CEO of Golden Hair
Conscious (4)
"Titip buyin ice cream when you go home" A short message from Nita made me turn my eyes.
It's been three weeks I've been staying at Nita's house, I've been having a hard time sleeping on my own because I'm still traumatized by the last incident, but it looks like my best friend is starting to sprain with my presence in her house. Lately he's been getting more and more happy to disturb me, not to mention his bad sleeping habits. Looks like I should be back at my house soon.
Long story short, Cesper called Nita to pick me up at the hotel and Nita called Leo to pick up my leftover items at the restaurant. While Cesper who is the main character even disappeared without news in my life. He never showed me his nose in front of me again.
Actually I'm still angry and do not understand Cesper's actions, but instead of coming to apologize or love explanation, he just disappeared. I never received a broadcast from him again and for the matter of the R&D project is still running on target only he never turned on the zoom camera every time the meeting. He seems to be avoiding me intentionally.
It feels shitty, I'm having insomnia, my blind dates are fucked up too. Leo blocked my phone number, he thinks I'm playing with his feelings for going on a blind date when he's already a girlfriend. He also had to bear the shame of being a spectacle material for restaurant visitors at that time. If I were him, he would do the same, but Cesper, the culprit behind all this mess, just disappeared.
If I see you I'll make sure he gets a commensurate reply, I have to think of a way to repay his actions. Did I just take her hair? or throw it in his shoes? or do I just squash his neck? The latter seems too much
"Excuse me Joline" Mr. Fendi's voice broke my daydream
"Yes sir?" I said
"Have R&D projects been going smoothly lately?"
"So far there's no obstacle sir, is there an obstacle?" I'm confused by what Mr. Fendi meant by the question
"Let's look at the resignation chart in the R&D dept this month, touching the highest number of other depts" explained Mr. Fendi while showing some files
I took a quick look at the charts and not just this month but this is the highest number in Dept R&D history. How do I not realize this, whereas one of my responsibilities is to pay attention to employee turnover in and out. This must be because I rarely or arguably never surveyed the R&D dept because I was busy avoiding Cesper.
"Okay sir, I apologize for my negligence not being aware of this matter" I replied
"Well sir, I will check and analyze further" I replied, ending the conversation with Mr. Fendi.
I started doing my analysis and contacted the head of the R&D department and several officers to discuss the matter.
It didn't take long for us to finally find the root cause. And true again
Cesspers!
I slammed the documents towards the table for feeling a high level of emotion, not enough to just mess up my blind date it turned out that he was also planning to destroy my record of achievement in keeping the employees from resigning. Based on the reports received, Cesper treated the workers there with as good as possible, forcing the members to work late into the night, overtime, giving a warning letter for no apparent reason even some report that he often rages on small mistakes such as typos in presentation materials.
Wow is awesome! This is already too much. My inner
I finally decided to go to B building to clear up the case. Let's solve at once with the problem yesterday, we see how the reaction if you see the person who always avoided it appears suddenly in his office. I impatiently took the car keys and walked towards the car park.
It didn't take me long to get to building B and I haven't been able to get out of the car yet I saw Cesper. Instead of running out and grabbing her hair, I closed the door and sat back, watching the figure that had messed up my life. All those emotions just evaporated.
Where was all my courage? why is my body not moving? Shouldn't I come to him and throw this file cool? Why can't my body move?
Cesper who was standing at the front door looked very messy, he looked much thinner than we last met, dull skin, thick eye bags, disheveled hair and unshaved whiskers. What strange feeling am I feeling now? I should have strangled her like I had planned to, but why did I even feel like hugging her?
I finally decided to leave, I knew I wasn't ready to face Cesper. Just looking at it from afar I've been like this what else do our eyes meet? What exactly do I want? I should be angry but why would I want to hug her? Where were your emotions and courage? My vision became blurry, so I pulled my car over. Without realizing it, my tears flowed out and again I cried. I've never felt this desperate before.
It seems I already know the answer, I have been deceiving myself and can not accept the reality. The sense of sprain I felt was not because he messed up my blind date but rather the sense of sprains because he just disappeared into my life, after all the treatment and attention that hooked me and kept thinking about it. Though I know very well this heartbeat is not triggered by anger but a feeling of pleasure, pleasure I finally have a reason to meet him. Until I saw her figure just now, I knew I missed her. A longing so great that he wanted to embrace her immediately. The thing I was afraid of finally happened as well, I was already in love with Cesper.