Clandestine
Wedding for Our First Night

I took a deep breath—repeated times—to reduce the degup

my heart is getting out of control. I never thought my wedding day would be

arrived this fast. Errata. I mean yeah.I'm confused to explain. Long ago

I haven't found anyone who wants to marry me yet, it feels like time goes by

lama—though I don't really care about marriage—but when today

I was faced with that fact, marrying a stranger man all of a sudden

coming into my life and being willing to marry me, it felt so fast.

“Jul Eli patted my shoulder from behind. I stared

the woman came from behind the mirror and smiled. Oww.really my smile behind make.

this up is very unnatural.

I slowly squeezed Eli's hand which was still on my shoulder while

nods.

“Jul, ijab qabul start soon!” Mom from the entrance of the room

exclaims.

I'm Back to taking a Long Breath. I saw Eli preparing a

a seat in front of a television screen connected to a temporary hotel ballroom

MUA-ku, mbak Kia is back to touch-up my make-up. Subjected

all is well, I was helped to sit in the chair that Eli had prepared earlier.

Wearing a heavy bun and traditional Javanese clothes like this makes me a little

trouble, because I never wear it. But my confidence

increased drastically, because I admit I am so beautiful with clothes like this.

From the television screen, I saw the invited guests who started to sit neatly

in their respective seats, Reza as the host has shown

his expertise to make the event more lively. There's papa there, sit down

side by side with the ruler, some witnesses that I don't know very well and….

Holy hooch!

Isn't that Reinard?

I felt like I wanted to faint at how handsome my future husband was

behind the white clothes he wears. My heart's pounding back, isn't it

thinking about how he would say the word ijab qobul later, because I

sure he is more than capable because he has been training for a few days. Except for

thinking about how our first night will be. How to start and…..

“Jul.” Eli's hand clap on my shoulder dispels my dirty thoughts in

the most important moment of my life. “Events start immediately.”

On the television screen I saw that everything was ready. It's not even already

reza's voice is behind the microphone because I'm sure he's also coming

sit between the invitations. Actually yesterday he offered to be

witness, but I refuse firmly.

“Sorry, I don't want my marriage not legal because of the kind

your unclear genitals!” and of course I get a lot of swearing

from her.

I held my breath When papa had thrust his hand, prepared

handing his beloved daughter to Reinard. I was originally deg-deg’an

it's frozen in place. Papa's words, and a series of words ijab qabul

the smoothness of Reinard's mouth automatically made my eyes wet. So did my mom and

The Eli I saw also wiped away the tears. When all the guests arrive

thank you when all witnesses say ‘sah,sah,sah’ repeatedly, water

my eyes are flowing back.

And this very second, even though I still don't really believe it,

I'm officially a lady of Reinard Saputra.

*****

After Ijab qabul, Mama and Eli took me down from my hotel room to

the ballroom. The entire invited guest looked at me with a smile When we arrived at the

at the front door, Reinard looked at me incessantly even though he turned his head occasionally

kea rah other.this is the beginning of our meeting into a husband-itri pair, in front

underwriting. In the midst of the excitement of the invitations congratulating.

“Thanks, you are great.” My whisper on the sidelines greets guests.

It has been over half an hour since we stood up and smiled

sumringah received a congratulatory statement from the invitees. I honestly want to

immediately sit down, release my heels, take off my bun that feels like it hit

my head and of course this kebaya that wrapped around my body. bathed in water

warm, and of course doing our duty as husband and wife. Akhhh,

how delightful….

“Dan...this is the song for our bride.

Beautiful In White..!” Excited Reza excitedly behind the mic, and no

a long time ago a song from Shane Filan that echoed filled the Ballroom

the hotel.

“Are you tired?” ask Reinard. His eyes are down, in the direction

my feet have been moving ever since.

I nodded slowly. “Banget.”

Reinard didn't reply to my words, he just pulled me down from

he gave me a seat and led me to a chair. “ISbreak first here,

I'll get you a drink. Not many have come to see us. Let

they'll come here.”

I just nodded, feeling so honored to be treated by my husband

with so sweet. Secretly my eyes followed her walking towards

drink table, and bring me a glass of white wine. Despite wearing a stelan

beskap complete with batik, he looks so comfortable, different from me.

“Minum...” He handed me the drink.

I received the glass and held it until it ran out. I

it was very thirsty, because since then continue to put on a smile until

dry throat.

“Sorry if I interrupt.” Suddenly Eli came with a face

sour like never before. I know what's causing his face to be upset

like those. Who else if not Doni— ex-husband who turned out to come

to my wedding party.

“Please.” I'm laughing a little. “Mau vent also can.” I glanced

Reinard who seemed indifferent to the arrival of Eli. I had a chance

tell Reinard about Eli's past relationship with Doni and it seems

the man understood.

Eli stomped his feet in annoyance. “Why do you know humans

that?!” he dedicated to Doni who was talking to papa.

the invitation is here, eighty percent of which I do not know. Because

they're all my papa guests and Papa Reinard. So you ask papa about

why don't Doni all.” My papar.

Eli snorted, chugging the drink he had been carrying.

“Gue really met her Jul.”

“But never loved khan?”

“It was. Now 'no!” Reply firmly. “Gue will not

I'll see him again.”

But that's just a sentence that came out of Eli's mouth, not from his heart

Eli. The proof was a few minutes later, when Doni came to congratulate him

to me and Reinard, and then invite Eli to talk for a while in the park

behind, the woman still followed him even though with a groggy face.

“Padalaah earlier he said he would not like to meet the ex

her husband's. Uh, now instead ho’oh aja time invited mojok?” I said on

Reinards.

And the quiet man just smiled at my words.

******

I was probably in the room for more than half an hour

baths. Sculpting myself in front of the mirror. Seeing my figure from reflection

that thing is clingy. Wet hair and make-up

completely gone and the smell of my body that was fragrant enough has not succeeded

it made me feel confident coming out of the bathroom to see my husband.

Complete our obligations after being lawfully husband and wife.

Many times I lowered my head, staring at my sleeping pajamas well. Clear

once this new pajama and still so neat, what I was worried about was just

with a pajama? It will also be useless.

No. gabe. I can't be like this. I have to learn from someone

at least more experienced than me.

Eli.

“Why Jul?” His voice echoed in my ear when I called him. “Lo

won't ask what I obrolin with my ex husband, right?”

“Gue don't care!”

“Terus?”

“Gue nervous.” My voice is slow, hoping Reinard doesn't listen

our conversations.

I heard Eli breathing.

“What makes you so scared?”

I thought for a moment. Yes, yes, what scares me?

“Gue was afraid of disappointing him. You know, this is my first time.

It—”

My words were interrupted by a swig from Eli.

“Please Jul. your age is no longer ABG. You should have understood.

That lo will have a natural instinct when dealing with him?”

I don't deny but justify what Eli said.

“But El—”

“Jul.” Cut Eli fast. “Pull deep breath. Remember in your mind

that everything will be fine and everyone is going through it. Yang

most importantly you have to focus and of course offset your husband. I'm sure though

his age is below lo, he can teach you well.”

Little by little I started to feel confident.

“Lo sure El, if I can?”

“Yelah Jul....lo do not want me to marry at what age?!”

I'm laughing a little.

“Tumben you want to talk about the past lo?” my tease.

“This is for lo time. If not for your sake I also do not want to talk

about it.”

i laugh. Wanted to ask what Eli and Doni were talking about

afternoon but not. I'd better ask her later, when I see Eli

direct. This is not the time to ask that. There's more

it was important, and it was my first night.

“Good. Finish up tonight and don't call me again because

I'm sleepy.” Eli ended our conversation.

After Eli hung up the phone, I looked back at my face in the mirror.

Make sure everything is in good condition. After taking a deep breath,

slowly I opened the door. Prepare to meet my husband and a new experience.

However, I was a little stunned when I saw Reinard looking neat

with his shirt stellan and the bag draped over his shoulder. The man looks

busy with his phone and car keys.

“Lho, where are you going?” many confused.

The man looked at me, and walked up to me in a slight hurry.

“Sorry, I have to go to the hospital. Something important with my patient.”

He patted my arm and walked to the door.

I was stunned for a moment. Hope Reinard is joking around with

his speech. But seeing how excited he is now, I know if he is

not lying about this.

“I leave ya?”

I didn't say it, just squealed it with an empty heart.

Especially when he opened the door, I still did not take any words out of it

my mouth.

“Oh yes...” Reinard turned his head before completely closing the door.

I raised my chin.

“AKu not sure when to go home, tonight don't wait for me.” Subsequent to

he pulled the doorknob and closed it tightly.

I froze in front of the door for a long time.

Hope this hotel room number 105 door is back open and Reinard figure

it comes from there. Nil.

I don't know if I should be happy or sad tonight. Happy because

what is mine is still intact there, or sad because my husband is not

stay with me for the first night.

******