Ex-husband
# 52

''Tonight, I'm going home to my mom. Are you not ______''

''No need to worry about me, I'm fine. '' Cut Yolla fast, either for now her mind is no longer fine. The chat in the ER room earlier, made Yolla keep thinking. Many questions were lodged in his head at this moment, and the matter was his sense of wanting to explode the contents of Yolla's head at this moment as well.

And usually, if his mind is again screwed up like this, his elixir is his bed. It's the mainstay of the things he does when his mind is again muddled.

Arka's car began to pull over on the side of the road, which happened to be very quiet, considering the clock was more than nine o'clock at night. ''You are angry with me, Staring at Yolla then reaching for her tiny fingers to hold.

''I didn't know it would be this long, baby, this complicated.'' Honestly Arka, he also did not expect it to happen like this. What else is it to destroy someone's future, then,? It didn't even cross his head at all.

''Please, don't silence me like this, speak dear.'' One hand Arka moved slowly, pushing the child's hair behind the ear.

Repeatedly Yolla let out her heavy breath. Recalling the figure of the woman earlier this afternoon, her guilt was undermining her current body. ''This is all because of me, I am the guilty here Mas Arka. '' Lirih Yolla began to sob.

Arka shook her head strongly, This is not your fault dear, this is all because of my stupidity. I'm a fool, don't think long, I'm a fool don't know any other nature of Mama I'm alone. Who can do that cruel to a woman, even though she is also a woman.'' Sesal Arka with reddened eyes, she was angry at herself.

Aaakh, Arka grabbed her hair in frustration. Regretting, he was very sorry, yes he was very, very sorry. As time can be turned back, he will not involve someone getting into his problems. And fatal like this, what did he have to do, then,? Is it enough to apologize that is not comparable to his enormous mistake.?

Brakes.

''Fuck you Arka, jerk.''

Brakes

Shouted Arka by hitting the round handlebar of his car. It evaporated all her emotions that were now attacking her chest.

Yolla jumped in fear, ''Mas, Call Yolla who is almost inaudible, and also grew sobbing.

Arka turned her head to the side, Honey, Pull Yolla's body into her arms. ''Sorry, Whisper Arka in Yolla's ears occasionally peeped at the head of his wife.

He forgot his wife who was sitting next to him.

''I am a fool. Can't do anything right. I'm the only sorry I can do.''

"I know I don't deserve to be forgiven and probably won't be forgiven, but I'll still apologize !" Please Arka, please,

Shouting in front of the waterfall high pounding his voice deafening

So that no one knows you're screaming

Run in the middle of the high field

The shoots are higher than the head so no one knows you're running

Stay in the middle of the morning silence

The birdsong disappeared somewhere so as not to know you were confused

And cry in the heavy rain

So that no one knows that you're crying

Feelings are feelings

Not shared, not told, not conveyed he remains a feeling.

Tonight it rained so hard all over the city, as if the universe knew and wept.

Hugging each other, in a car that is still parked on the side of the road. Mutual expressing regret in the past which is now fatal. ''I will be responsible, if Maya will sue me, I am ready to go into prison with a heart that will be like.''