Damaged
Protection - Protection

earlier I wanted to apologize for my readers who are waiting for the "Destroyed" update but I can't yet:(my mind abisnya much burden:)

here I want to vent casually because only my readers only I can trust and hope you guys like my story and make it a lesson.

I know this includes "stupid" once you read it until it runs out later. Okay without saying much, go straight to the story.

call it Jason, one of the guys I know through the Instagram app. Loh ko can? I don't know, either.

Starting from him who follows my ig account and send DM for follback his account, yes I am a followback. You know that the work of the girl likes the stalk especially the new ones follow us.

And yes, I'm stalking him. There was one photo that caught my attention, the photo he fit again mirror selfie it in the toilet. Ko can? Because that toilet is a campus toilet, which means I'm the same as a college dong.

Instead of wondering, I finally replied to him with the question "You're from campus XXX? What year's the force if I can tell?" Tauuu? Right, he's a college but different majors. Her answer was "Yes right, I'm class of 201x majors XXX" Honestly there I was shocked, why? Because he was my elder brother, I saw him and was aware of his presence. Wicked? Yes, but that's the truth.

Funnily enough, we chatted from morning to night and then continued to morning and so repeated until finally he asked for my Whatsapp number. At first I doubt, yes you know for yourself how the difference if the number is spread especially if we do not know. Yes even though the tip is still I love hehe.

Long story short, after I gave my Whatsapp number to him, we got more intense chat. But the basis of me is the bosenan and "said" judes + jutek finally I just reply chat him as it were, so it was, 3 Days once or once a week even to forget that I ever chat with him.

However, he did not give up on contacting me. He remained persistent and fought for me. At first I thought he was more and more in a hurry, but over time my heart began to melt after seeing how he kept fighting and trying.

2 Months old approach, he finally expressed his feelings. Funny indeed, has never met but "he said" love me and do not willing if I belong to someone else. 3x he expressed his feelings, he said, 2x I refused and the 3rd time I finally accepted him.

Funny indeed, just limited to the type of mobile phone screen, phone and video call can make a feeling like a somersault. At first my race was ordinary towards him, it was a pity but yes it is still limited to reasonable.

Smoothly? Wow certainly not! at the age of a relationship that is still as long as corn which is 3 weeks of courtship, I found out the fact that he is flirtatious with other women. I'm sorry, for thinking his name must have a side of khilaf.

The second month of dating, revealed one secret and we had a big fight and I found very strong evidence of him. Still I'm sorry and I'm back like nothing happened.

The third month of dating, I moved boarding and was told there was a classmate he. One girl and two boys, you know? They say that I'm no match and no match for my man, they say I'm too low for my smart guy.

It is not my boyfriend's fault but I do not accept the words of his friend, I told him and I asked this relationship to end. But he convinced me and not to listen to anyone else's words.

I didn't tell him to stay away from his friend, but he was the one who wanted to stay away from his friend.

I asked for his explanation and wanted him to apologize for his mistake but he instead silenced me and ran away when the matter was discussed, why is that? I don't know either.

Why didn't you break up? I asked for it but he didn't want it and kept this relationship going.

Honestly, in my deepest heart there is a struggle. I pretended to be sincere but realized I still really wanted it. I pretend to be strong but realize weak without it.

Funny indeed, from a virtual meeting but with a real sense and deep pain.

To you the man I'm telling you about right now, his apprentice spirit! Your ideals are waiting for you in the future, when later we are not destined to be with I hope that our meeting will never be regretful.

To you, the man I've always carried in my cries to this day. I hope you're always healthy so you can see a happy me later with or without you.

For you, that guy. Thank you for being a small, meaningful, even short memory.

To you, the man I carry with me in my prayers. Pursue happiness.

My message to you, do not you put out words that can hurt the feelings of your partner, do not waste - nyiakan people who love you, you, don't shut up when you have a problem and I hope you respect your partner.

From me, the woman who loved you and still loves you today.

Don't scratch any more wounds, see you.

Broken2020, October 26.

01.58 AM.

Bandung

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