Damaged
Colapse - Collapsed lll

sorry for the friend, I'm heartbroken:)

I know you guys like kepo kepo to my business, but please I need somebody to hear.

if you feel this is not important yaudah gpp you can skip it, or you who feel like to listen to it please read it well, and if you can respond.

I am (author) a girl who is pretty well known to many guys around me, not to show off but in general my friend is a guy.

So I'm a person who has a hard time falling in love and has a hard time believing in people, including the cute girl who the man thinks is a challenge.

because I also need friends and someone who cares about me, I finally downloaded one of the soul mate search applications.

Sure enough, a lot of that match the same me. Even in 3 hours I've matched the same 500 men. of the cowbo men that many who memechat me, because I didn't know much, so they called me on Line.

long story short I was in the same chat a man, who I think is ordinary and I very very highly menjudesin him. But he was patient, he was not angry and still trying to make deket same me. not giving up at all.

I was watching him so hard as me, so patient as I was, I finally collapsed and began to open up to him. I'm starting to change the nature of me who originally judges him so good to him.

we chat every day and he's the type of guy who fast response once, although he's busy whatever keep calling me. if he's really busy and gabisa disturbed, he'll tell me and tell me to wait.

though I am one who does not care about his business, he wants what I do not kepo. until I once said "you want to do also I do not care, I do not care, gausah report can also." Evil? yes, I am rich, I respond he is good but the rich nature still appears.

You know what he said? "yes, I know. But I know better how it feels to be lost without news, so as much as possible I know you." maybe for you rich words that can make melt right? but for me, typing him rich makes me nauseous.

long story we finally meet this, but before the meeting there was a drama first started. Rich "motor I mio in the past, gpp emang you dibonceng same motor butut?" because I am a typical person who is not easy to feel just because the motor is butut, the gap is home, the gap is money etc which people think is ashamed of so I have no problem with the same vehicle business.

trus he chat me again "actually I no longer have money, gasoline is also thin, the money in the wallet is only 50k." well I'm still positive thinking and well still want to help him that by saying "oh its ok, bludgeon trouble for me."

finally we meet and his position there is emang abis rain and maybe in the area he rained heavily until he made a wet rain coat that is so, even though in the place I was not so raining.

we fill up the gas was his motorbike. abis filling gasoline, I'm the same he's running a place and finally he chose a pretty famous place in the area here. he pesen food the same drink and I'm looking for a place.

as soon as I got his place, I sat down and waited for him.he came over, and then said "how much joint do you want?" I'm still positive thinking and still okok aja if pay each, I see the bill trus I love half of the price of food.

I think that he pesen yes for both, it turns out fit comes only food 1 the same drink 1. somewhat kelih, the joint payment period only for him doang who eat for nemenin nugasnya.

even though I was sprained, cooed, angry mo angry, but I was still patient and restrained all the mixed feelings and think positive.

because he told that story, he went to college where, he's never been that, he's a hypocritical gasuka, the former he still loves, he's very much, how he ketemeu and pdktan them until finally the reason they broke up, family problems, etc are still a lot and coincidentally the atmosphere is also raining that much.

ga because the time has been pointed at almost 11.30am, we finally go home and he anterin me to kosan. abistu we continue dichat that

the more here he is good, then ask for wa number because he said line he error. actually he has been asking for a long time but I'm not ggegubris and more bodo very and gor why even so I love.

finally we chat in wa and ninggalin line (poor you)

so far he is still good, still very often connected and he said he was comfortable with me, my nature is fun, the face is also beautiful.

But the more here he's lost, no news, ga chat for 2 weeks. I came to think he was already a new girl and I was left that way, even I thought that I was just used to him, he said, I also thought about what because I had already lost trus he felt no longer challenged so he said that. I don't know but there's a sense of disappointment in me and I'm lucky I still don't like him too much.

At that time I was sick again and because I needed rest plus I was also disturbed again, finally I made a story wa that I was sick and gamau disturbed.

many are indeed, but because my mood is not good and my condition is not healthy which makes me lazy to treat them.

when I was sick for a week and had time to go to the clinic, the doctor advised me to rest and I stopped completely from all the activities that I used to do, rich college, playing together, making a deal with men, men, or drinking (yes, I'm hooked on alcohol. And honestly, from my association, I've had a lot of experience and friends).

Even though the campus was holding a drama competition between classes and I held the position as the chairman of my class, but because the state of the body that did not support finally I did not help during the week.

When I was sick, I stayed in my room. still one neighborhood only different rooms, I also said big thanks to my friend who already wanted to take care of me, I was still in the neighborhood, who wants me to live there.

after I felt quite healthy I finally returned to my room, I took a complete break and 2 days ga college. in the afternoon I think about 03.00pm my classmate came to make property, and, because I feel like my condition is good, I also help.

just again help, the test came very fast. when the test came, he chatted me through WA if he would stop by my boarding house and he was on the road soon nyampe.

the shock? how stupendous! moreover, once he knew 2 weeks more he did not contact again, I told him to come back and gausah come because what else to do the test as well. and I thought there he was riding a motorcycle and wondering how wet he was, like, he was, but he asked me to come and say don't worry 'cause he's got a car and it's at the red light for my hostel.

I'm surprised, car? didn't he say his salary was 50k a day? and that cost him money including his tuition? he told me how hard he was and asked his parents because he happened to be old.

but the thought was that I was badminton, I replaced the same positive thoughts rich "oh maybe he dibabung from his salary and can buy a car."

And really, he was in front of the hostel again standing with an umbrella hehe. I was shocked and embarrassed, why? because there is a position I do not use make up, my clothes are really shabby and my lips break.can imagine how ugly hehe.

temen temen I who again make property even to disobey because they gamau I mengambah sick, but yes how do I also enjoy because he has come.

in the car, cave diem aja. cave is taken around and he even gua mo eat what, he says if sick ya say not make a story. I look at him just like he's a childish abis, he's usually rich.

finally we stop at the one selling rice team in the area near the hostel, he rained rain and buyin it for me. shock? how stupendous! he is usually rich

he said that before the 2 weeks it always said that he was comfortable and always said the word "i love you", I asked the reason because I look like his ex, I mean similar in terms of nature, not a face. and of course dong it makes me a bit sick haha because yes he's not love me, he just like the same nature I look like his ex.

long story short he finished buying rice team and returned to the car, because he drove his car to the same place deket cost and me.

surprised because he wanted to bribe me and I also felt strange if bribed finally I took over the rice team and ate it myself, he asked me to bribe him and bawelll banget😅 which I finally bribed him too so that he was quiet.

and because I was sick again, eating a little bit of that nauseous cake that was so. finally he said that gpp gaabis and rice he could still eat before he entered class.

Oh My God, he has a class and willing to make me. rather melt my heart there and feel if he is good.

he looked at me constantly, strangely or strangely.trus arrived "cupp" he nyium my lips, KISSES LIPS?! which made me shock and speech

because he knew me, he said "love you but ***you" I don't know what he meant, I'm still dumb abis😅 not because it's my first kiss, I don't know what he meant, but yes, it's a shock.

then he smiled a rich smile crazy person and I went to the front of the boarding gate.

and yes, the story of the day ended there.he did not speak, no more news.

2 Days from that incident, he's off for college. And you know what? he showed off a luxurious lifestyle, he ate at one of the luxury restaurants in jkt, he nginep in an apartment that is expensive, trus street gatau gatau. sampe showerin if he was happy again.

no problem, the original no problem. and not make me smile even make me disappointed, why? because he's not being honest about himself, he's not being honest. I don't care if he's poor or rich, which I don't like, people lie

oh yes, when in the car, he left his hp. it turns out LOL, notif from the line, wa, dm ig are all girls. I still really want who his name is hehe. I'm just a pendem.

I can't stand it if I say it, I finally chat him first. And you know what? he turns 8 hours later when for 8 hours he made a story until point, yes I know I'm not his girlfriend, but I feel like a jackass, it's made baby eh he's rich.

finally I reveal my frustration, not all about my regret that I was violated and said bullshit he who said he loved me.

finally he changed, a little he often video call or free call that.

well, time goes. I've started to be used to dicuekin, ga digubris, chat in read aja. have started yes already no who.trus he made up the story if grandmother he died.

I immediately chatted him and said sorry and he said if he was busy taking care of all his macem.

finally I don't bother him, but he makes up stories if he tuh gamau feel alone.want to reply? fear, yes! because I'm not who.

the night he video calls me, and yes his eyes are red + swollen. he smokes, yes it is usual for a man to smoke but make him an exception, does not mean he hates smoke, smoke, he ngevape.

he's a typical who if he smokes means he's stressed and dizzy, but I'm not brave because if I'm the same I cut the wound he was trying to close.

we video call and I entertain him, he laughs and I smile. there is one word that he said and made me feel if I was loved and I was in the recesses of his heart well though a little and maybe his ex rivaled.

he said "my friends well, please." simple but managed to make me feel there. finally we changed the video call to free call. and well I nemenin he sampe sleep, then, at first I thought he was sleeping and I broke his connection.And it turns out he woke up trus ngechat "I said temenin"

finally I called him again, and we both slept. Yes, without turning off the phone. I just woke up because of his alarm, and he also woke up. because the screen display is dead, too, so I guess how long we've been on the phone.

when I saw the screen, 6 and a half hours I nelfonin him and he was shocked too.

abistu he's leaving for work, and well he ain't doing anymore until night comes.

the night he video called me, and there was one sentence he made me yes hurt. more to nyesek the truth.

"what you do is just as rich as what the former cave lakain, he also likes to nemenin cave if the cave is sad or bt."

and boom, my heart aches, nyesek saaay:v but oh yea, yea, I am also not who hehe prepared.

maybe so long ago curcol curcol gapingnya I hehe, big thanks for my readers who read it and who passed it without wanting to kepo kepo kepo.

if you like to listen to my story, I will nyempil a little into this part of the novel while waiting for a new update part hehe.

if you want to tell a story about your problems, you can ko komen. surely I bales ko

for those of you who agree if I make a group, please advise ya hehe.

I'm not on par with the one who's ever been in your life..

But please accept me as me, not as a substitute for her disappearing with her love for you...

- Ruined2020, February 01. 12:05AM...