Goddess Corter
The Little Reftia (1)
When I was 8 years old, I was thinking about this vast world, about who created it. Is it true that this world is just formed by humans, without anyone regulating it?
Humans easily do this and it is only in their own interest. Whether what they do is right or wrong, I will never know.
It's just, I'm afraid the Creator will get angry.
No. gabe. If the Creator really existed, he should not have made his creatures angry with him.
***
“Reftia, otherwise hurry later loh!!”
Shouted Diana from a distance. He left me a few feet when I stopped my steps to tie my shoelaces.
“I-Iya.. briefly.”
I answered him nervously. My unaccustomed hand to tying the rope had to work 2 times faster than usual.
Finished tying up, I half ran towards Diana who could not bear my inaction.
I am such a person, always bothering others. I am not good at getting along, sometimes always shunned by my friends for no apparent reason. People go too far, one person hates me and the other too.
But Diana was different, she still accepted me for who I was even though she wasn't as pathetic as me.
Actually, what makes me really hated by people is because of my intelligence.
***
Arriving at the school gate, when I was one step inside, I felt nervousness and fear. My body trembled, remembering what kind of ignorance my friends would do today.
Diana and I separated when we finished taking the book in the locker, because my class and Diana were different. That's what scares me, the only people close to me should stay away.
I deliberately didn't want to open my locker before Diana left, because if Diana saw the contents of my locker, she might get angry.
My hands were shaking, I wanted to run and go home. But come to think of it anyway, I have to face it.
When I opened the locker, sure enough, what came out from the inside was a bunch of crumpled paper trash. There was a lot of trash coming out, to the point that it fell to the floor and scattered.
There is also a small board that says ‘Stupid! No more school! Reftia idiot!’
“Hei view! That's the Reftia, huh? Haha, he is as pitiful as ever.”
“Better don't approach him.”
“Hey, she heard it loh.”
The people behind me were always laughing at me when this happened.
There was no reason to stand in front of the locker any longer, I immediately tidied up the trash, took my notebook and immediately went to class.
***
The reason why they did such a cruel thing was actually because of my own fault. It all started a year ago, when I was on my 14th birthday, my dad transferred me to this high school.
But in my new school, I used my head too much to get along. In short, maybe I am too good in terms of education or social. Yes, I'm good at looking at other people's hearts but I don't understand how they feel.
Sometimes when someone keeps a secret, I easily dismantle it and tell it to others, not because I do not know. The rumors of me always seem to have spread all over the school, in the end all the students away from me.
Watered, locked in the gym, until slapped, I was always treated like that. I can't report to my teacher or my parents, because if I do, they threaten to kill me.
“Although there are people who are able to help me, it seems that it is not human.”
Frightened, I entered the classroom.
Surprisingly, when I opened the door, no water or dirt was thrown at me. Everyone seemed oblivious to my arrival, they were busy with their conversations with others.
Have they stopped cheating on me? I'm really happy. I smiled and walked to my desk.
When I sat in the chair, there really was no prank going on. It was only 2 minutes when I entered class, but usually in that period of time there were many who insulted me.
“What... is something under the table?”
It was like there was a squeaking, or snarling sound inside my desk. The noise was slow but clear. My desk also shook when I put my hand.
Boldly, I tried to grab what was inside.
Turns out, it was a bunch of white mice that came out the moment I put my hand in. The rats immediately jumped up and explored my entire body, they even perched on my head and skirt.
I cried out very loudly in disgust, even though the rat was clean, I was always afraid of the mouse.
My friends loudly laughed out loud, as I began to craze to release the rats. I swear, it was so ridiculous, their little legs that touched my body, I could die just because of that.
“Ahahah!!! Reftia... not me who compiled the idea.. pffftt... so stupid!!!”
“Clean under your desk!! Otherwise the mice will be more!”
“Gross girl!”
“Why don't you just die?!”
While crying, I accepted all the insults without being able to retaliate. Usually in the story of bullying there would be one or two people defending me in class, but unfortunately that didn't happen to me. They're judging me like it's their duty.
I forced myself to lift my body and run out of class, I didn't want to look more miserable with these rats.
When everyone walked into the classroom, I ran opposite. I don't know where I want to go, I just want to get out of this school.
Luckily the school gate was not yet closed, I quickly ran out of the gate. No one noticed it, because I was running in the crowd of people walking in. Besides, the bell will be ringing soon, time has passed, no one looks at me.
I was running on a sidewalk, it was a different sidewalk to my previous route.
On the run, I cried silently, thinking constantly about what my friends were doing. It doesn't matter if I'm watered or hurt, but rats are something else, I've always been afraid of rats. Somehow they can find out the secret.
When I ran and kept my eyes peeled, I accidentally bumped into someone. It made me fall.
“Sorry, are you okay?”
It was a man in his 20s, he was wearing a black suit like an office worker. He wasn't wearing a tie, but on his chest was an identifying mark hanging.
The man looked down and offered his hand to me. The identification is hanging in front of me, and it looks like the name ‘Darren C.’ is there.
Just that time, all my life I felt appreciated by others.
I accepted her hand happily, but still could not stop my tears from pouring out.
“T-Thank you.”
Don't know what to do for now, whether to run away or face it. To be honest, I still want to talk to that nice guy. Right too, he is a good man, I who can understand the hearts of others should have been able to realize that from earlier.
We both fell silent to each other. Ah, that's very awkward. I still want to talk but it looks like that guy has other business. I had to think of a way to talk.
“It.. can.. can you accompany me first?”
“EH?!!”
Is this weird? God, my question is too blunt, I shouldn't say that to people I don't know yet. But take it easy, he's a good guy.
***
We were sitting on a bench in front of an ice cream shop, the man happily bought me vanilla-flavored ice cream.
I thought he would initially refuse, I also intended to retract my words, but he didn't seem to mind.
The scene in front of us is one that usually happens in the hours people leave for work, pedestrians in suits carrying suitcases, cars that stop in front of red lights, it was a sight I usually ignored.
“Omong-by the way.why don't you go to school? Though wearing a uniform.”
The ice cream was bitter when the question was asked. To be honest, this actually offends me a bit. But I can't be selfish, he doesn't understand my personal problems, he just tries to care.
“I.. i. in. jahili.”.
Saying slowly. My soft voice was covered by the sound of ice cream licking from my tongue.
“Hah? Colored?!!”
She's surprised. I answered him with a nod
“If it is indeed colonized, why not just report it?”
“... I can't do it.”
“Owh.. They threatened you, huh?”
I answered him again with a nod.
Just by discussing this alone it feels like it has made me sick, I don't want to say much.
“Beautiful girl like you. There are only two possibilities, first you will be treated like a queen, second you will be treated like a slave. There are those who are crazy about you, there are also those who hate you.”
The man said his motivational words as if he always said that every day. Unlike my ever-impaired self, I envy her confident attitude. Just from the way he sat crossing his legs, and his hands hanging behind the back of the bench, I felt he was a quick-adapted person.
“Why the hell I said ‘don't put in hearts’, but seeing yourself until you leave school seems to be free.”
“.. ap-what.. is... is what I did this wrong?.”
“Hmm. If I were a woman, I would probably do the same. But it seems like you are a gentle person, your attitude is too open with the advice of others.So open you do not know, which is a suggestion, which is an insult.”.
This man, when he had only met for no more than an hour, but what he said seemed to reflect what had been in my heart. I always racked my brain to search for those words, and now I find them easily.
Why is this guy able to understand me so quickly? Is she not the same as me?
“A-You are quite good at judging someone, yes!”
I nervously turned to her and said the compliment stammeringly.
“I once entered into the science of social majors first.well, even though it is not my identity anyway.”.
“B-So..”
“... for life, I was always wrong in making choices. Even great things that can change my life history though.I was always wrong in choosing it. But, if you are able to turn that mistake into a truth, then technically you are never wrong!”
God, this guy is too wise compared to me. All the words that came out of his mouth reflected how much experience he had in his life. It was as if those words were a way out of every bitterness of his life, which was why he could say them so clearly.
As for me, let alone looking for a solution, I am not even able to face my own problems. This me who is too weak seems to deserve to be insulted.
We both smile back at each other. Unlike a motivator who says things seriously, this man says it with a face full of smiles and pleasant gestures.
“It... I don't know your father's name yet?”
My toot. I just realized we haven't introduced ourselves.
“Gosh, don't call me dad, I'm only 21 loh.”
“M-Sorry.”
“I'm Darren Corter, you're free to call me anything.”
“.. then brother Darren only. N-My name is Reftia.”
“Reftia? Unique is also your name!”
“Aha.. many say so.”
At the time, I didn't know what kind of relationship we had.
It feels quite strange that we are said to be friends, our age and gender differences are too strange to be called friends. If you say parents and children also feel strange, Darren is still too young to have a child like me. Sisters? Yeah, maybe it's the brothers.
But what kind of feeling is this? My chest thumped as I remembered my distance from Darren by no more than two meters. It's no longer a feeling of pleasure, it's stranger than just happiness.
“People like Reftia tend to be fragile.If they are weak then they will fall, but if they are strong then they will rise. Reftia itself wants to fall or rise?”
“..a-I don't know.. I don't want to fall. but I don't want to get up too.”.
“..pfftt.. ahaha.what kind of answer is it!”
The man laughed when I finished answering.
But the way he laughs is not the same as the people who love me, he laughs naturally. It was precisely his laughter could make me smile as well, even so I did not like the way he did who did not appreciate my answer.
“T-Please don't laugh!”
I threw away my face, puffed my cheeks and licked my ice cream faster. Of course I'm not angry, this is just the usual annoyance that women often experience.
“Sorry, sorry. But. Reftia's answer is not wrong, you do not want to fall but also do not want to rise, if that's what you want. then you have to struggle to find the meaning of your words.”.
As expected, Darren is not a bad guy, he looks sincere when accompanying me. If only I had known her for longer, maybe my life wouldn't have been this dark.
I've never had this much luck before. I've never found a man as good as Darren before. If I find a sepetinya, as if I am sorry I have lived 15 years and have just met him now.
It's stupid, if just hearing her words made me happy, I should have met her a long time ago.