DON'T COME TOO EARLY IN THE MORNING
THAMES

"You happy ?"

Excellent asked me.

I'm just smiling. We spent the twilight, walking along the banks of the Thames. Exotic river, which started the history of this city stands. Quiet expanse of water, seen rippling when several times River Cruise back and forth carrying a tour passenger group. Occasionally the wind blows fondling. The cold weather this afternoon did not prevent us from enjoying the beauty there.

The sky began to shade reddish where we stood. The charm of the London Eye and tall buildings attract anyone to look at it.

"The word of the sunset people here is amazing. Is it still long ? "

I asked him back. Excellent glanced at the clock that was coiled in hand.

"A little while more"

We are more silent.

"Can I take a picture for you ?"

"Are you the stringsis ?!"

I just stick out my tongue, no matter what. I'll give him my phone soon.

"Style how ya.. ah, view here nice all"

"No need to be stylish, you look the same"

I hit him on the shoulder, Excell grimaced. But he still grabbed my salary and started taking pictures. Sometimes deceiving, not camera shots but video recordings. We were joking. It feels good if it hasn't been with each other for a long time.

"Well, you can smile sweetly. Why doesn't it continue like that every day ?"

I tease.

"My face has been beautiful since birth!"

It melengos. His face was flushed in shame. I laugh. The man pretended to be busy spending his coffee that we bought before he got here.

"There's something I want to ask you"

Saying later.

"About what ?"

I'm not sure, but I don't know. I feel like I should ask. I wonder if I beat everything.

"Mmhhhh.. You and Sam, you used to be best friends. Why not now ?"

Excell speechless. Maybe he was confused about where to start.

"You really want to know ?"

The man seemed doubtful. I'm nodding.

"We used to be an orphanage"

I'm aghast.

What a surprising fact. He's not a real child ?? Excellent was staring at the ground.

"We are both of Asian descent. Maybe that's what brings us closer than any other kid. But Sam's father is European."

He paused for a moment.

Hm ... So that's the reason, Sam's eyes are blue because of the father's bloodline.

"Then, why did you guys get to the same orphanage ?"

I am interested in information about them.

"Sam's mother has been dead for a long time. Her own father left Sam in front of the gate of our home. While I was in that place first. Only, my fate is luckier than her"

Excell was silent in breathing.

"What happened ?"

He switched to look at me. Slowly his hand confirmed the location of the scarf on my neck. I'm nervous.

"I adopted a wealthy business couple. We were devastated to have to part ways because they just wanted to take me without Sam"

Said slowly. There is sadness there.

"It's not easy for you guys"

Excell nodded.

"I proposed to my adoptive parents to adopt her as well. But they just took Sam to take care of our domestic assistant. I thought it was okay all along. We could still see each other because we lived in the same house. But it's just a time bomb..."

Excellent stops. He took a long breath. His arms rest on the edge of the fence.

"Time bomb ?"

"One day Sam heard that my foster father wanted to match me to his biological daughter"

"You ? Matchmade ?!"

There was a strange feeling when I heard that word.

"Since the adoptive mother died, the father's health deteriorated. He wanted to give the entire inheritance to his daughter. On the other hand he has trusted me fully in the management of their company, but on the other hand he also wants his lineage to participate in it"

"Well, your story is complicated. What does this have to do with Sam ?"

"Sam heard. We had a big fight. Why must I always be the lucky one. He felt tired of always having to be there and pretended to give up. All this time I didn't know if Sam was harboring such feelings. I didn't expect it to change just because of the money"

I moaned. Their lives are stranger than mine. It turns out that treasure does not necessarily make everything look easy. Ah, even I am grateful for my current situation despite often lacking but my life is calmer.

"Why have you not been married yet ?"

I asked a moment later. He looks. The wind played with her hair repeatedly.

"I've been looking for that girl for a long time. A while ago we met accidentally. Actually I'm not interested in dad's will, I just want to know what he's like"

"Your relationship continues ?"

I'm getting curious. Excellent shrugs.

"Either.. He's far from my expectations and I'm not sure this will work. The girl was very cute, as well as a strange personality. Honestly, I was overwhelmed by it. But the more I knew him, the more interested I became. She was very different from other women with all the uniqueness she had, I felt. I fell in love with her"

The man stared fixedly. I threw away the view.

It ... fall in love ... to a woman ? and, apparently not me.

There's an uncomfortable feeling.

Unwilling to end up sore, as if the wound was splashed with salt. Why I don't like to hear he's close to another girl. When I found out Sam was with a lot of women, I didn't feel this bad.

"I was more upset when Sam, who at first only wanted to break the will by taking it away from me, came here and looked really fond of the girl"

Sam and Excell competing ? Then what would I mean to them if it turned out to be chasing another woman ? Do I really mean nothing ? Then why did they show that much attention to me all this time. My voice was stuck in my throat.

Then,

Why am I like this ? suddenly not happy ? Isn't it good that Sam and Excell haven't said anything to me either. So why am I angry ? Is it because I expected more ?

All this time I've endured ignoring my feelings for Sam, as well as for Excell. I pretended not to know what their attention was.

But in fact, they think I'm just a friend.

It was strange to imagine him with another woman. This heart hurts. Crushed. They should not come too early. So that I am in no hurry to love. And now, it hurts when I feel like I just have the wind.

Excellent told me something else, but I couldn't respond well.

Is it because I'm too greedy, that I misinterpreted her gaze ? Every word that came out of Excell's mouth flayed my feelings alive. Why until now he can still behave as usual.

"Why are you quiet ? Why are your eyes red ?"

He asked when he realized I was just pensive.

"No. Its alright. It's just dust"

Excellent panicked to hear my answer. But this is just a small thing. Why does he act that makes my heart always impressed behind his attention like this

"What hurts ? Wash with water. Wait a minute, I remember there's a mineral bottle in the car let me get it"

His eyes were looking for a faucet or whatever.

He half ran towards the car. His shoulder that field almost sank out of sight, before I called him back.

"Wait...!"

My lips vibrate. Excellent turned his head as he was already a few meters away from me.

"Please.please don't do anything. Please..."

Please don't make me hope to return. Please stop being kind and considerate. Please don't hurt me with all that. Please don't do anything for me. I'm lirih.

The sun has perfectly risen to the contest. The melting of the decomposing tears is cheeked, well covered by the darkening night. While the lights of the city are still raking is not perfect. He ran here.His hand wanted to grab my shoulder but I refused, I was afraid he saw me crying. Excell looked confused by my cold-turned attitude.

Excellent's statement accidentally made me realize, that in a day I did not expect to have been rejected by two men. They, love another girl...

Who am I anyway ? I should have been able to be self-conscious. There's nothing I can be proud of to interest them. My face is ordinary, inner beauty or whatever the name is it also has no. To be sure of the many people who admire them, I am very far from the women around Sam and Excell who are of course more attractive. Why do I dare to like these two guys ? am I too stupid to have to feel pain first to realize it.

Along the banks of the river Thames my story ends and it hasn't even begun. The face of the moon was up above the dim sky, its light hit the expanse of water became silvery. The night makes the river seem quieter. The journey of my love at this time.

I let out a breath. My chest still feels tight.

We were silent all the way back to the hotel with our minds racing in each other's hearts.

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