
"I want to see you."
Ferdi and Clara both sent short messages at almost the same time. Ferdi wants to be honest with Clara about being betrothed, and wants to end all the things they have been doing lately.
While Clara wants to ask Ferdi to marry her, even if only limited status first. All expenses he will bear, provided he has a legitimate husband in the eyes of the law. To reclaim his rights which are still in the hands of Nando.
"Koq we can just send it."
Clara replied with a smile of her own, while Ferdi received with a wounded heart. For he will soon injure her, and will soon be regarded as a man who only wants to play with the hearts of others.
"Where do we meet?" reply Ferdi regardless and respond to the contents of the chat Clara just now.
"Where are you?" Clara asked back.
"You mean we want to walk alone or someone gets picked up?. You know, I'm in the office and I'm taking the car." he continued.
"Yes, just meet" replied Ferdi.
"In the usual place?" clara asked again.
"Yes." Yeah."
"Yes, it's right to go home later." said Clara.
"okay."
So Ferdi ended the conversation with a heart that began to be sliced. While Clara still smiles because she does not know the things that will be revealed by her new lover.
"Mother Clara is very sad."
Clara was unaware that her secretary had entered the room to deliver the files.
"When did you come in?" clara asked her secretary.
"Must, you called me."
"Oh yes."
Clara just remembered that. The secretary handed him the file, and Clara signed it.
After work as promised, he went to the designated place. On the way there, the joy and happiness in Clara's heart was never endless.
He who has never been in love for the rest of his life, had fantasized if his request was fulfilled by Ferdi. Then they got married even if it was just a necessity. He fantasized that it would be something beautiful and funny.
To the extent that when he arrived at the location, he still could not help but smile. At that time Ferdi was forced to return Clara's smile, but her attitude began to cool. He could at least hide a problem, let alone concern someone.
"What do you want to order a drink for?" clara asked Ferdi when they were sitting at a table in a corner.
"I'm mineral water." replied Ferdi.
"Tumben doesn't coffee?" ask Clara wonder.
"I don't want to." replied Ferdi again.
"Oh yes, I want an ice chocolate message" said Clara. He called the waiter and ordered ice.
While waiting for the ice chocolate so, Clara talked a lot about something. But Ferdi only focused on looking at the face and looking into the eyes of the woman. Like regretting something.
"Oh yes, I want to talk seriously with you." suddenly Clara said after all these small talk.
"Sama, me too." - timpal Ferdi.
"You are the dulan." The two spoke at almost the same time.
Clara laughed, while Ferdi forced a smile.
"Yes you are first" said Ferdi later.
"You're the first one. I've been out lately." said Clara.
"Why?" ask Ferdi.
"It's okay you are dulan" continued the man again.
"I don't want to, you go first." Clara insisted.
Ferdi was silent and took a deep breath. Clara, who had not been aware of Ferdi's changes, now seemed to begin to realize this.
"I want to apologize" Ferdi said as he looked at Clara.
"Sorry?. About what?" Clara doesn't understand.
Ferdi looked at Clara closely.
"I can't continue this relationship."
Clara was silent to the statement, suddenly all prejudice was now raging in her head.
"Because I'm a widow?" ask her later.
"Mom, that's not it. I don't have a problem with that?"
"Keep what?"
Clara stared back at Ferdi closely. And it made Ferdi's entire joint feel paralyzed. He not only hurt Clara about the relationship they were in, but also about the status of the widow who was held by the woman.
"I was wrong with you. This is all my fault, and has nothing to do with the status of the widow you bear. I've been betrothed by my parents and it's my fault, I'm in love with you."
Ferdi said as he clasped Clara's hand. Clara who was still silent swallowed her saliva, then bowed deeply.
He had heard many reasons like this. Where someone says he has been betrothed. Just for the sake of leaving the relationship that is being lived.
Reasons that sometimes seem artificial, but make people who hear it can not answer anything else.
Clara was convinced that Ferdi had left her because of her widow status. That's the most reasonable reason. Given that not all single men want to marry a widow, and not all prospective in-laws want to accept a daughter-in-law who is not a girl.
Clara took a deep breath and tried to calm herself down. He wants to be mature at his age. Although he really wanted to cry because he felt so sick.
If you can't, Ferdi also don't max yourself to love others. His name is still a selfish man. Bringing other people into his life, even though he can not do it because it is bound to a thing.
"Yes, I accept your reason" said Clara, staring at Ferdi.
While Ferdi was getting crushed looking into the eyes of the woman. She wants to be with Clara, but what about her wedding.
He does not want to lie or make Clara as an affair in the marriage that he will live later. Because Clara doesn't deserve to be treated that way. He may have the heart of his wife later, but not of Clara.
"I'm sorry, about the feeling I didn't lie. I really love you." said Ferdi once again.
Clara smiled wryly, then sipped her drink while holding back the rate of tears.
"What did you say?" ask Ferdi to the woman.
Clara shook her head. Because Ferdi will be betrothed by his parents. Whether it was true or not, it was clearly no longer possible to ask the man to marry her. Because it is a very impossible thing in the current situation.
"Why not, I'm curious."
Ferdi really felt guilty because it did not force Clara to talk first.
"No, I forgot." replied Clara.
"I want to go home again." continued the woman later.
And Ferdi could only be silent, not even able to think about what would happen next.