Flower Widow
Chapter 8

''How's darling?? Did you accept Fatih's proposal as your future husband?? Make your choice, it's up to you. Whatever your decision Bude will follow. Think carefully. Do not get hurt because of this proposal. This marriage is going to last a long time, son. Not for a day or two, but for the rest of your life! If you are capable, then please! But if not, then decide wisely, so that your cousin is not offended by your refusal.'' Bude Risma's advice when he wanted to go home earlier, after his guests agreed to go home.

Rani was stunned for a long time thinking about this. He gave a week to his cousin's brother, for he replied to accept his proposal or refuse.

Rani did not want to because her choice would destroy many parties. The first is his mother. Only a day Rani heard her mother speak fluently, but instead returned to relapse again like before.

When his mother found out, if the family of the young man who would become Rani's husband turned out to be his mother's sister-in-law's family. Niece of Rani's real father.

And second, Fatih's mother. He did not accept Rani as his son-in-law. Because Rani is a child of a mental disorder woman.

Apart from that, Rani also does not know why Fatih's mother is very disapproving if Rani becomes the wife of her son Fatih. His only son.

Rani breathed heavily. It was as if Rani was unable to bear such a heavy burden on her chest.

Before her cousin came home, Rani gave an answer by asking for a little time for her to think wisely.

Fatih accepts Rani's decision. And he will come in a week to hear the answer of his girl.

This is where Rani is now. He sat down while slipping his legs with his head resting against the head of the bed.

He is dreaming of the future. What would happen if she accepted Fatih as her husband. And also what would happen, if he rejected the young man's proposal.

Rani is really a dilemma at the moment. He's very confused. What decision did he make on this matter.

Rani took a long breath.

''O God, what to do now? What answer will I give him? If you choose one, will it be fatal to the other? Oh Allah. Give me a way out. huh.

''I think I should pray Istikharah! So that my problems have a way out. I am sure God will give me a way out! This week, I really have to pray istikharah without breaking.'' said Rani, while rising up to the bathroom and ablution, to perform Istikharah prayers.

After Rani wudhu, he held his alphabet and used a mukena and then raised his hand to takbir.

''Allahu Akbar!'' rani's first takbir.

He was very special in his prayers. He asked God for help in this matter.

Does not the Prophet teach us to always ask and surrender to Allah, so that all our problems feel light? One of them is by ablution (in Q.s Al-Baqarah :222)

Then pray. With us praying then our heart will be calm (existing in Q.s. Al-Baqarah :45).

Then Prayer. This is more than anything. Prayer can tear down a strong wall, a high fence so strong is the power of prayer. Do not despair of the grace of God, for God always hears every prayer of his sincere servant asking him. No one can resist destiny except prayer.

Trust and surrender to Allah SWT. We need to do this too. When we are hit by time, we must remain patient and rely on it. Convince our hearts that God will help his servant who faithfully asks for him. Leave everything to Allah (in Q.s.ath-Thalaaq 3).

And the last one is alms. Increase alms, even though we are in trouble. The more we give, the more we get. And again the prayer of the alms receiver is very mustajab (existing in Q.s. Al-Baqarah :254).

All these problems have a way out. We are the only ones who need to ask God for his guidance.

''Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi..'' Rani looks right and then left. Then he put his hand up with his face down.

''O Allah, O Rohman, O Rohim, o zaljalali wal ikram, You where the servant complains and surrenders to Allah. Which one should I choose between these two choices. So difficult to choose, should the mother of the servant or should she accept the proposal of the cousin of the servant? where should I choose Robb. Give the servant a way out of the Maslah this servant O Allah. The servant only wants, if the choice he will choose will not hurt anyone. I ask God to give a way out of this problem so that the servant does not go the wrong way. Only to Mu the servant begs for forgiveness, only to Mu the servant surrenders himself. I hope for you, O Allah.. Aamiiinn.'' Rani scooped her face with both hands.

His heart was so calm and relieved, after he complained to God. Only to Him is the place of worship.

Rest assured that every prayer we pray will be granted.

After the prayer, Rani approached her mother who was sleeping in the next room. He opened the door slowly, fearing it would disturb his mother's sleep.

Rani approaches her mother's bed and sits next to the bed, where there is a worn-out chair. The chair that his mother used when she sat there by the window.

Rani looks at her mother, her eyes condense. Clear thread has gathered there. Signs will soon be spilled. His view blurred because the clear grain that can not be held to spill.

As tight as his heart felt, seeing his beloved mother lying with a sweat flowing on his wrinkled cheeks.

Rani sobbing. ''Oh Allah, if you could be as healthy as you are, I would be very happy if you could answer every question I asked.. if. hiks... if.. hiks..'' Rani sobbing. He wondered if his mother would recover like other normal humans.

''Mother.. Rani what now..? Rani is confused.. Rani has to choose who..? Mom or bang Fatih?? if Rani chooses Fatih bang, surely Bude Nia does not approve of our marriage, she will be very forced to accept Rani as her future daughter-in-law! If Rani chooses her mother.. Rani will be stamped as a spinster.. Rani must what Bu.'' lirih Rani.

He's so confused right now. He was faced with two choices that were so difficult according to him. If his mother was healthy, he could give advice to Rani.

Rani is in desperate need of advice from her mother at this time.

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TB