Being Cruel Empress
17. Repeating Time-2 [Winter]

[Winter]

I know what Ellena was thinking as she walked with me towards the park. Her lips were indeed silent, but her face and body movements seemed to tell me, if this woman was fretting. Like I'm uncomfortable with it. It was natural for him to be like that, because I suddenly invited him to talk and walk around, even though I wasn't like this before. Honestly, I feel so guilty about Ellena. Thousands of times an apology, if I say to him on my knees, it will not erase his disappointment in me.

When Ellena and I were in the rose garden, in my palace. I watched him fall silent, then asked him something that surprised me. He asked, why didn't I come to see him on the wedding night? and why the next day when I went to battle I did not say goodbye? It's freaky. Didn't he tell Erwan that he didn't want to be found? I told Erwan to help Ellena as long as I wasn't around. I also left a message to convey my departure, as well as my apology.  Because I didn't want Ellena to misunderstand me, I told her the truth. Only then did I know, it turned out that Ellena didn't get my message. And more surprising is, Erwan lied to me by saying that Ellena didn't want to be found. Ellena looked sad, and I felt very guilty. Right Carlos said, I should have come even if Ellena forbade. I should have met him and said goodbye. Ellena suspects Erwan has a purpose and a purpose in lying. And he asked me about Erwan. Of course I can't tell you the truth, if Erwan was a mean and ruthless person, who could kill an Emperor. I said Erwan is someone who is quick to respond and work hard, because that's the reality. He's a musty, but he turns out to be very cunning and thirsty for power. To be honest Erwan is Mom's niece, which means he's my cousin. It's just not

Damn Catharina came at the wrong time, made Ellena leave and I had to be alone with an obscure woman named Catharina. My eyes fixed on Ellena's departure, it's a pity that we only talk for a moment. After Ellena's departure, I had to face reality to hear Catharina's nonsense. Yes, he complains that he feels bored and bored. Without even mentioning I know what it means. Does he think I'll follow his words? it wasn't that easy after I knew her true intentions and purpose she approached me. I tried to harbor my anger and frustration so that I wouldn't be angry with him. Since I was fed up, I said he could go for a walk out and do something to relieve his boredom and satiety. I reasoned that I had a headache, and wanted to rest. I asked him to return to the palace where he lived and rested. For now I have to be kind and show my stupid side, so that he is provoked and show his weakness. There is nothing better, by pretending to be stupid, but I know the storyline they will make.

***

Next day. Ellena said goodbye to the Grand Duke's residence. I asked and asked when he would come back. He said he would stay in his father's castle for a week. I'm quite surprised, but I don't forbid it. Let him do what he wants. Ellena looked at me in a meaningful way, but I couldn't say anything but to ask her to be careful.

Shortly after Ellena's departure, I called Carlos and asked him to go to the Grand Duke's castle after his affairs were over. I want Carlos to escort Ellena, because something can happen without being expected. Carlos immediately followed my orders and went to complete his task of training the Imperial soldiers.

I hope Ellen is okay. Because I won't be able to watch him directly. All I had to do was finish my work and think of a way to prevent my bleak future. What should I do to escape Catharina's brainwashing influence? if I make the same mistake, will I be able to bear the consequences? I can't kill Ellena. I did enough in my previous life. I must also avoid my tragic death at the hands of Erwan.

***

Three days just passed. My days feel empty without Ellena. The woman did not give any news or letters. Just the reply of the letter when I sent Carlos who came, even then the contents of the letter were short, dense and clear. I need to hurry up and finish my work today, because I plan to sneak out of the palace later tonight.

"I have seized the potion seller. I leave it to one of the residents. After this I plan to take care of it. I hope you hear well my words, Aagr You are avoiding while Lady Catharina and Mr. Erwan so as not to cause trouble" Carlos said.

"I understand. Go and please take care of the potion seller. Whatever happens, tell him to open his mouth about the potion and find out the antidote. If you don't want to open your mouth, you can do violence to her to some extent. I'll give him to you, Sir Wishtone." I said I'd rule Carlos.

"I accept your orders, Your Majesty. I resigned," said Carlos.

Carlos has passed. And I immediately left the Library to my workroom to finish my work that I had delayed because I was tired of dealing with the overlap of documents.

And the night ...

I sneaked into the Grand Duke's castle. I went straight to the balcony of Ellena's room and knocked on Ellena's window. I waited a long time and the window opened by Ellena. Seeing me coming, Ellena was surprised.  Looking at Ellena, it feels like I'm back alive. Tired, tired and my assistant disappeared. I hugged her, and subconsciously I tightened the hug making her tight. I let go of her hug and apologized to her.

Ellena asked if I was okay or not? and whether the two bad guys, Catharina and Erwan gave me a drink or not. He looks worried. I pulled it up and said I didn't get any drinks from them. Ellena seemed relieved as soon as I answered "no".  I heard him nagging, he warned me and said I should follow his words. I answered and repeated all his words.

Ellena fell silent, I brought my face closer to hers and pressed my forehead against her forehead, I felt her temperature warm. I thought he was sick, because his face was also blushing. However, Ellena firmly said she was fine. He asked me to leave, but I had just arrived, and was not satisfied to see him. I teased her, I immediately took off the robe I was wearing and lay down on her bed. I said I'd leave after seeing Ellena leave. That is, until I finally really left after he slept. 

"I'll risk everything to protect you, Ellena. Before I was guilty and made you suffer until I steadfastly drew my sword at you. In this life, let me atone for my sins." I said in my heart.