Do You Hear Me ?
part 47's
...I let you go doesn't mean I stop loving you...
...But there is a fact that I must accept that you can be happy without me...
...Seeing you go and be happy with your choice is my wound...
...But selfishness won't win anything for a heart that wasn't made for me...
This morning Yoongi deliberately woke up first from his mother.He looks busy with pots and pans that are in the kitchen.Honestly last night he could not sleep thinking about the face of the aeri that continues to swirl in the kitchen in his mind.
With his mother's pink apron, he began heating the kitchen, cutting some vegetables he picked up in the refrigerator and also he did not forget to spice up his cooking.
It only takes about an hour for some food for breakfast ready to serve on the table.Only simple foods that are not heavy in calories such as bean sprouts, seaweed soup and steamed eggs.
Yoongi also arranged the food complete with rice that is still warm and a pot of milk.
"wahh looks like mom's on cooking leave well" said geumjae who just came down the stairs.
"not even hyung I woke up earlier and I had trouble going back to sleep so I cooked"
"araseo since the food is already there I'd better wake them up for breakfast"
"please wake up also jungkook hyung.He sleeps in my room"
"Nee"
A few minutes later, the family min including jungkook already on the dining table together.The typical waking up jungkook can not fool anyone he seems to still collect his life when geumjae knocked on the door yoongi room.
"soondoogie better wash your face so you look fresh" said Yoongi's father.
Jungkook nodded politely with his eyes still closed.Seeing the behavior of jungkook yoongi just pat the eel and shake his head should the child not accompany him stay up last night while mother yoongi seemed to hold back his laughter saw the behavior of jungkook the same as a 10-year-old.
Breakfast took place after the jungkook back to sit in his chair.One by one the food was taken by mother Yoongi and put it on the plates of her children including to the jungkook.
Honestly, he always considers other members of bangtan as his third child after geumjae and yoongi.Not infrequently the two children feel jealous if one of the members bangtan come to visit let alone stay over their mother will spoil the members are even better than them.
The breakfast was over, and soon Yoongi's mother stood up to arrange their dirty dishes to take them to the kitchen so she could wash them.
"eomma.." nervous yoongi,
"nee what's up ?" his mother stopped his activities.
"i'm ready to get married with a choice of eomma and grandpa"
Deg.
Geumjae who was sipping a glass of milk immediately choked.Jungkook reflexively looked at yoongi with puppy eyes.While his father just grinned behind the newspaper he read.
"wae ? haven't we talked about this and you agree I'll do it instead of you ?!" geumjae protest
"i know hyung but everyone can change right ? I'm taking back my words and..."
"andwae if you do that crazy thing forget me as your brother ?!" geumjae.
Don't want to argue in front of their parents, geumjae chooses to leave the house.Perhaps minun soju can clear his mind.The man still feels his mounting emotions are not angry but geumjae feels very disappointed with his sister's decision.How can youongi leave everything so quickly ? Didn't yoongi's dream come true ?
While at his house after hearing yoongi's decision, he, his mother did not immediately agree with this.The middle-aged woman gave yoongi time to return to bargaining with feelings and also his brother so that later no regrets arise.
"are you crazy, hyung ? why do you want to leave us ?" ask jungkook
"i can what jungkook ? I'm no longer as young as you and what's wrong if I get married now ?" yoongi said,
"okay the other members may agree with your decision but hyung, don't you love Aeri ? why would you just leave her ?"
"i didn't leave him a jungkook but he left me, what's wrong with me starting to build a new relationship and trying to forget it ?"
"wedding hyung is not an impingement. You do it once in your life there's a commitment you make at the wedding altar"
"then why are you so easily saying hyung's wedding ?"
"what should I do jungkook ? My love claps one hand.If I wait for the return aeri that there is only heartache to see it can be happy with a man other than me"
Jungkook immediately fell silent to digest the words yoongi.There is a truth and there is a mistake in the words of yoongi this time.Tak want to argue and end jungkook was expelled by yoongi back to busan, he called gumjae to join him to drink alcohol with him.Maybe yoongi really need his own this time.
Is this the end of your love, hyung ? Isn't there still a lot of chance you can get it back ? why did you choose to let go before you managed to grasp it? - thought jungkook.
When jungkook went, Yoongi could only be pensive on the edge of his mattress while staring at his reflection in the right closet mirror opposite him.
Tok.dok...
The sound of knocking on the door of his room gave his dream that was still faithful to think of the figure of his heart.
"appa" said Yoongi welcoming his father.
"yes, whose father is it ? do you mind Dad visiting your room ?"
"ahhh not at all"
"then it's good that there's something you want to talk to about with you.Follow appa"
"Nee"
Yoon-gi takes her jacket and mask and closes her room again fearing that her pet dog Holly might come in and ruffle her room.
He followed the steps of the middle-aged man who ended up in the garden behind their house.There is nothing special about the garden just that the garden was a little colored with a variety of flowers that were deliberately planted by her father's.
"sit down and have tea with me" his father said, sitting in a garden chair,
"this is a sudden ?"
"what's wrong if a father only asks for quality time with his very famous son ?"
"not appa"
"if that's good then.Let's have the tea before it's cold or do you want to drink soju ?"
"no need to let this tea be good for my health that has been declining lately"
Yoongi blew the teacup then grazed it slowly to enter warmly into his throat.His father smiled looking at the yoongi who had started to grow up and would age just as he seemed.
"appa does not know the pleasantries so just get to the point.Appa wants to talk to you about important things"
"what important things do you want to talk about ?"
"about your decision this morning.Appa disagreed"
"wae ?"
"yoongi~ya.appa knows as the son of a dumpling appa who is very measured and moves according to passion but why the matter of feeling all those traits disappear from you ? yoongi don't lose before fighting.Do you know you keep your heart for someone's sake don't you want to fight for him ?"
"appa..it's just that I'm fighting that his heart is not for me"
"are you sure ? has he ever expressed it like that in front of you directly ?"
"it's not just..."
"he's not that he's leaving you, but he's got a reason for his decision.Maybe he wants you to go after him or maybe he wants to see how much he'll do in your life if he disappears"
"want I should how appa ?"
"indeed appa does not really understand about love but appa was ever young.Fight him if you are a real man and do not retreat before the yellow janur curved"