CRACKS
Aaaaah!

It's late, now Rara's going nowhere, alfian actually wanted to drive her to Jasmine's house but Rara chose to get off near the bus stop on the grounds that there was a need for long periods of time to wait for alfian to stay away but eventually alfian believed.

and now Rara just walk with a mind drifting, herself here but her brain is out of nowhere, which is in Rara's mind only 'Hamil' is that all I'm afraid of? moreover, the man took her inside, how about if later actually rara pregnant does she want responsibility? ah just imagine making rara goosebumps how if it actually2 happened and he did not want to be responsible? Arghh rara was dizzy thinking this.

maybe if this road is crowded rara is thought to be crazy yelling2 himself while pulling his hair he was tired, just say fragile rara.

"god is tired, Rara is tired of this life?" her tears escaped from the eyes.

"Rara nyerah, mamah papah rara want to follow mamah papah!? Rara wants to be happy that's all Rara wants but why it's so hard for Rara to reach out now Rara is not a plain girl anymore rara dirty girl, mah what can be rara nyerah, rara nyerah, what reward can you follow" said Rara monologue with herself while looking up at the sky, many shining stars.

rara continued her path while hugging her own body in tears she could not hold back her tears anymore, when on the road Rara saw the rope mine near the bushes2 rara approached and looked at the rope while smiling slanted her tears escaped instantly, rara took the rope.

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Rara tied the rope to a tree high enough to measure her own neck and rara put the rope around her neck before hanging herself.

"god forgive your servant who has taken the path of the devil" he said

"mah pah wait for rara ya" after that rara.

and.....

next events..........

rara's.....

"son don't" shouted a middle-aged man from behind Rara.

"son down do not hurt yourself" said the woman who had held Rara's wrist, Rara looked at the mother

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rara sat in a place not far from the tree, Rara and the mother were sitting on the side of the road, it was dark even the rider was a bit that was passing by

"what's the problem?" asked the mother, Rara just stared straight with her tears clear, the mother understood that the girl in front of her could not answer only her tears that she was able to remove, she said, the mother immediately hugged Rara's body and rubbed Rara's back affectionately making rara increasingly become crynya

the mother let go of her wound, and Rara wiped her tears with the back of her hand.

"no matter how bad your problem is, don't even think about ending your life, life goes on and it's the key to you becoming an adult or becoming a better person, make the problem as a lesson for you, life is indeed a lot of trials to go to happiness" said the mother sincerely.

"The mother said it didn't apply to me" Rara said as she stared at the dark sky

"why doesn't everyone have a problem, you and mom have a problem son"

"it's a proof that God never gives me happiness" said Rara

"Mom, I'm tired I'm tired of living this way, why should I be born if I end up suffering? was I born to feel suffering" said Rara

"no, try to tell the mother who knows mother can help, rather than you pendam this problem yourself" said the mother, Rara turned to look at the mother, did she have to tell it? if Rara did not tell him maybe Rara might be strong?

"huft, first I feel happy when mamah and papah are alive, when I just entered Junior High I died and after two years my widowed father finally married mother every papah mother made me a maid in my own home, even my stepbrother always pitted my sheep with papah and make papah hate me" explained rara, rara could not mengebanyangin when his papa was angry because he came home late and not permission to papah. but actually I was held in the school warehouse, I know the culprit but papah does not want to listen to the explanation.

"so this is what made you end your life" said the mother

"not that, ma'am."

"then why, is your papah being rude"

"the father is dead, the cause of my death, because I met the behavior of my mother and stepbrother, I do not know if the impact would be like this, he said, when I ngadu it turns out that my mother and sister edited my photo that enggak2 made papah got heart attack and died, and I know papah did not die when I just entered High School, hehe can be the same as that" explained rara at the end of the sentence laughing discordantly

"and at that time I was tortured by my mother, even I could not continue school but because I wanted to continue my education until later I became a scholar I was against the word mother, but because I wanted to continue my education, I even sincerely be a maid in my own house, I am grateful because I got a scholarship at High School that is famous so I did not pay for it. and when I was in college I got a scholarship, although college many activities that use fees but that I can get by working side, but ma'am..." rara paused for 5 minutes neutralizing her heart and trying not to cry "Mom would sell me" I could see she was shocked at my last sentence, she gaped at me in disbelief.

"don't be surprised like that ma'am" the mother re-hugged Rara now tightly and with affection

"mom can not say anything mother can only say be patient behind this all must be hidden hikma, no longer hurt yourself" said the mother on the sidelines hugging, hikma, rara nodded she could feel the embrace of the figure of the mother even though she had just known but this hug that longed and again2 rara cried, she cried, the mother who knew Rara was crying took off her wound and wiped the tears with her thumb

"don't be sad anymore, I want you to smile" she asked, smiling.

"that dong smile, your smile is sweet do not cry continuously, the spirit of this life, mother is not in your position but mother can feel it" explained the mother.

"oh, what's your name?" ask the mother

"Rara, if you're mom"

"Rara's a good name, this mother's name"

"oh yes mom has come home first yes, inget do not try to kill yourself again is a sin" said mom ina

then rise from sitting, Rara nods and waves her hand and this is the way.

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**connect....

especially this chapter I lengthen I can not make more sad again if for me so much is sad but do not know if for you guys, hopefully like this is my second story.

oh yes, I wanted to install the visuals but find a visual guy who fits hard, visual rara I already dapet but the guy is difficult so please be patient**