GRINNED
CHAPTER 43: Meaningless Pardons
Where should I go ...
That was the first thought when Haydi could step on the floor. To clean up, pack her things and the baby.
Haydi dazedly left the hospital alone. Fortunately Ryan had already left money for her delivery payment. He could breathe a little.
And what about this kid...
Should I take this little baby home.
And where should I go home. Back to papa's house ...
I don't think I have the courage. How shameful my family is. Maybe they'll kick me out ....
Back to my house near campus. ..
I'm so embarrassed what if my friends find out and scorn me. With this baby.
It's been 4 months, I left campus without anyone knowing. Lived in Ryan's villa until my stomach grew and now I'm born.
And to go back there again, it hurts. And don't want to. And if Ryan's family knew for sure they'd get angry and throw me out anyway.
He was silent for a long time, while holding the steering wheel of a car that was not even turned on. Clear threads dripped from the corner of her eyes. Until he could no longer hold his head. He put his head on the back of the wheel. He took his hand off the wheel. I want to disappear for the rest of the day. Haydi only cupped his hands together on his face that had been soaked by tears.
In silence, she heard the shrill voice of the tiny baby sleeping beside her. Like thirst. He looked on with annoyance and disappointment. But it is not up to the heart to let it go. He grabbed the tiny baby and gave it his ass. In order not to let people around him hear the cry of this tiny baby.
After looking full, the tiny unnamed baby fell asleep quietly with her eyes closed perfectly. Carefully Haydi put it back in its place.
Haydi took a heavy breath and threw it away. Gather all his courage to look at his goal. But where ....
Up to this second, he had yet to find an answer.
With the car turned on. Leaving the maternity hospital courtyard. Without a definite purpose.
It's been an hour Haydi's been circling the streets. Until he did not know he was too far away from the city of Malang. Until entering the forest area.
Splitting the forest alone on a deserted road, making himself tired. Especially since the morning his stomach has not been filled. Haydi paused for a moment on the side of the road.
Clear droplets did not feel flowing in the corner of his eyes the longer the more swift. But what to grieve. Everything has happened. It's really sorry and then it's no longer useful.
He was pensive for a long time. It dawned when the baby by her side cried. Like thirst. Looked at the little baby's face carefully. Looks squirming for a moment. His eyes are still tightly closed. His mouth was open and stuck out his tongue like he was looking for something. There was anger in his heart.
He's letting. Even as her cries grew louder. Haydi doesn't care.
"Why do you cry so much .."so Haydi yelled at the tiny baby. Make her cry harder. As if his soul understood the harshness of the word to him.
"If you don't stop crying, I'll stay here. I have been hard enough to give birth to you. Your father doesn't care. Should I care about you?!" annoyed words that just came out of Haydi's mouth.
Whispering from nowhere, his hand violently grabbed the baby. Take out the car and walk into the forest.
But Haydi did not realize, from now on someone followed when he had just left the city to the road that leads to the forest.
"Isn't that Haydi's car, where he's going." Ana's worried. He kept following the car. Taking a safe distance to go unnoticed.
But he was surprised when he saw Haydi's car stop. Shortly afterwards Haydi appeared outside holding a tiny baby who looked to be crying. He looked at his face and exuded hatred. He saw Haydi keep walking until he entered the forest.
He continued to follow her stealthily.
"Haydi, what are you doing. Why are you holding a baby. Whose baby is that?"
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And now Ana longs to meet. But when he arrived at the house occupied by his sister. He didn't find it.
"Bak Marni, where's Haydi going?"
"Don't know Den .. since four months ago he never returned to this house. I think Den Haydi went back to Jakarta." replied Mbak Marni. The person who had been given the trust to take care of the house. Since becoming the property of the Hendi family.
"Nearly 6 months he never came home. We think he's busy with his college."
"He hasn't been in college since 6 months ago."
"2 months before that Den Haydi rarely went home. Just occasionally come here. But soon to be gone."
"About where the boy had been all this time." murmured Ana softly. But Marni can listen to it anyway.
"Maybe he's with his boy friend."
"You mean Marni?"
"Since she knew the man. Den Haydi often comes home at night. Sometimes drunk. They often do not go home either. Almost every holiday or weekend, Den Haydi never sleeps at home."
"Thank you, Ma'am. Maybe Marni knows the house?"
Marnie just shook her head.
"Mas .. This is how." asked Ana to the man sitting in the guest chair.
"Here a minute, dear."
Ana walked over and sat by his side agitatedly. The man kissed Ana gently on the forehead. Ana was a little calm.
"Mas, just calm down. My sister is a girl. Without care. I'm afraid of why-not ..."
Ana was silent for how long. His heart was very worried about Haydi's condition. Ana leaned on the man's shoulder lethargically. Then crying in his arms. The man looked sad but remained calm.
"Mas understand, dear. We pray first yok. It is now approaching the time of the dhuhur prayer. We find a mosque and eat. Then we'll find Haydi."
"Yes. Mas." Ana according to his invitation.
"Bi Marni, later if Haydi comes home please call us yes .... It's my number." Ana said before leaving the house.
"Well, Den Ana."
Not until they found a mosque. A car passed, from the opposite direction. The car was no stranger to Ana.
"Mas.that's Haydi's car."Shouted Ana happy.
"Okay, we just follow" he replied.
"Where is he?"
"Calm down, baby."
Why did Haydi's car stop in the middle of the forest like this?
"Mas, why would Haydi go into the woods with a baby. I follow ya."
"Please wait in the car. Let me follow him."
" Good, Mom."