Eternal Painter Swordsman
182. Speak Directly

They finished their meal quietly and peacefully without any talks between them , since they were all educated in a respectable way and had a noble life, they understood the manners at this table so that no one spoke at the dinner table until the whole meal of the people people are exhausted and the main food is removed.

The plate plate was brought to the back by the waiter and replaced with dessert, Xia Xinxin's property was a sweet strawberry pudding and looked very tempting. He also got a really good milk fla. He ate with passion, he always liked sweet and refreshing food like this.

Even if he is full then there will always be a place for sweet foods that are very loved. After everything was done and the table was cleaned, everyone was still silent before Madam Meng finally opened her voice.

"It is time for us parents to gather, you young people go down and see the night view in the park is very beautiful. " Said Mrs Meng.

"Good." Xia Xinxin replied and was the first one standing from there to go out while carrying her shoulder bag.

Not long followed by three others while the youngest, sits in the lobby and plays a cell phone containing all his beloved games so he even forgets the real world , it was the niece he had seen since he was born.

It's just that he's now become very mature, already, Xia Xinxin actually did not want to be seen what kind of interaction with the other two people was just that she herself could not avoid them forever and as someone who had a brave soul then she had to come forward and face the fear he has.

If she was forever in fear then she would never be able to advance, she said, at that time then he would forever be restrained in this past as he missed Ming Yue but his common sense said that he should not approach Ming Yue because Ming Yue was now engaged someone else.

This is something that is understood even by children, how could he when he was an adult even though he could not understand this ? Then all the learning he had gained in his previous life would be in vain.

Xia Xinxin looked towards Xu Man and Meng Rui who were also looking at her.

"There's something I need to talk to you about. " Say Xia Xinxin and they walked out of the park.

"Xinxin, you know that I will wait for you both in this life and the past life. " Say Xu Man opened his voice.

"Okay, then. But what if I can't forget Ming Yue ? Are you still waiting for me ?" Xia Xinxin asked calmly.

"I'll make you forget her forever and won't look back. " Answer Xu Man.

"I hope so, but what if it fails ? Wouldn't it just hurt us both ? Meng Rui, this is also the same as before. Let's live a new life and I hope that I will not remember anything with the past life, so that my life will be calm and peaceful. " Say Xia Xinxin said firmly.

Meng Rui and Xu Man were similarly staring at him, these two people loved him and sacrificed for him, if he had to choose one then who should he choose ?

Xia Xinxin refused to erase their good relationship just because it was for romance, it was better for him to be alone all his life then they would continue to be in this ambiguous position without hurting each other.

But, Xia Xinxin also did not want to give hope to them otherwise then they would be tormented for waiting for something that did not have her certainty.

"What if I told you that I can't forget you that I've always dreamed of you every night ?" Ask Meng Rui.

"Am I not the same ? I love someone I dream of every night but now that she's getting married to another girl, do you think I'm okay ? Of course not but there's nothing I can do. Let's forget the past together. " Accounted Xia Xinxin.

"Can you just give me a chance once ?" Ask Xu Man.

Of course anyone who heard Xu Man's voice would naturally realize that in Xu Man's voice there was a deep sadness as if he had lost something that he deeply cared about and loved, Xia Xinxin couldn't force her to not feel sad about this it was just that she couldn't do anything either.

This person had a good relationship with him and according to Xia Xinxin, he hoped that this good relationship would not only stop for a few years but for the next decades. Xia Xinxin hoped that she would be able to become a friend to these two men.

He will always be there for them even under any circumstances, he wants such friends plus they are not suitable to be lovers with their inappropriate actions.

It does not need to be suitable to be together but it is not the same as Xia Xinxin because according to him, there must be similarities first and then can be together otherwise everything will be in vain.

"Xu Man, I would be so grateful to you for accompanying me in loneliness for over thirty years. I definitely won't let you down just in this case, you should know that I can't choose you. In the future, let's just be friends huh ? We'll be there to help each other later on and also find a better and prettier girl for me. The world is so big that you will be able to find it. " Say Xia Xinxin said with a gentle smile.

Xu Man looked at him with a complicated gaze but did not immediately explode in anger or unacceptable, instead he laughed lightly and lowered his head.

Xu Man was able to let go of this ambition then it was the best, Xia Xinxin also felt relieved about this because at any time she would not be able to return the feelings given by Xu Man to her.

Because in his heart, he only regarded Xu Man as his companion and best friend both in his past life and present life.

"Xu Man, we'll be good friends. Let's let go of each other's ambitions, you've been exhausted waiting all this time. It's time to stand up and look around and breathe fresh air lest you strangle yourself inside your own prison. " Said Xia Xinxin.

"I understand this, though, you don't need to explain it to me but I myself realize that I won't get you either in past life or present life because I am a coward then I think that if I am standing by your side without any other competitors then you will turn to look at me but in fact I was wrong with this thought but thanks to you then I became useful and managed to boast of the Zhou Family being a Family the Great and adored by many. " Said Xu Man.

"You're not a coward, it's just that we're not meant to be together. I am happy with your change and it will carry over until now, I will always be there for you because we are best friends. " Say Xia Xinxin smiled and stepped forward to hug Xu Man tightly.

He could sense that Xu Man was reluctant to let go but realized that if forced then they would not end well either because all things forced would end badly.

This was the thing that Xu Man instilled in himself and that was why he had no more hope in Xia Xinxin and was trying to organize his own life and Xia Xinxin herself supported Xu's actions Man's.

As he said earlier he would support Xu Man's entire act even if it meant he had to help Xu Man to find a girl who was better than him.

"Xu Man, once again I thank you for those thirty years or even I won't be able to become the queen in history that many people adore. " Said Xia Xinxin.

"It's all because of your efforts and your own determination, why say this to me ? Do you have to thank yourself ? If it can be a Minister of trust from an extraordinary queen like you then it is a great fortune to me that will be able to make others envious of this ability of mine. " Said Xu Man.

Xia Xinxin laughed lightly and nodded her head with glassy eyes, when recalling the moment then it was difficult for her not to feel deep sadness. He knew how difficult it was at that moment and he nearly committed suicide in front of the Huang Family memorial altar.

But Zhou Man always came to her and excited her or even took good care of her and listened to the inappropriate words that came out of her mouth.

At that moment he could not even control his lips well, so he said something hurtful but Zhou Man patiently advised him and said that there were many people waiting for him and the world was in chaos, needing himself to rule.

Xia Xinxin still remembered her chaotic mood at the time but forgetting that Zhou Man was as fragile as her, she lost her father to the war but still tried to strengthen herself.

"I'm sorry for that day.it's always a regret in my heart for not having the time to say this to you directly. " Said Xia Xinxin.

"Just calm down, who never gets out of control ? I believe in you, you love him so he must have something great. Because the person you choose to be your successor alone is a very great person. " Praise Xu Man.

Xia Xinxin lowered her head and listened to these words before finally focusing on the second person, namely Meng Rui. This one person was more difficult to deal with compared to Xu Man because he had more stubborn thoughts than Xu Man so it was difficult to change the thoughts that were in his head.

"Meng Rui, I will also say the same. I will not forget the redemption you made to repay all the debts between us but at the same time I cannot pay the forest this feeling to you. Since I canceled our engagement that day then at that time the match between us was also cut off and we could only be friends who helped each other over becoming lovers. " Said Xia Xinxin.

Meng Rui did not immediately reply and lowered her head then clenched her hands tightly and Xia Xinxin realized this, instead, he also knew that Meng Rui must have reacted in reverse with Xu Man earlier. He would definitely explode in anger because of this.

"Why do you refuse to accept me when I have met you first ! Why can't I be with you ? Is it because you were still angry when I rejected you ? I'm sorry, can you forgive me ?" Meng Rui asked in despair.

"It's not that simple, it's not all that easy. Meng Rui, let's find each other's way of life. " Xia Xinxin replied gently.

"I don't want to ! In this life I can only love you, do you not understand this ?! Why don't you want to understand my feelings ?!" Shouted Meng Rui.

"I don't want to understand your feelings ? Have you tried to understand my feelings ? Love is something that cannot be forced. You keep forcing me to love you but do you ever think that I find it hard to accept this love ? Have you ever thought that this love you gave me would burden me ? Have you ever thought like this once ?" Xia Xinxin asked couldn't bear to be patient anymore.

They are all ignited by emotions and equally unable to control their words thus hurting each other.

"I can never understand why you always love him and choose him while I do so much for you, is the sacrifice I make not worth what he does ? Are all the things I do are small things in your eyes and I am worthless ? Do I not deserve to be loved by you ?!" Meng Rui asked desperately as well as angrily.

Xia Xinxin was also desperate when recalling about the sacrifice of each other, they were just as self-sacrificing hence Xia Xinxin had to take firm steps compared to her enduring this suffering continuously.