Being Cruel Empress
16. Repeating Time-1 [Winter]

[Winter]

I don't know what happened to me. As soon as I opened my eyes, I was in the tent. Though I should have been in the palace and I .. ah, damn it! I saw something inappropriate when I just walked out of my study. I saw my Secretary Erwan, and Catharina was making out. And I just found out that they were actually lovers since before Cathrina asked the Baron to take me to the palace. When I caught them, I had a fight and was sure I had Erwan killed.

When I touched my neck there was no blood, no wounds, and no pain. It means I'm fine right now. I wondered why I was in the tent? I am sure that the last war is over. Suddenly I was shocked when Carlos came in and said he objected to my opinion. When I asked, what does that mean? And Carlos told me, only then did I realize that I had gone back in time.

"How can I repeat time?" I thought I was confused as if I couldn't believe it.

If it matches what Carlos told me, it means that I repeated it to five years before I killed Erwan. Where after this I have to go back to the palace and later bring Catharina. I don't understand, why should I go back at the wrong time? After taking Catharina to the palace, she would definitely act out and make Ellena suffer. And he'll definitely make me bow to him. Stupidly I didn't know that in my first life. If I'm going to be controlled with a potion containing brainwashing magic. I also just found out that fact after finding the two snakes making out. Goddamnit! they're really very sneaky.

"Your Majesty, are you okay?" ask Carlos.

"Hm, I'm having a little headache. It's okay now. Tell me, what's your reason for disagreeing with my decision?" I looked at Carlos.

"Because it would definitely be painful for Her Majesty the Empress. Didn't you think of him? On the night of the wedding you didn't see him, just because he didn't want to be found. And the next day you go straight to war. It only tells Mr. Erwan. Not directly to Her Majesty the Empress. Two months later you come back from the war and suddenly bring another woman. Wouldn't that definitely make Her Majesty's heart hurt? forgive my stupidity to say something like this. I just want to express my opinion" Carlos explained.

That's how my knight commander spoke his mind. His explanation left me speechless. If only I had come back before meeting Baron Rosaro, I would have rejected that ridiculous request. Unfortunately I returned while resting in the tent camp on the way to the palace.

"Not to worry. Didn't I reject the Baron's daughter as a concubine or mistress? You have to remember that the imperial law will never be changed. The Emperor's spouse was only the Empress, there was no place for another woman, not even the daughter of a war hero. I won't let my Empress down, Sir Wishtone." I explained and reassured her.

Carlos' face was relieved. He seems to believe my words. Such was Carlos, a good friend as well as the Imperial Knight Commander. All I need to do is think about things that will happen in the future. Since I have memories from my first life, I can fix everything in the future right now. Since Catharina is going to enter the palace, then I have to watch her movements.

***

In the study I was pacing back and forth waiting for Ellena's arrival. I also thought that the thing that had just happened at the dinner table, was something that had never happened in my first life. I remember clearly, Ellena who came immediately sat down quietly. He did not care even though he was not greeted by Catharina and just ate quietly.

Ellena came, she said unexpected things when she met me. She's not the Ellena I know. He's like everybody else. His stern manner of speaking, as well as his sharp gaze made me continue to compare Ellena who was in the first and second life. Ellena misunderstands, thinking that Catharina is a mistress. If I had lived before, I would have appreciated Ellena's words because I was under the influence of brainwashing. If I were now, of course I refused firmly. I told you that I have no other woman besides the empress. And my words embarrassed him. His face was slightly red.

Hm. .. she's cute and adorable. I just realized that my Empress is a beautiful woman, even very beautiful. Because I did not want to make it burdened, I also repeated all his words and wishes.

***

Two days passed. I really can't eat with Ellena and only eat with Catharina. Meksi was uncomfortable, I held back. I secretly scoured Catharina's heart, wanting to know what Catharina was thinking.

Unexpected events happen. I heard from the butler that Ellena punished Catharina's waitress for spilling tea. Ellena punished him so severely that she locked him in jail. I was thinking, if Ellena really changed. If it was Ellena I knew, she would just smile and say it's okay even if it's really okay.

Catharina met me and at the same time Ellena came to see me too. I met the two because I wanted to know what was going on. Again Ellena asserted her status, if she was the Empress and the words of the Empress were absolute, there could be no bargaining. Catharina was asked to leave by Ellena because Cathrina wanted to talk to me. So said Ellena. Again Ellena misunderstood, thinking I would defend Catharina.

We also talk. After speaking Ellena said goodbye. I stopped him and invited him to dinner. I want to make amends, now I want to pay more attention to Ellena. I was happy when Ellena asked for my request.

***

Ellena and I had dinner together. I keep watching him. To be honest I still don't run out of thought, how can there be such a beautiful woman? My mind was also imagining. Though I knew he must be uncomfortable being stared at, but I could not turn away from him

I saw him eating quietly and gracefully. He enjoyed his food so much. Somehow I felt he was going to leave immediately after his meal on the plate ran out? My guess is not wrong, he will indeed leave immediately after this. That's why I took her for a walk, and I didn't want her to turn it down.