
"I've already..." Lia's words stopped as soon as she saw Adi's doctor who seemed to be sitting quietly on one side of their bed, her husband was seen daydreaming.
"Honey.." call Lia slowly while patting her husband's shoulder. Doctor Adi was surprised.
"Are you ready?" he said he found his wife had finished dressing because they were going to visit their first son's grave.
"Why you?" ask Lia.
"No. I'm fine!" doctor Adi replied, but Lia did not just believe her husband's answer, she looked at Doctor Adi with a suspicious look.
"I'm fine, baby! Really!" doctor Adi explained, he tried to convince his beautiful wife.
"Let's go now!" bring him. Lia followed her husband's steps from behind.
As usual, Adi's doctor always put a seat belt on Lia's body and because Lia's feelings have returned a lot, she no longer feels awkward with her husband's attitude but instead feels very happy. Along the way to the tomb of their first son, Adi's doctor looks more calm than usual, he does not talk much and does not invite Lia to talk much. Lia felt very strange with her husband's unusual attitude, she suspected that something was covered up by Adi's doctor.
They took 1 hour to get to the funeral of his son. Adi's doctor held Lia's friendly hand from the beginning they got out of the car until finally arrived in front of the navel where their son rested for good. Doctors Adi and Lia sit next to the tomb of their first son.
"Here our son rests" said doctor Adi slowly, his voice sounding a little heavy and trembling.
"Arka Anugerah Prasetyo.." spelling Lia, she read her son's name written on the tombstone.
"Sorry, I gave it a name without telling you first because at that time you were not human" said Adi doctor. Lia looked at Doctor Adi's face, shaking her head, slowly smiling gently at her husband.
"It's okay, I like the name!" lia.
"Carcinium..." Lia repeated her son's name.
"While 'Grace' I took from your name and 'Prasetyo' from my name" he added.
"So, this child is the light for our lives!" keep Lia. Lia looked very happy to know the name of her first son. Doctor Adi silently looked at Lia.
"You know, I came to this place only when I brought our son to rest forever and after that I never once visited him again" Adi said. Lia gasped at her husband's confession.
"Why?" lia asked as she looked at her husband's eyes carefully. Doctor Adi sighed slowly.
"Because I haven't been able to take it off" he admitted. This time, Doctor Adi's voice sounded trembling. Lia fell silent as she continued to look at the two eyes of Doctor Adi who began to look teary.
"Maybe I had too much hope in this child that when I had to lose it, I felt so hurt. Even today I still feel that way." continued Dr. Adi. For a moment, the atmosphere between them became very quiet, neither Lia nor Adi's doctor said anything, they just looked at their son's tombstone.
"I'm sorry." said Lia slowly.
"If it wasn't for my negligence, we wouldn't have lost our son." he continued. Doctor Adi shook his head.
"No, Lia! Everything was supposed to happen like this." said Dr. Adi.
"I'm the only one who can't handle it" he continued.
"When I'm a psychiatrist, I'm used to helping people heal their wounds but when I get hurt, I act childishly like this!" sorry doctor Adi. Doctor Adi was downcast and finally her tears slowly flowed down her cheeks.
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