FATE AND DESTINY
36.I'M JUST A WIFE

After doing his activities on the mattress they both sleep asleep, especially tajudin who feel tired. At two o'clock in the morning Tajudin woke up to go to the toilet and clean the bottom to make it comfortable. After finishing tajudin returned to his room and saw alika woke up wearing her clothes one by one. Tajudin swallowed his saliva which felt heavy as soon as he saw the back of alika who only wore her underwear. Tajudin stepped slowly towards alika and hugged her from behind by kissing her nape so gently. Tajudin started the action again but alika could only snort angrily because her husband would ask her back. Alika can not refuse him, she just quietly let the tajudin who did it but she just resigned without doing anything. The two of them finally re-enacted his heated struggle for up to an hour.

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Now the day has changed in the morning but the young couple is still sleeping with his sleep until the hour showed at six in the morning. Tajudin felt very happy because of his passion he could channel to his wife. But not for alika, he just felt ordinary not to feel the happiness he should feel. The pain from the beginning of marriage to the five months long given by tajudin still leaves a deep sense of disappointment in the heart of alika. Until now, Alika still can not open her heart to her married husband. Now the two of them take a mandatory bath together in a bathroom without walls. After completing the ritual bath alika back to do her activity of cooking for breakfast so that her stomach is so hungry can feel full.

"What cooking, dear?" Tanya tajudin squatted down next to alika who was busy cooking her rice using a pot.

"Rice cooker!" Alika replied with her flat expression without turning her head towards her husband.

"What are you cooking today?" Ask again tajudin trying to take the heart of alika that is difficult to overcome.

"I didn't know there were any vegetables in the shop! For sure I cook what my tongue thinks is good to eat!" Sahut alika is still focused on the fire that he lit using firewood.

"Mmm yes already. Today I eat at home. Good cooking, huh? Even if you only know tempeh if you cook it must be delicious!" Tajudin continued to seduce alika in order to smile even a little.

"Yeah!" Briefly, Alika was still focused on the fire without seeing her husband.

"CUP" Tajudin kissed alika's head and went to her coconut farm to make brown sugar.

Along the way tajudin always showed his smile and everyone he knew passed by him he greeted with so happy. But alika is still a lot silent with her jutek face that she always expresses every day. Since the death of the grandfather alika is now a quiet and jutek woman. If he is not spoken to, he will always remain silent. Feeling the loss of the figure he loves makes himself sick to the recesses of his soul. Disappointments in life that always alika get make her reluctant to live dead was not willing. That's what the word is.

After finishing with his cooking busyness, the rice that was cooked was ripe and now stepped away to the stall that sold vegetables. Alika saw there tofu, tempeh, meatballs, and sprouts made her think she wanted to cook sauteed balado a little spicy salty sweet. Alika bought everything with all two thousand rupiah so that the money of ten thousand he could get everything. Cheap, right?

Alika struggled to prepare the seasoning after coming home from the vegetable stall and cooked it with a professional chef-style savvy. Alika's cooking is now finished and she served it on a plate and ate it with greed even almost three rice dishes she spent.

"Hay baby.. Are you eating?" Sapa tajudin who just arrived from his coconut garden.

"It has. You want to eat?" Ask alika flat. But don't use the rice I'm cooking? Wear the rice your mother cooked. The rest of the rice I cooked for my dinner later!" Said alika who did not want her rice spent.

"Yeah deehh! What the hell didn't do to you!" Sahut tajudin still with his seducing tone.

Tajudin took the rice and took the side dishes that had been cooked delicious. Tajudin eats like a man who has not eaten for a week. But while accompanying her husband eat darun the father-in-law has come home from his rice field. Today I came home late because I was not feeling well. Darun rested himself in the back room close to the kitchen making alika a little awkward because there was his father-in-law.

"I'm sitting outside first, brother!" Said alika then stepped away sitting in the house.

With a slow step the bulging stomach wearing a dress above the knee long sleeves combined with long legging pants and his instant hijab makes his curves a little visible because his stomach is starting to make clothes alika many do not fit anymore. Alika sat daydreaming to see the garden on her left and some neighbors on her right side who were huddling together to relax. But in front of him is a small hut to make brown sugar with a super large cauldron on a wooden wasp whose fire pit is quite large as well. Alika always hid in the small hut if dariyah looking for trouble ordered alika to do everything in the house.

"Alika! Aja ngelamun.. Wadon boy again humming mah pamali ari ngelamun. Snatch up!" Say one of the neighbors who passed the terrace of the house tajudin stopped advising alika who daydream.(Alika's! Don't dream on. Girls who are pregnant should not daydream much. Afraid of the delicate creatures).

"No ma'am. I'm not daydreaming. Just thinking of something!" Sahut alika with her knotty smile.

"Eehh mbok ayu arep aring ngendi kui?" Sapa tajudin who was beside the door of his house greeted the neighbor who invited alika to talk.(Where's that pretty mom going?)

"Eehhh yes, this is going to the coffee shop for a new husband to come home from the rice field!" Reply to the neighbor as he steps towards the sembako stall.

Tajudin then sat on the terrace seat accompanying alika by inviting her to chat so as not to daydream. Alika looked here and there as if she did not see any tajudin beside her. After marriage, Alika became a person who likes to be alone without talking to anyone around her.

"What are you thinking?" Tajudin asked who was sitting next to alika but his body was facing alika.

"No! I'm not thinking about anything!" Sahut alika briefly occasionally glanced towards the tajudin on his left.

"Mmm can I ask her again tonight?" Tanya tajudin was afraid alika refused if without permission first.

"Goddessa. My body is tired and sore. If you're tired tonight, sorry next time!" Sahut alika bowed her face by playing her finger.

"Are you not satisfied last night?" Tajudin asked who looked at Alika's face with disappointment.

"I don't know if I'm satisfied or not. To be sure I'm just a wife enough to serve her husband in bed well." Sahut alika does not want to discuss the problem of his bed deeper with tajudin.

Alika did not want her husband to know the weak spot of alika in one part of her body. Alika does not want tajudin to continue taking chances in her sensitive area of weakness.

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Alika forgave her husband. But the disappointment that he has got makes him reluctant to interact a lot with tajudin and his family. Alika only refrained from fearing mispronunciation and made the tajudin again angry and tortured him like before. It could be said that Alika experienced a trauma that was so big and very deep.

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