FATE AND DESTINY
49.FATE and DESTINY

"Assynolt..!" Said alika as she entered her house and sat on her living room couch.

"Italiana..!" Everyone greeted Alika with a smile.

"Mommy I want to see the baby dong!" Said Rodiyah who was curious about alika's child.

"This is my granddaughter, beautiful as I am her grandmother..!" Answer ema is still holding baby alika and invite her to joke.

Everyone seemed happy to see a cute and beautiful baby alika like alika. Alika also felt comforted because many loved her even without her husband. All invite baby alika play and sing a lot of children's songs even though the baby is still asleep and silent but make the whole house so excited and want to hold his baby scrambling. Alika is happy and always widens her smile because their behavior is very funny.

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It did not feel like it had been two weeks at home and the study group was increasing because Rodiyah always invited people to ema's house for those who want to repent. There was a man named Fahri who came with an appearance that was like a thug. He wants to repent and does not want to be a thug anymore because he is tired of being a naughty person. Ema guided her painstakingly and patiently so that Fahri would change her appearance more neatly. After a week fahri came increasingly complacent with his entourage without thinking about alika who still needs her. Although alika is fulfilled in terms of food but she also still needs a way to be a good mother and attention. During the arrival of fahri ema increasingly forget themselves even to be willing every day to leave alika alone to take care of her baby at home.

"Mama go first huh? This mama has bought instant noodles and eggs who knows you are hungry tonight. Mama locked the door from the outside, maybe mama came home in the morning!" Say ema and wipe alika's hair with a smile.

"Want to go back again?" Ask Alika with her face.

"I don't know whether or not. Mama invited them to gather in their house alternately!" Answer me without guilt. "You want what? Let your mama buy you home?" Ema offers to alika so that she does not get angry with him.

"Alika doesn't want anything! Alika just wants mom at home! That's ajah." Reply Alika back breastfeeding her child.

"Yes, my mom will accompany you if the event is over?" Sahut ema with a simple smile and say goodbye to alika. "Yes, my mom left first. Let me know if there's anything!" Said ema then went to leave alika at home alone.

Alika is upset because ever since she knew fahri she became often out leaving alika alone. Alika is frustrated and stressed because now Alika does not have friends vent and share stories again. Alika feels that she has changed since close to her students who are the same age as alika's sister, Anindia. Fahri continued to approach ema who was over 40 years old and while fahri was still a virgin who was two years younger than alika.

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"You why the hell deck? Not from there on in-diem! What are you asking for?" Said alika who had begun to be frustrated because she did not know what she had to do so that her child was silent again. "Dooong don't cry! What do you want anyway?" Alika tried to remain patient.

But her baby was still crying non-stop making Alika more frustrated and grabbed her own hair by sitting on the floor and clutching her knees until she shed tears letting her child cry without silence. Finally, Alika was impatient and slammed all the equipment in her room starting from the lotion powder shirt and many others were thrown and bent against the wall until everything broke.

"Aakaakkkhh! Everybody motherfucker! Everyone is the same! Aaaakkkhh!" Shouted alika still continued to throw everything until it broke.

Alika ignored her son who was still hysterical crying because he was also tired of all this. Alika dropped herself on the floor sitting down and crying as if so.

"Yeah God! Why did you give this fate and destiny to me? What wrong? Why did you bring me into the world if only to torment me here, O God!" Tangis Alika felt disappointed by the circumstances that did not side with her. "Am I this bad that you don't want to give me one day's happiness?" Alika muttered to herself again and looked at her baby who was still crying with tears flowing. "Darling! Don't make me crazy because you're a kid! Shut up, baby.. Help me to be strong through this without anyone!" She looked at her crying baby again. "Sheaaaaaam!" Alika again shouted in front of her baby making her baby cry and hysterical to hear the sound of alika echoing in her own room.

After shouting alika continued to cry and hugged both knees tightly regardless of her child. Alika wanted to torture herself but she tried to hold on and continued to recite the istighfar in order to be calmer. After calm alika back holding her child and breastfeeding her until her baby sleeps in her arms. Alika who saw her son was asleep and finally put the baby in a mattress accompanied by her who was lying next to him. Alika who had been very sleepy from crying and her eyes were swollen finally fell asleep peacefully without any interference.

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In the morning at 7 am I went home and went straight to alika's room because last night I was restless thinking about alika who was home alone. Ema opens alika's room quietly for fear of making alika and her son wake up. How surprised ema who saw the room alika like a ship broke apart and slippery because there was some telon oil that broke when alika slammed her.

"Astaghfiullah! What did she do last night to make her room like this?" Say to herself and see Alika who is still asleep hugging her baby. "Why are his eyes soaked? Did she cry last night? Or did her husband call and make himself so angry like this?" She asked again, asking her own heart.

Ema who saw alika still asleep finally tried to get out of the room alika for fear alika woke up with a condition that is still disappointed. Ema went back to her room and cleaned up and went to sleep because she did not sleep all night talking and joking with her study group until morning.

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