I Love You, J!
Chapter II - Thank You

"Kira! Are you okay?” Yasmin walked up to me when I managed to enter the classroom unhindered. He looked worried after seeing my eyes being careless.

“I’m not okay,” sahutku. “Please don't ask me details.”

“Okay,” says Yasmin slowly. “Lo ate it, right? Don't let you faint. You have to be strong, this heartbreak is nothing, okay?”

“It's obviously nothing,” my rebuttal. “No may be okay.”

“I know, but I believe you can get through this well.” Yasmin looked optimistic, probably because I only needed a week to get back up. But this time I'm not sure. I think it took me more than a week to get back to normal.

“Thanks,” I said. I will not prolong my complaint. Yasmin wouldn't stop encouraging me with wise quotes if I said I wouldn't be able to move on so quickly.

“Gue is sure Junot has already given you words of pearl, so I do not want to add,” said Yasmin as if she could read my mind.

I smiled wryly. “He said I have to learn the real, the history of Indonesia is more interesting than the history of my love.”

Yasmin painstakingly endured the laughter. “Junot rese,” murmur. “Ah, let's go, don't discuss romance. What if we are looking for entertainment? Watch the basketball training kids! Javier must be playing, who knows your mood so better after seeing him.”

“Ck, initials J again,” lamented.

“Eh, why?” Yasmin looked confused. “Lo has not responded to Javier?”

I'm shaking. “Udah ah, I'm males!”

“Lho, what is it? Not that you are really fascinated, is the same skin that is as clear as crystal? Her sexy dimples? His voice is so deep that it makes deg-degan not controlled?”

I shook my head again. “Gue no longer want to watch basketball.”

Yasmin has not given up. “Come, Na. I haven't seen Javier play basketball in a long time. I will find the most strategic position to watch it delicious.”

I intend to avoid Yasmin when college ends and hope she forgets her idea of watching Javier play basketball. Yasmin moved faster. He pulled my hand and dragged me to the basketball court.

Yasmin is like a possessed person, but this only wants to watch a basketball game fad Javier and his friends, not an official match. It was like watching an IBL match.

“Yas, don't bother me,” I complained.

“Eh, we have to spit. Later Javier hunted to play,” said Yasmin. “There must have been rame girls watching him.”

Javier was a child of the Faculty of Economics, but his popularity was already cross-majored. Like Yasmin said, Javier has crystal clear skin and sexy dimples. He has the aura of a sultan who I think has no match for the entire campus. His hobby that plays basketball with his friends is always a spectacle of girls from various majors. They even came to the Faculty of Economics building only to see Javier after playing basketball.

Yasmin and I, who are from less popular majors on campus, felt like chicks when they joined girls from other majors. Yasmin did not care. He often said that I was fashionable and did not look like a child of History Science who mostly nerd in my campus.

“Lo is still cool despite the heartbreak, Na,” said Yasmin. “Not lost to those girls.” Yasmin pointed at the hordes of the girls of the Faculty of Economics with her chin. “Sok beautiful deh yellow shirt,” hiss again.

I let out a breath. If only I wasn't a fan of colossal dramas, maybe I would have entered the Faculty of Economics as advised by Mama. Unfortunately I am a huge fan of Suliwa, one of my favorite characters in the colossal drama Angling Dharma.

Ok, I'm a bit old school. I am also a fan of Saeguk. The guys in the Korean drama made me crazy. There is nothing sexier than old-time wandering guys.

“Eh, it's Javier!” Yasmin started to get hysterical. “Crazy, the visual fits perfectly with the male characters in your favorite historical romance novel. Like the princes of old. I don't mind calling him Lord.”

“Do not halu,” I said. Javier is that handsome. I wouldn't be surprised if he did have a noble bloodline. But I'm not as crazy as Yasmin who wouldn't mind calling her Lord.

I didn't enjoy this atmosphere, unlike Yasmin who screamed loudly once Javier got the ball. I just sat with a blank look. My mind drifted back to the moment where I accidentally read Jevan's chat with Vanya.

Jevan fucks. I will never forget their chat. I was disgusted by the way Jevan praised Vanya's –sori-body is not really hot-hot.

I didn't respond to him. My mind is still floating. This time I remembered how Jevan again begged to be forgiven. Goddamn bum.

“Kirana! Focus dong!” I heard Yasmin scream again. “Javier is great! Waw! He's undressing! Kyaaa.. can faint me!”

Not only Yasmin who was like a worm overheated when she saw Javier open the shirt because he was sweating a lot. Other girls do not lose frenzy and like trance. If only I hadn't been heartbroken, maybe I would have been hysterical too. No one has beaten Javier for a checkered stomach.

“Na, even Javier is topless so you are still flat? Jesus, Jevan is a bitch, 100% motherfucker!” now Yasmin nagged herself and mentioned Jevan with words of expletive.

“Lo can be quiet anyway? They already want to play again,” I said while telling Yasmin to sit quietly.

I have not been able to remove the shadow of his face dancing in my head. Let me swear it in my heart. Yasmin should have just taken me to watch a boxing match. It feels like watching people fighting in the ring will make my mood better.

The audience was back in a row after the game resumed. I heard Javier's name being hailed. Javier knows how to pamper his fans. He waved back at the audience which made the atmosphere even more crowded.

“JAVIER I LOVE YOUUU!!” Yasmin was already shouting like a madman.

Jevan, I love you. I shook my head hard. Why did those words cross? Jevan, I hate you! That's the right one! Oh, my God, my brain must have gone wrong. How could I still think of the words ‘I love you’ for Jevan after being cheated twice?

Kirana, I’m sorry, I love you. Now Jevan's words when caught cheating came to my head. Kirana, I promise, I won't repeat it again.. Ah, stop! Why is it getting so tangled up again? It sucks!

Kirana, sorry I yes.. Kirana, I'm not serious about her.. Kirana, I'm serious about just you... Please, don't break up.... You want to forgive me right? Kirana…

BUGS!!!

I felt something hard hit my head. But I didn't budge a bit. I keep looking forward with a blank look. The words of Jevan that were dancing in my head seemed to be crushed scattered by the blow. Whatever it is that hit me in the head, thank you.

“Kirana! Is it okay?!” I heard Yasmin's panicked voice. His hand was wagging in front of my face and made me finally flinch. “Are you okay? Your head hit the ball! Jeez, it hurts?”

Frantically Yasmin checked my forehead and head. Meanwhile, the people around started to notice me with anxious, curious and curious gazes. Why do people who have been hit by a basketball look flat? Guys, only a heartbroken person can do that.

“I’m okay,” I said slowly because Yasmin had ruffled my head. It was just a small blow compared to a big blow that struck my heart to pieces.

Soon someone approached me with an anxious expression. Ah, this is the guy who accidentally threw a basketball at me.

It turns out in Javier. The girls around me held their breaths as Javier crouched down in front of me.

“Lo is okay?” ask Javier. “Sorry, I didn't accidentally.”

“Thank you,” I said.

“Hah?” Javier doesn't seem to understand. Yasmin pinched my arm as if to resuscitate me, ‘hei, in front of this lo Javier, do not bego, please!’

“Thank you,” my ul.

After saying thank you for the second time, I stood up and walked away from it. Yasmin who still did not understand my attitude ended up following me with a puzzled face.

I smiled thinly. I will always remember this moment. It only takes a basketball to blur Jevan's shadow. I'm laughing a little. It's funny to be heartbroken this time.

“Kirana! You didn't suddenly go crazy, did you?” ask Yasmin.

I laughed harder. No. gabe. I'm not crazy. I just feel happy. I can finally laugh at this heartbreak.