Contains Son Jin Handsome
Kanaya's Suspicion

Episode 9: the:

" So you saw Dion walk with another girl?." Ita mbak.

" It's not certain, mbak. I just look at it from behind, and the same stelan body shape looks a lot like him." Obviously me.

" And I heard them talking about responsibility. Is it possible that she is pregnant?."

" Yes probably too. You can't accuse me without evidence. Following your heart may be, but we also have to have proof that he's wrong."

" Everything, people say that instring is never wrong, but to accuse without evidence is much more wrong." Add mbak Ita. I nodded and understood, while continuing to seriously listen to the advice of Mr. Ita.

" What about dong mbak?." My whine, ask for advice to ita ma'am.

" Imm." Ita mbak.

It seemed that Ita was looking up and patting her index finger on her chin. Signs he's seriously thinking about something.

" What if I help you to investigate Dion secretly?. That's if you agree." Say mbak Ita again.

Without thinking for a long time, I immediately agreed with the means mbak Ita which I think there is no harm. I also nodded steadily.

" I hope it's not Dion. I didn't mean to, make spies in him. But I also have to be vigilant as a woman. I'm just afraid, if that's true, Dion. I'm afraid he's benefiting me, or there's something he's hiding, that I don't know." My murmuring, which of course is still heard by mbak Ita.

" That's right Nay. I agree with your thoughts." Speak mbak Ita encouraging.

" Yes, you're working again. Ma'am also wants to write some more files, abis it home deh." Continue mbak Ita.

I also nodded lethargicly. Feeling tired with all this. Not only physically tired, but also spiritually. My mind is raging, between fearing if it's Dion. Also feel guilty because I also made mistakes that are not small.

I don't want to accept that Dion did that, but I'm also selfish to blame him, and I made a mistake. And if he had known, he might have been more disappointed than I was.

Tired, all day just looking at a laptop with air-conditioned room.

Finally after that exhausting work, I went home alone by taxi.

If you ask me why I always go home and go alone, even though I already have a lover. The answer is because Dion always reasoned that he was busy. Yes, maybe he was busy every day, so there was never time to drive and pick me up. That's why I never got dizzy and felt suspicious, where and with whom he was. Because I fully believe in him.

But after the incident I just experienced. My heart began to waver, and my trust began to erode. Warring with suspicion that began to inhabit this heart, whether from when.

It was during my time with Dion. We rarely met, even though she used to call me by phone, and told me everything she did. That's what makes me always believe without putting the slightest suspicion on her. Although sometimes, he doesn't want me to communicate through video calls. The reason is, she won't show my face to her male business friends. Because she's afraid they'll like me, because I'm too pretty.

Is it a fight or real?.

After a few minutes of raging with his own mind. I don't think I've finally reached home. I paid and went in immediately.

As usual, I'm going to go to the room first to clean myself up and then after that dinner.

But my steps stopped when suddenly the mother who was sitting with papa, who like her was also preparing to eat, suddenly called me.

" Kanaya!." I'm turning.

" Yes ma." Answer me briefly.

" Here, mommy and dad want to talk seriously about you." Mama said. I immediately approached them and sat down with them.

They look at each other. It is like allowing each other to say something. So did I who looked at them alternately, with a look of wonder.

Finally, papa gave up. He seemed to take a deep breath and then exhale slowly. As if what he was going to say was so serious.

" Papa just wanted to ask. Your relationship with Dion, how far has it gone?." Ask Papa who suddenly makes me so nervous.

" What kind of papa ma-ksud?." I asked back.

" Papa means. Have you ever planned a wedding before?, or have you never planned one at all?." Ask me again, seriously.

" Imm." I'm just mumbling. Confused what to say to my parents.

" Why are you suddenly asking me about that?. Didn't you ever have to worry about that?." I ventured to ask.

Papa looked silent and thought of something.

He took another deep breath before starting to speak.

" It's true. But papa is only afraid if you date too long, you can fall into a direction that is not good. After all, you guys are all grown up too. It's worth getting married." Say papa with full authority.

" Gini is pa. I'll talk about this with Dion first. Now I am tired of the reward. I'm sorry I can't talk about this right now." Answer me.

" Yes, I don't know if you're tired. We can continue this tomorrow. You better take a break." Papa.

I nodded, then immediately stepped towards the room.

" But before you take a break, you have to eat Nay." Mom cried when I was in front of my room.

" Yes." Yeah." My answer was short, and a little loud.

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Right now I don't want to talk about marriage, because my mind and heart are not okay. It also has something to do with Dion.

I need to find out about Dion's background before he and I tie a promise.

Actually, I'm one of those women who's stupid about kasmaran. If I like someone, I will not think twice about accepting them.

I never even asked about Dion's family and status. Dion himself never introduced me to his family. He only ever took me to a luxurious villa, but just for a walk. And he also took me to a company, which he said belonged to his family.

While the villa, is his own private property

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After the completion of the night ritual, aka bathing and eating, I did not immediately rest.

Because for me it's free. I won't be able to sleep well because of the disturbing thoughts.

So I decided to go to the rooftop to try to calm myself down.

Because usually, if I'm struggling or having problems, I always go there to just find the wind and calm. Sometimes I use that place to work.