost cut off my neck! And lightly you apologize? You stupid, you stupid!" the old man shouted without stopping his kicking.

If you keep getting kicked, that guy will die.

"Do you know who they are?" ask the old man in anger.

But the person who kicked him did not answer the old man's question, of course he was holding back his body ache.

"Originally you know that they are one-eyed men, just once to harass them then the life of the bet. Hold him in the bars." swoop him on the others with the same anger.

Without realizing that my tears had fallen from earlier, I felt so sorry for the person that the old man kicked. The pain, bruising and humiliation he got from working like that made me nauseous.

I ran away from the ship but my legs stumbled and it created a suspicious look from them.

"Great, I'm caught."

I was worried, because I had eavesdropped on their conversation and was afraid of things I didn't want to happen. With all my calm I got up and ran as fast as I could in a direction I knew nothing about.

"Catch her!"

I heard that angry scream.

Oh my God, please congratulations.

I don't know the streets around the harbor, where I should hide from their pursuit. And I don't know at all what wasa, my stupid self didn't listen to Wasa's words.

I kept running until I found a place for junk and without a second thought I hid there. I tried to calm my almost dislodged heart, hoping they would leave without finding me.

I kept waiting, trying to think of something fun, but nothing came to mind. Do I have no memories at all, right? If so, I am pathetic.

"Beryl!" scream someone.

"Where are you, Ryl?" yell again.

Wasa...

That's Wasa's voice!

"I think he's not around, Wasa" said someone.

If Wasa's around this means it's safe, I can get out.

With a giant step I walked out toward the sound, a sound that would keep me safe.

And sure enough not how far away from me stood, I could see it. The man who called my name in his gentle voice, the man who offered her a sense of security with her, the man I knew by the name of Wasa.

"Wasa, I'm here" I replied.

He turned his head towards me, I could see him slowly approaching. But why did my view start to blur?

Suddenly a black fog blocked my view.

"Son." said someone.

I turned around to look for the source of the sound, but only the darkness I saw.

"Did you know about the night of the lights at the beginning of the new year?" say it again.

I know this voice, Grandma.

"When grandma goes out for a while and you date alone. When grandma came home you were crying hard." continued grandma.

"When grandma asked why are you crying? You answer with a hiccup if you feel lonely when the lights are off."

Yes I remember grandma.

"Do you remember the antidote when you feel lonely?" ask grandma.

But I don't remember at all what the antidote is.

"Hug someone close to you, say if you need a warm hug to calm your heart, he will understand." replied the gentle grandmother.

A hug? Does it drive away my loneliness?

"Patience my son, grandma knows you're strong" said the grandmother and disappeared after her.

Unlike my past dreams, I can't even see my grandmother in my dreams.

"Ryls... Beryl.." said someone.

"Beryl... Aware "

I heard that call.

"I shouldn't leave you alone if you're like this" she said.

I can feel the anxiety of his voice.

"Neo, I'm going first. We'll talk again" he told Neo.

I was eager to open my eyes and answer her call, but my eyes were too heavy to open. I felt like my body was floating and in Wasa's arms I fainted.