
I admit Arini is a beautiful woman with a male outlook. And her beauty can increase because she has a strong aura from within her.
Since the accident my life has been limited. I began to be upset with my father who always compared the advantages of Arini with me.Especially when Arini could graduate school briefly because it has a genius brain.
If it wasn't for the accident maybe I wouldn't have had an arranged marriage like now.My life was tormented by that matchmaking. My achievements have always been demanded. All my efforts are worthless in my father's eyes. I'mtired. I'm not stupid. I have done my best so that I always excel. Even among my friends I was the champion. But if juxtaposed with Arini I always lose in front of dad. I was charged with the same as what Arini did at that time.
Since entering High School I started to be close to a woman named Renata. Her cheerful personality makes friends comfortable if close to her.
At first I always saw him from far away. Among women he seemed more prominent, that was according to my judgment. His face that always smiles at anyone and is not choosy if friends make him liked by many people. He is easily familiar with anyone including me.
Yes, I was always alone and not confident always afraid to be close to my friends.
Until one day when sports hours came. Sports gurus make a grouping for relay race. Each group has 5 members. I happened to be in a group with Renata at that time.
My group just happened to lose to the others. The reason is that I was always hesitant to be able to run. But Renata always cheered me on "It's nothing it's just a game. Somebody loses somebody wins." Those words have always been rattling up until now.
Day by day my familiarity was getting closer to Renata. And I'm more comfortable being close to him. He was always proud of me and always cheered me on when my father scolded me. He's a place to confide and moan for me. And I started to like him as a man. I think I'm in love with Renata. I am determined to marry her one day and will reject my arranged marriage to Arini.
Renata was always happy when I always picked her up and drove her back and forth in a car. Sometimes after school I always take him for a walk wherever he wants. Because all this time I've never been with my friends except Renata. We enjoyed being together that time. And our closeness is no longer a secret among my friends at school.
With the luxuries and amenities that my father gave me I began to pamper Renata with some items and fulfill his wishes. I'm proud to make her happy. There was happiness in itself when I was considered precious in the presence of Renata. If it's near me he's always sulking spoiled and relying on me in many ways. Including working on PR.
Until graduation came. I plan to continue my study abroad according to my father's direction. Renata spoke to me, "he said he couldn't continue studying abroad because his family couldn't afford it. I'm very sad. I don't want Renata to part with me. I'm afraid I'll have to lose Renata.
I was determined to find a scholarship and give my tuition fee to Renata. So that I can stay with him.
School fees keep flowing. My parents didn't know I was taking the scholarship and giving Renata my tuition. That didn't make my parents suspicious. No matter what I ask, my father will always give it to me but I want them not to suspect me of having given my tuition to Renata.
My college turn was in order, I had a two-year internship at a foreign company while waiting for Renata to finish college. My college is faster than Renata's nota bene art guy.
And when Renata finished college I felt relieved. I went back to Indonesia together hoping I could marry Renata.
But my father even warned me to marry Arini according to my arranged agreement with Arini at that time. My father didn't budge when I wanted to marry Renata and refused an arranged marriage.
Until one time I told Renata that if I married Renata I would be removed from the heirs. And I asked her are you ready to be poor with me? Renata was silent. I looked at his face like I was disappointed. Either disappointed because I will be poor or maybe he was used to all the facilities I gave. So I postponed our marriage because I didn't feel ready for poverty.
I can't avoid that match. I had to marry Arini and I promised Renata to be patient. I promised her that I would be faithful and was looking for a way so that I could get a divorce from Arini.
I want a simple wedding without inviting many people so that when I get married again there is not much slanted gossip with me.
I plan to bring Arini to the apartment immediately so that everyone does not suspect my plan. I spent my bridal night with Renata.
That night I sensed that Renata was not a girl anymore. Where did he give up his stories? All this time I was always with him. I have always maintained the principle of not having sex before marriage so that night was my first experience touching a woman.
Suddenly the phone rang on the apartment's security phone. He said Arini could not open the apartment door. I was stunned to hear it. Even though I don't love him as a human being I still have compassion. That night I went straight from Renata after we had an illicit relationship.
Arriving at the apartment we were both silent. And the next day I saw a message on the refrigerator wall. Apparently he left early. I saw his room was all messy making my head dizzy.
Still tired, I decided to go a little afternoon to the office. I saw my phone a lot of notifications turned out to be coming from Arini's spending. I'm getting stressed.
I have a headache so I can't work properly. Finally, Gery and I decided to go to the spa and massage to relax my tangled mind.
Arriving at the apartment, I returned to stress after smelling the smell of cooking that rattled inside the apartment. I told Arini to throw away all the food she had made.