Honey Formerly
Chapter 10 Go

Nindi POV.

I have prepared my heart. Not to be sad to hear all the stories, which were kept secret by Mas Rendra all this time. But in fact, I still grieve knowing it all from Mas Rendra's mouth.

Especially when Mas Rendra said he could not divorce Marsya, who was pregnant with the Rose at the time. I feel like there's a little bit of Mas Rendra's love for him, the proof that Mas Rendra can hide all this from me for 11 years.

I shook my head, smiling and staring cynically at Mas Rendra. When I heard Mas Rendra, who said I was his wife who he loved. I, who was so sick of hearing her words, pushed her body.

"Mas says it's just me, the wife that I love. But for 11 years, I never knew. That I had a honey, and now she's pregnant with your second child. That means Mas, who says I'm the only wife I love?" I revealed my heart, which was upset to hear his words.

But Mas Rendra did not realize, that now Marsya is pregnant with his second child. And that means, it's just bullshit. So that I can believe all his words.

"Marsya is pregnant, but that's ..."

"Don't say it! If it wasn't his son, I wouldn't believe it. Never mind, don't lie to me. Not enough? For eleven years Mas lied to me, "I immediately cut off the words of Mas Rendra, who would have lied to me again.

After I finished saying it all, I immediately left Mas Rendra who was in the room.

"Nindi forgive, Mas. You don't leave me" said Mas Rendra who pulled one hand, and he tried to prevent me from leaving.

"Give me some time, Mom. To think about all the decisions I will take," I said as I let go of my hand held by Mas Rendra.

I managed to let go of my hand, but Mas Rendra hugged my body from behind.

"You don't say that, honey. I love you so much, and I don't want you to leave. Please understand the circumstances of Mas, who has not been able to divorce Marsya. Because she's pregnant, and make sure! If you and our two children, it will remain a top priority Mas and ...."

"I don't want to hear anything from you anymore, Mom. The attention and affection you give it, just to cover your secret. So I beg you, let me go to think about all the decisions I'm going to make" I again cut off his words. Because I want to think about the decision, which I will take. After knowing all the secrets of Mas Rendra all this time.

"Mas will let you go, but I hope! Don't you ever think of leaving Mas,"

I nodded my head, and tried to agree with his words. Even though I don't know what I'm going to take. Because what I'm thinking right now, just wants to calm my heart and mind. To keep me sane through my days, which I now know everything about. That I have a honey, and must share a husband with Marsya.

"Nindi, listen to Mas. Don't cut it again, you should know. If all this time Mas has always been with you, and rarely met Marsya and Rose. Meeting the two of them once a month did not, Mas only sent money as a sense of responsibility towards the two of them. You have to believe in words, Mom. The three of you remain the top priority, the proof has always been there for you," said Mas Rendra who continued his words, which I cut and he tried to make me believe his words.

"Should I believe what you said, Mom? You're so good at hiding your secrets that I never suspected anything. If it turns out all this time, you have a wife other than me. Although all this time I feel, that I and the children have never lacked attention and affection from you. But behind it all, the attention and affection you give. It kept a secret I didn't know, and it hurt my feelings. I'm disappointed, with your attitude of lying to me all this time" I said in a disappointed tone. Because Mas Rendra has been lying to me all this time.

"I'm sorry, honey. Lying to you all along, Mas chose to keep all of this a secret. So that nothing like this happens, that will hurt you and hurt your feelings. I'm not ready to tell you all this, and you better not have to know ..."

"So you want to keep this a secret forever? That's what you mean, Mas?"

"That's all if you can, but someday. If you feel ready, I will tell you everything. But in fact, you already know first. Before I tell you everything. I'm sorry, "he apologized again, and it made me shake my head with a wry smile.

"What's the difference between now and then? At the end of the day, I will definitely know all this, and it definitely makes me feel disappointed at your attitude that sues me. Release my hand! I don't want to be touched by you. Before I get the decision that I will choose," I try to release my hand, which is still held by Mas Rendra.

Now I managed to let go of my hand, and immediately left. But Mas Rendra followed me, and I hurried away. So that Mas Rendra does not prevent my departure again.

"Mrs, Nindi ..." Mas Rendra shouted to me, who was going downstairs. But I ignored the sound of his screams, and continued in my footsteps who were about to leave this house. Because I don't want to see him, who's been lying to me all this time.

"Nindi, you don't have to leave the house. Let Mas go, " cried Mas Rendra who again prevented my departure, and he chose to leave this house.

His shout this time, made me stop my footsteps.

"But you have to remember, with the message that Mas gave you. Don't even think about ending a long marriage. Mas did not want it to happen, and Mas would rather end Mas' marriage with Marsya.  Take good care of yourself, and I'll leave the kids to you. Contact Mas, if you have got a decision that you will choose," continued Mas Rendra, who gave a message to me. So that I may keep this marriage.

As Mas Rendra was about to leave the house, my two children came out of his room. Surely they both heard my voice, which was talking to Mas Rendra.

"Dad .." cried the two children who ran to his father, who was leaving this house.

My two children are close to her father, and do I have to maintain this marriage for the sake of children?