FREDELLA STORIES
THERE I AM
,Who can guess destiny, even for the next 1 hour we will not be able to know what happened. Likewise with Della he never expected even in his wild mind if it would be abandoned by Judah so soon. At first he ignored the words of the servant at the house of Judah, thinking that it was just nonsense.
But now that he was right beside the new tomb bearing the name Yuda Argantara, there was no more reason for him not to believe.
Della sat down lethargicly, looking at the tomb with a bitter look, at the ground that was still wet, and at once her cries broke. He roared beside the tomb, his heart was squeezed and it was painful, his noble brain twisted the memory of the events he experienced with Judah.
"Hey, baby you really have the same heart as me, you leave me with so much guilt, you why leave these memories anyway?, and you should take me when you want to go, you want me to go, the worst thing you know is that you don't care about me. So mean to you".
"But in spite of all that, in fact I am the most evil, I am evil because I do not know the pain you are enduring, and what suffering you are facing again".
"Hey, yes, I said yes, but if you know it still feels like a dream and I hope it's a dream".
Della got up from her squat and rubbed the tombstone of Judah fondly, after which she rushed away from the tomb area with a pias face and an empty gaze.
After Della's departure, a young man of almost the same age as Della emerges from her hiding area. The man walked with definite strides towards the same tomb that Della stopped by.
"Hi bro".
"Gue hope Lo is calm there, sorry for the end of this, and thanks also for my permission to bolt canin Della"
"Oh yes, Lo calm down, I'm sure he will be happy with me, I say yes, and thanks for all this time, although I rarely talk about this , ' Yud ,but I'm proud of the war so Lo's friend, I go Yud".
Bian stepped out of the final resting place of a Yuda Argantara. He went away carrying all the guilt and burden on his chest. It feels pretty painful to be left in a state they are not doing well.
Today Della sat back under the luxurious mattress of her apartment, she sat with an empty view, not allowing anyone to come to see her, already counted one Sunday of Judah gone, and this week he was always daydreaming, sometimes he even wanted to go after Judah by cutting his wrist, but it seemed that God still loved him, he said, all the things he did to catch up with Judah seemed constrained, and failed miserably.
Remembering something Della got up from her seat, hurriedly looking for the letter she found in Judah's room one Sunday ago, slowly opening the handwriting, impregnated every word for word contained there, back his chest increasingly tight, he did not know it would be this painful. Why should Judah, why not himself, or maybe later he will follow for the same reason.
Tears trickled back from her already swollen eyes, she squeezed the letter, and carried it into her arms. Della felt useless both as a friend and as a lover, as well as feeling sorry with his other two friends, why neither person told him.
"Store.tokk..
From the outside came the sound of the door being knocked impatiently, Della already had no voice to say so left alone the person.
Della still does not say, he hates himself, but he hates the current situation more.
Outside the apartment, Bian is still trying to persuade Della, long without getting an answer he asked for the spare key of this unit, and entered the barge, breaking in, upon entering the room occupied by Della he could see the girl sitting speechless with a letter in her hand. Bian approached and immediately took Della into his arms, it felt annoying when he saw Della so bad when she lost Yuda.
"Hey no papa, there's me, you're not alone"
Della hugged Bian tightly trying to find comfort, not answering Bian's words, but Della certainly shaved to have a friend like Bian.
"He went Bi, he left me, sick, it's really sick here".
Della pointed fixed towards his heart, it was very painful, maybe to eliminate the pain it took a short time.
"Hey I know, but Lo must rise, Yuda certainly do not like to see Lo kayak gini, already yes already quite a week this self-inclined, now it's time to rise again".
Bian raised Della's face to look at her face, stared at her eyes, and wiped away the remaining tears, dai looked at Della with a gentle gaze, and, and also there is clearly visible affection so great.
"Now that I'm alone, I don't have anyone else, how should I Bi, how?".
Lesuh Della, this is one of the consequences that he must bear, all this time he was dependent on Judah, he entrusted everything to Judah, as his life was already in the hands of Judah without exception, and now that Judah is gone, Della seems to have lost her grip on life, afraid that she is really sick to face the real world, the world he was about to face with Judah now had to face himself. Now who will be the guide in Della's travel life, honestly it feels like she is so scared right now.
"There I am, Lo will not be alone, here I am, I will be the guide of every darkness of Lo's life, and I will also be the place of the handle of life that will Lo do next, Lo, just as I'm going to be where Lo depends now, I'm Dell, as long as Lo follows my rules, I'll make Lo my life priority, even above my own life"
Said Bian steadily, Della who heard that could only be silent in disbelief, but also quite relieved, at least now there is Bian who will always be with her, and Judah, who will be with her, he will remain a character in the story. Not only the main character, Yuda will also be the only character who is always there in every step Della next.
Fifteen minutes into silence, Bian looked at Della in his arms, sleeping, with Bian's heart lifting Della up on the bed, in her blanket, and in her bed, and then he stared at the peaceful face of Della while asleep, he took also a letter that had been held by Della, then placed on the table beside the mattress.
Bian stroked Della's hair, then continued onto her face, and her delicate facial features turned cold and flat.
"Welcome to the real life of Babe, this time you will know the real world, but if you obey you will be the happiest person, sleep well beautiful, sleep well, after this you will get a lot of surprises".