
The first league game will start on Sunday, this Friday I go to school as usual and more excited than usual.
I told this to Derry, and he was a little happy to hear that. Derry will also make his debut for the Youth A team on the same day as I make my debut.
"You have to show your best play mate, or you'll be there for the rest of your career" Derry said, trying to remind myself to keep playing to the fullest whatever the way.
"Yes of course" I answered out loud and confident.
As if astonished by what we discussed together, came Salma with a face full of question marks. He was astonished by the discussion of the two of us who were late in the exclamation, finally he included himself in our chat.
"What are you talking about? I think it was right from that moment"
Derry, with a handsome face and confident in himself, began to speak in front of Salma. "You know, your soul mate is going to make his debut on Sunday"
I immediately blushed embarrassed when I heard the word soulmate, Derry intends to humiliate me in front of Salma. I immediately covered his mouth that could not be brake, before getting more wild what he would say from his mouth.
I see also, Salma slightly blushed in embarrassment hearing that. "You misunderstood Derry!" He said, but his voice was so spoiled as if he received a little of what Derry had said earlier.
Derry laughed as if seeing the behavior of the two of us who might look silly and funny in his eyes, he then patted the shoulders of both of us and acted as if to be our matchmaker.
"Why not to be honest, to be honest with the feelings of both of you. You two are a good fit, I'm sure it will be fine" said Derry again, but this time accompanied by a laugh. But what I heard, it was like laughing at a demon lord who had just launched a devious strategy to trap the hero.
The two of us grew silent, pecking, helpless with what Derry said. We seem to accept that reality, but also feel a little afraid if we follow what our hearts and feelings want.
I don't know how Salma felt, but if I could be honest for more than a month at this school, I started to feel something different around the sweet girl.
I feel like if I'm around him, the world feels more colorful. If the color in my life that was once just gray, now many colors have begun to fill it since I knew the figure of the woman.
My life was so sweet that all the food that went into my mouth was so sweet. Bitter vegetable bitter melon alone feels very sweet in recent days I taste.
I wondered to myself, the real question the answer to which I had known a long time ago. I asked if I was feeling his name in love and the answer was obvious, but I kind of betrayed the answer itself by pretending like nothing had happened to me.
I always deny that by humbling myself. From the first time I was not a person who was so confident in my own appearance, I always humbled myself by calling my appearance like a geeky child and cupu who often became the object of bullyan.
Irregular, long hair, a face that is not as handsome as Derry, a posture that is not firm, or even not brave if oppressed by someone. Although there has actually been a small change from me without me noticing, I still feel that way.
For that reason I always betrayed my own feelings, even feeling like I hated myself. I always thought that I was not worthy of Salma who was like an angel in my eyes, and could not imagine that I had to hurt that beautiful figure.
That's what's been blocking me all along.
Salma and I fell silent, and Derry took a deep breath and left us there. I had intended to pull his arm so that Derry would not leave, leaving me in that unpleasant atmosphere, but Derry instead accelerated his pace, leaving me in a very dark situation.
We remained silent for quite a while, no one dared to start the conversation first. When I was about to start the conversation, we both always opened our mouths simultaneously and it happened several times until it made the situation even more uncomfortable.
In the end, I relented and allowed Salma to speak first.
"I heard you guys talking about debuts? What would that debut be if I knew?" Salma asked, her voice was very slow because we were still stuck in an uncomfortable situation.
"Cananga Mining?" His eyes sparkled but looked more interested. "You mean that football club in the district?"
"Yes, that one" I answered briefly.
Salma was more interested, even though I knew he didn't really understand football, but he seemed interested enough if I told him.
"Do you play in Rizal's first team?"
"Ah unfortunately I am still playing in team B, but I am not discouraged and I will continue to fight to be in the first team" without me realizing it I answered his question with a very burning spirit, until the fire of my spirit seemed to spread to Salma who was also eager to ask.
"You're great, Rizal, just my age, you've got things to fight for"
Salma's tone changed slightly, she was envious of what I had been doing all this time. I don't understand where that envy comes from, because I know he's a rich kid who would never have felt how bleak life would be if you didn't have money.
Then a split second after a long sigh, Salma's smile again adorned her beautiful and sweet face. "Keep fighting, Rizal, lest you despair for the sake of chasing the dream" he said with a sweet smile, very cheating.
I can't do anything about it. The smile seemed to make me grin, as if it had a fusing effect on me and I had to wait for a while before it could finally return to its original state.
In the middle of our conversation, one of my classmates called me. I approached her and asked her why she called me.
"That's someone looking for you, maybe your acquaintance" he said.
I'm a little confused by that, who's looking for me at this school? I went out of class and saw a woman in front of the middle class carrying a box of red and blue.
I know the figure of the woman, the woman is the son of the store owner, where I previously worked part-time. She is Melani.
"Hey Rizal! We're going to yuk park! I brought a lot of this" Melani apparently invited me to go outside in this break.
Before I could turn down the invitation because it felt bad, I saw his facial expression that had been a little cheerful, suddenly turned a little dark. I don't know why, but when I looked into her eyes I saw Melani staring at someone in my class.
I followed the direction of the gaze, apparently heading towards Salma who was suddenly behind me.
"Who is Rizal, your friend?" Salma asked when she saw Melani.
I intended to introduce Melani to Salma but before I could do it, Melani gave me a jar of blue stock and left. Not even talking to me at all.
"Hey Melani, to the park so no?" I kept asking because I was a little confused about whether to go to the park or not.
"Not so!" Melani replied, not even looking at me, she just kept stepping towards her class again.
"He why?" Salma was also a little confused by what happened to Melani.
What else I am, I am also confused by what happened to the figure of the woman. But after I thought about it, I knew what the reason was and I kept quiet instead of having to go through something worse than that if I didn't lock my mouth shut right now.