FIRST LOVE DESTINY《 HeZa'S Love Story 》
FLD 178 ____Silence vs. Selfishness

..." Often the ego makes us forget, if something we have by force will only make our hearts more depressed. Because there will be a time when we always feel anxious if what we maintain slowly detaches from the grasp. "...

...(.(.Sheranta's)...

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" What are you waiting for ? "

" Your heart, your feelings. I'll wait for it to be mine. "

" You don't seem to be getting sane Fabian. "

" Yes, I'm crazy. I'm crazy about you. I've tried to forget you, to let you be happy. But what do I get ? I'm tormented, I feel like I'm going to die and do you know ..."

" Every night I dreamt of seeing you go away and disappear in the dark and covered in fog, I screamed as loud as I could to call you, but even though I had tried my hardest, but you did not turn around and did not look at me one bit. "

" And do you know how I felt when I saw you back a few days ago in a very bad state. And at that moment I realized that only I could take care of you, love you and give you all the best. I will not let anything bad happen to you. So stay by my side. "

" bi-an's.... I'm married, my.... "

" I don't care, I'll make you part from him. From a man who can't even take good care of his wife. " Said Fabian with a triumphant smile.

" Isn't it really like fate brought you back to me. From the beginning you were mine, Mo and God gave you back to me. "

" Stop talking Bian nonsense, I just love my husband, Brother Hega. Only he has the right to have me. "

" AARRRGGGHHHHHN..... Stop saying his name. He doesn't deserve you, he can't even take care of you. "

Moza sighed, the man before her was truly not a familiar figure. Bian looked more like a monster that was scary to Moza.

" Bian, you can lock me up here forever. But you won't get anything from me. Just wait until I die. "

" Don't talk like that please.... " Bian's anger instantly disappeared, turning heartbroken when he heard Moza's words that seemed to prefer death rather than being by his side.

" Can't be with our loved ones how is it different from Bian's death ?! Didn't you say that ? " Bian choked, Moza returned the sentence he had said.

" And fine if you'll feel fair if I also feel the way you feel. Then I'll take it. Like you love me and can't live without me. Then you should also know if I feel that too. I love him too much, and I'll die if I can't see him. "

" If it makes you happy, do whatever you want. Brackets me here as long as you want and you just wait for my body. "

Fabian's body weakened, and immediately knelt on Moza's bedside. " Momo, I-I didn't mean it that way. I want you to be happy Mo. A... "

Moza pulled out his hand as Fabian's hand was about to grab his fingers. Looked at Fabian's face. Moza knew if the man was hurt, very clear from Fabian's eyes.

But Moza couldn't lie to her heart.

" I wouldn't be happy if I wasn't with him. Bian, I'm sorry, I can't manage to whom my heart is anchored. I wish you happiness, but if torturing me like this makes you happy I can't do anything about it. "

Moza's words made Fabian's heart ache even more. How could the woman he loved the most actually feel suffering at his side. Even after all the things Bian did for her.

At first Moza thought that if Bian did not let go, Moza would rather die. But when he knew there was another life in him. So Moza chose to survive for the sake of life in her womb.

There was at least a part of her husband with her. His love is with the man he loves the most.

Moza was strong and accepted slowly if in the end he had to be in the prison of a Fabian.

So painful it was with her own hands, Moza was forced to remove her husband's necklace.

" Bian, if you won't let me go. So send my death to my family. If I need to send you proof of my death. I don't care how you do it. "

The sentence just slid from Moza's lips he felt no longer able to persuade Fabian to let go. Just days after Fabian saved Moza from a shooting.

" What are you trying to plan ? "

" Nothing. I just don't want to give hope to my family, I don't want to give them grief that doesn't know when it's going to end. I want them to let me go. "

" Do you realize what you just said ?! "

" I'm fully aware. "

" Father and mother will be sad and devastated to hear the news. "

Hearing Fabian's words, Moza laughed insipidly. " Did a Fabian just worry about my family ?! The family of the woman he locked up. I wanted to laugh for a moment to hear it. " Said Moza sarcasm.

" Whatever you think, I just want to have you. Not to give your parents grief. Can you understand my heart a little ?! "

" Don't want to give my parents grief ? Is what you're saying a joke, Bian ? Not by hiding their daughter without being able to meet or just knowing the condition of their daughter does not give sorrow to them, Bian. " Moza's chest went up and down holding tightness in her chest.

" They don't even know if I'm alive or dead. So let them think that I am dead so that they will no longer wish for anything uncertain. "

" Do you want to make me look that cruel ?! " Fabian who always held back a little provoked emotion.

" What's the difference, Bian ? Just waiting for time for them to hear the news of my death, aren't you even intending to let me go ?! So sooner or later they'll definitely hear the news if their daughter's gone. "

" At least they'll grieve for a moment. Then time will make them let go of me without expecting me back. "

" Then your husband ? Are you willing for her to forget you and be with another woman ?! "

Moza bit her lips, holding back the tears that began to hang in her eyes.

" Yes, I'll be sincere. At least he'll be happy even if he's not with me. It is better that he be happy with another woman than to continue to wish his wife who does not know when to return, and may not even return at all. " Moza's tears finally can no longer be contained. Flowing just soaked his pale white cheeks.

Like being struck by lightning, Fabian's heart was so broken to see the girl he loved was actually seen suffering together with him.

When Fabian's selfish love comes face to face with Moza's sincere love. Does Fabian remain in his selfishness ?

Even as a woman, Moza chose sincerely if her husband was happy with another woman rather than waiting for empty hopes of his presence again.

Is Fabian's love worth fighting Moza's sincere love ?

But to let go, is Bian capable ?

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Why is the conflict this time a bit heavy ?

Because I felt Hega and Moza were too bucolic in the beginning without any serious trials that strengthened their love.

So just think of it as the ultimate test of Hega and Moza's love.