Grasping Longs
Part~1

Demian Anggoro's

"Dear, please don't go. I'm sorry."

There was sweat on the forehead of a man who was seen still asleep on his king size bed.

"Darling, are you okay ?"

A beautiful woman looks very worried while gently shaking the husband's arm to wake up from his nightmare.

"You're having nightmares again ?" he said again after the man woke up and leaned his body on the headboard of the bed.

The man named Demian seemed to be scooping his face violently, removing the remnants of his dreams that he had often experienced for the past 8 years.

"I'm fine, leave me alone" he ordered, who was nodded at his wife.

"Ariana, where are you now."

For 8 years, Demian harbored a feeling of guilt for hurting a woman who had secretly stolen his heart.

He realized all this time was so wasted by the woman and when the woman went far away to leave him, he only realized he had fallen in love with her.

On the other hand, in a remote area far from the capital, a woman was watching the morning news on television.

His smile seemed cynical when he saw the face of the man he hated most in his life smiling happily with his wife and daughter in front of reporters.

Successful businessman named Demian is often the news media because of his success in business and household.

Then he immediately took the remote and turned off the television.

"I'm-I'm pregnant." Ariana looked on in disbelief at the two-striped flat object in her hand.

"Why did this happen, I have to hold him accountable."

With a limp step Ariana went to a man's apartment that he had considered a friend, but instead had to snatch his chastity because of the influence of alcohol on the fateful night a month ago.

Although the night was cloudy so dense, but did not discourage Ariana's steps to fight for her son's right to get recognition from the father.

He did not want his son to be like him who never got his father's love.

Arriving at an apartment tower that soars so high, Ariana stepped definitely towards the top unit of the tower.

After the elevator door opened, Ariana immediately stepped out. But from a distance he saw the father of his fetus was seen kissing with a woman in front of the door of his apartment.

"Demians."

Ariana stiffened, then turned around and went back into the elevator.

Although outside the rain began to fall, Ariana still stepped her feet through the swift rain in the middle of darkness.

"Son, looks like we don't need a father anymore. I promise to protect you wholeheartedly, like your late grandmother who protected you until the end."

Sometimes going is better than staying but it hurts, so does Ariana and she believes this is the lifeline she has to live.

Had Ariana survived and held the man to account, Ariana was not sure her life and her son would be happy. Given how Demian had been famous as a Casanova.

Moreover, the difference between them is so looming, Ariana is just an orphaned and poor girl. While Demian was like a prince in his eyes and this was not a fairy tale, he thought.

Ariana immediately rubbed her eyes that suddenly condensed, the shadow 8 years ago always haunts her.

He longed to forget about Demian, but the face of the son was so similar to that of the man.

"Wake up, it's morning. Didn't you go to school ?" Ariana shook the shoulder of the son so that his son woke up quickly.

"Why do you wake up, baby, usually this mother's child wakes up very early and sometimes even helps the mother in the kitchen" said Ariana softly after her son woke up from his sleep.

"I'm sorry Ricko buk, today Ricko is not in school." said Ricko with a hearty face.

Ariana, who was opening the window curtain, immediately turned to the son.

"It's a holiday ?" today is not a red date.

Ricko bowed while linking his fingers and Ariana was sure her son was having problems.

Ariana stepped closer to her little angel, then sat down next to her. He took both of the little boy's hands and held them affectionately.

"Tell me, did Ricko fight again at school ?" ariana said softly but firmly.

Without daring to look at his mother, Ricko seemed to nod his head.

"Why did Ricko do that again, baby? it's not like you said fighting wasn't good, son." Ariana still held her son's hand.

"But Doni makes fun of Ricko keeps buk, Doni says Ricko is an illegitimate child, Ricko does not deserve to be friends and school there. Ricko was angry and then hit Doni." The 2nd grader seemed to be talking while sobbing.

Hearing Ricko's words, Ariana immediately hugged the son. Ariana felt so guilty, her son should not bear his guilt first.

"I'm sorry, son."

Ricko broke his embrace, then looked at his mother's face.

"What Ricko bastard buk? doni said the bastard didn't know who his father was" he said asking for an explanation.

Ariana looked to be breathing. "In this world there are no illegitimate children dear, all children are born holy and Ricko also has a father really." Ariana said.

"But where's Ricko's dad, buk? why not go home ?"

"Your father is dear, but he is working in a distant place. One day you'll be home, you can't wait for him ?" talk to Ariana again.

"Hm." Ricko nodded.

"Well now you take a shower, that's breakfast. I'll go to school and talk to your homeroom teacher." Ariana ordered.

While opening his bakery on the porch of his house, Ariana seemed to massage his temple which suddenly hurt.

"Loh Ricko doesn't go to school, Rin ?" ask Widya next door neighbor Ariana's house which she already considers like her own brother.

"He was in the law, had a fight with his friend." said Ariana.

"It must be because of his father again, right ?" widya.

Ariana nodded her head, indeed all this time Ricko was often a victim of bullying because of his father's unclear status.

"Come on Rin, follow my advice. Come join mebak to the capital, there you can find a better school for Ricko." said Widya.

Ariana was silent, returning to the capital was the same as going to her past. What if that jerk meets him again and finds out that Ricko is his flesh and blood.

Surely the man will take Ricko from him and indeed he can not live without the son who has always been the encouragement of his life.

"I know what you're worried about, but the capital is vast. You won't meet the man anymore, after all you can stay in one of the rent there and open your store again." said Widya again.

"I'll think, ma'am." said Ariana as she arranged the cakes in the etalese.

"Next month Herman has to move to the headquarters, I hope you can come with us. You know that Ricko himself can at least be far from Herman" Widya said.

"Yes, I will think again." said Ariana.