DISTURBING NEIGHBORS
37. Definitions

If in this world there is a term of coercion, what is Rion's request included in it? Wasn't Neska honest with him, but why did Rion remain determined to maintain his relationship with Neska?

In the beginning, even the young man asked that Neska not express the contents of the heart that would make him hurt. But, didn't Rion think that with Rion imposing their relationship - one that was one-sided - was also like putting pressure on Neska herself?

Honestly, Neska herself felt shocked even though she knew Rion's intention was to defend her.

"Do you really love me?"

After a long silence reigning among them, Neska finally re-voiced.

Rion nodded steadily. "Yes, Nes. I love you so much."

"Love?" ask Neska again.

Rion nodded back, "If I don't love you, I won't keep you all, Nes."

"Keep, you know what the definition of loving is?"

This time, Rion did not reply, he looked at Netra Neska with a serious look but there was astonishment there at the question of the girl once. Why should Neska question the definition of love for her? Is Neska doubting her feelings now.

"Rion, loving it doesn't have to be and today I've been trying to be honest with you." Neska looked down, staring at the flatshoes she was wearing. "Love is also not necessary to force .. because if you keep calm like this, just as you do not think of my happiness and only concern yourself with yourself, while that is precisely contrary to the definition of true love," he explained.

"Neska? So, you mean ... I'm forcing you, right?" There was a disappointed look in Rion's clear eyes, but Neska who was still down could not see it.

"Hm." Neska nodded her head. "I think so, Ri. But don't know what you think? Do you think this is all true?" askalanya.

"I told you, I don't care. Including this." Rion emphasized his words.

"Rion, that means you don't care about how I feel, dong. You are selfish and only attach importance to your feelings" Neska said.

Rion felt very cornered by her girl's words. His chest felt strong. Pain and pain combine into one.

"Good." Rion turned to look at Neska who was also looking at him right now. "So, what do you want now? I will follow your will, as long as you don't say I'm selfish and selfish."

"I want from now on we'll set each other free."

Rion's eyes suddenly opened. "You mean ... break up?" he made clear Neska's ambiguous words.

"Yes." Yeah." Neska mangosteen. "That's better than you keep hoping for me but--"

Rion stood up from her seat, slightly jerking her body made Neska stop the sentence. The young man walked a little further forward from the seat he had been sitting on.

"Let me have a chance, Nes. Make it melt your heart." Rion looked straight ahead, the breeze that felt like it was blowing could not cool himself due to Neska's words

"I can't, Rion. This will make you more hurt because the fact is I can not open my heart to you. What we've been living all this time is free."

Rion laughed bitterly. "But for me, what we've been living all this time means a lot, Nes," he said.

"Sorry, I'm sorry. That's why I don't want to hurt you all the time. Better everything stop."

Rion closed his eyes tightly. He did not expect that Neska would break their relationship so soon. His initial intention to refresh the mind-it becomes pressure, because in the end on the same day Neska even wants to end it all.

"Keep, after this what, Nes?" Rion turned to look at Neska behind her body.

"We can kayak first. Sorry."

"Not that. After we broke up you want to keep hoping for Cean?"

Neska shook her head weakly. "I don't know. I tried to forget him in different ways. And after this, I want to focus on college without having any relationship with anyone."

"Dis?"

"I don't want to make anyone hurt anymore, Rion."

"You don't really want to open your heart" murmured Rion in despair.

"I'm sorry, I tried again. But I can't."

...***...

Cean walked back and forth in the corridor of the Neska Apartment. He had been there for more than an hour and found no sign of Neska at that place or would be home soon.

When Cean was desperate, from the opposite direction he felt someone's steps there, his reflexes turned and he stopped the steps that had sounded rushed.

They look at each other. Less than two meters away. It was quite far away indeed, but Neska seemed to be locked onto the young man's gaze. His feet froze in place and could not move.

Neska looked even more beautiful and made Cean want to embrace her.

Calmly and slowly, Cean began to approach Neska's position where the girl was still motionless.

Until Cean was really very close to Neska and left only a distance of thirty centimeters. Excited by Neska's return, Cean almost actually carried the girl in his arms, but hurriedly removed the intention. He was afraid that his behavior would shock Neska or even hurt her feelings.

Cean must be able to hold it. Yeah, hold, hold. That's how his head is.

"Where are you going? I've been waiting here an hour."

Neska was stunned, her eyes flickering restlessly. Moreover, Cean's voice completely shattered his feelings. He swallowed saliva several times in a matter of seconds.

"Abis went with Rion, huh?" guess Cean.

It seemed that this young man was spreading a charm that was like poison to Neska, because this situation was so torturous for the girl. Neska wanted to take a few steps back, at least keep a safe distance for them, but her legs seemed to be stuck there and unable to move. Likewise with his tongue, kelu, can not say.

"Does? You ... all right, right?" Highlight Cean's eyes looked worried and looked for answers in the girl's clear net.

Neska tried to strengthen herself, she sighed whole-chestedly, then nodded briefly in a very awkward manner.

Cean was anxious himself looking at this girl's expression. He did not expect it to turn out to be this close to Neska and the girl could not resist as if hypnotized by her.

Cean could conclude that Neska still really liked him. Is he that confident? Sure oes. Just look at Neska's face now, the hue on her cheek looks flushed because Cean approached. Cean is getting optimistic about getting it.

"K-sister, I .. want .. pass by." Neska said intermittently, like she had just had a panic attack.

Cean thinned his lips, he slightly shifted position to give Neska some space.

So, this is the girl's face if she's nervous? Or the proximity to Neska makes it difficult for the girl to breathe perhaps?

"Nes, I'm going to play in your apartment. Can you?"

Neska spontaneously shook her head quickly, then lowered her head later.

"Why?" ask Cean. Although he had shifted position but their distance was getting closer, because Cean did not stand in front of Neska anymore, but moved beside her.

Neska again took a deep breath. "It's late at night, brother," he replied that he had begun to master the situation.

"It's only 7 o'clock" replied Cean calmly.

"Yes, but it's still night."

"Continue?"

"I don't get guests at night. Especially the guy." Neska's voice shuddered saying so. She's nervous amazing. How long hasn't he and Cean been this close? Even they just said a lot of words on a mobile call yesterday afternoon, right? That's not serious talk either.

"So, I can't-"

"No," interrupted Neska quickly. He walked quickly, left Cean and headed for the door of his apartment unit.

"I'm sorry, Nes."

Cean's remarks made Neska urgently press the button on the door panel of her unit.

"I'm sorry I was so naive and thought you were like my own sister."

Once again Neska was stunned because of this young man's words.

"Don't you want to know what I mean by coming here and waiting for you?"

Neska was still silent.

"... You don't know why I'm willing to wait here an hour more?"

Neska remained unconvinced as if she had allowed Cean to go further.

"I .. I don't know since when I forgot you, Nes. Forgetting you who is the figure of my sister. And ever since I did that without me noticing, I've started to feel like I lost you. Furthermore, I .. regret ever considering you as a sister. You know why?"

Neska turned to Cean back there.

"... cause I'm starting to like you as a girl, Nes."

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