I'm becoming the Princess?
Chapter 36
The Arendelle Empire is entering winter. It had been a while since Zeria learned the fact that the girl who died in her dream was herself. Maybe it was unbelievable, but inevitably he had to believe it. Because so far there have been many unexpected things that happened, even in such a short time alone there have been very many things that happened.
#Zeria Room
Zeria lay on her bed with a supine position and an irritated expression, “Akkhh! It's been a week, but I still haven't found any leads.” Suspicious, Zeria to roll from the right side of the mattress to the left side of the mattress, even he also stomped his feet to the mattress.
Azra who saw Zeria's strange behavior felt very confused, and finally asked Arin. “Dia why?” Ask Azra.
Arin has also since noticed Zeria's behavior, and actually he also feels that Zeria's attitude like that even looks suspicious “Entahlah. It seems he is not able to solve a riddle” he said.
Azra did not know what the puzzle was that Arin meant, but if the genius Zeria alone could not solve it, let alone he who was only a child of the Count who did not even have a special skill.
Actually Azra himself felt it inappropriate if he joined the 4th. Zeria, the Princess genius who can already master various types of magic techniques and excel in history. Eric, so skilled in swordsmanship that he can match Lucas without using magic. Lucas, the next prince and future emperor, was very powerful. And Arin, Azra is very ashamed when compared to Arin. Because Azra knows, Arin is just an ordinary village girl who is not even a noble, but she can master many lessons very quickly and also Arin is very close to Zeria and Eric.
“Do I deserve to be here with all of them?” Azra muttered in a soft voice. However, his extremely slow voice could even still be heard by Zeria and Arin. Because their hearing is superior.
Zeria who had been whining since then, finally fell silent because she heard Azra's murmur just now. Even he did not think with Azra, how can he think so, “Azra, what does it mean to say that you do not deserve here?” Zeria suddenly got up from her bed and approached Azra.
“Eh? What does he mean-“
“I should have asked, Azra. What do you mean say that?” Zeria did not even let Azra speak until it was over and cut her off
Azra guessed that Zeria heard the thing she muttered “You, heard it?”
“I heard, don't switch the conversation. Answer me, I must hear a reasonable answer from you” Zeria looked at him without even taking her eyes off though.
While Arin only pay attention, because if he intervenes there is even a more gloomy atmosphere. “I...I'm just the Son of the Count who almost went bankrupt, I'm not a genius like you guys. I also can't really master magic because in my residence we didn't have money to pay teacher.” The answer is, he really feels that he is a trash in a pile of diamonds.
“Only that?” Ask Zeria.
“What?..” Azra.
“I Ask. Just because of that you feel unworthy to be among us?!” Zeria pulls Azra's collar as hard as she can to the height of Azra.
Although Zeria knew that his treatment was considered impolite among the gangsters, but he did not care, he could take care of it later. His anger was already at the very top, there was no reason Azra could think that he did not deserve to be among them.
“There is no reason enough to make you talk so Azra. How can you think that you don't deserve to be with us? Arin who is just an ordinary person and not even a noble has never thought so-“
“PRECISELY BECAUSE OF IT!” Azra with full of anger in her heart, finally burst out and shouted. “BECAUSE OF HIM, I FEEL INAPPROPRIATE TO BE HERE!. HE WHO IS JUST AN ORDINARY PERSON FROM THE VILLAGE OUT THERE HAS GREAT KNOWLEDGE, AND IS EVEN VERY CLOSE TO YOU. AS FOR ME, I DIDN'T EVEN RECEIVE ENOUGH EDUCATION AND I WASN'T EVEN WORTHY WHEN COMPARED TO HIM” Azra kept talking loudly, THOUGH, it seemed like the anger he had been suppressing all this time was no longer able to accommodate.
Hearing Azra who spoke while shouting made Zeria a little surprised, her hand that had been clutching the collar of Azra's clothes firmly arrived felt weak. The anger he felt earlier suddenly turned into fear, “What is this? My hands suddenly tremble, my body is not powered” Thought Zeria.
Seeing Zeria's reaction, Azra was shocked. He was angry with himself, until he accidentally snapped at Zeria, “What did I just do?” Azra immediately retreated and moved away from Zeria.
“Ah...I'm sorry, sorry, sorry” After realizing his treatment of Zeria, Azra immediately felt very guilty. He could not believe what he had just said to Zeria who was even three years younger than him.
Zeria felt an overwhelming sense of fear when Azra shouted at her. Azra was the first to yell angrily at him after he was reborn. What fear did Zeria feel right now was that only this time there was someone shouting at her with such fury? That's what Arin thought. “Pacify yourself Zeria, if you are not calm, can you will be able to feel the pain you have felt at that time” Arin tried to calm Zeria by talking through his mind, to keep their conversation secret.
Zeria listened to Arin and began to regulate her breathing, as the two of them were distracted by Zeria's condition. Azra, it's just that it's not there. “Azra?” Zeria realizes that Azra is no more.
“Where did he go? Do I need to look for?” Ask Arin.
Since Azra seemed so angry that she could not control herself, perhaps leaving her to herself was a good idea, that's what Zeria said. “Maybe he'll be back after a few hours”.
But apparently, again Zeria wrongly predicted it. “Halo Zeria” Eric entered Zeria's room through an open window, “Loh, how come you two are only?” Eric asked as he looked only at Zeria and Arin.
“That's the problem, since this afternoon he still hasn't come back here” replied Zeria, he's actually not too worried, but he just thought. What did Azra do until he still hasn't returned?
“You fought?” Eric asked in a position still sitting in the bedroom window.
“Not” replied Arin, “The child felt unworthy to be with us, and ..” Arin recounted all the things that happened earlier in detail. Eric listened carefully without missing a single thing.
“Zeria scared you said?” Eric asked again, not believing what he was hearing.
“Yes, as she screamed at me somehow arrived I felt so scared that until my hands trembled and limp” Zeria did not understand what was happening to her, what scared her that way?
“Emm, this is just my guess. But it looks like you have a severe trauma over your parents' treatment in your past life” That's the most reasonable guess for now.
Things that Zeria didn't think of. Although he has been reborn in a warm family and good friends, although it has been seven years since then, but severe trauma will not disappear that easily, “Trauma huh? Why didn't I think of it?” Thought Zeria with a sad smile on her face. “What do you think I did to Azra was wrong?” Ask her.
“Yes, you're wrong” Eric replied with a smile “Whatever you are, you can't say that to him. Because even we don't know how he lived before he came here” Eric was walking closer to Zeria.
“I should have stopped them both? Next time I have to be careful” said Arin felt guilty about the incident earlier.
“Already. Besides, you didn't mean to hurt her, maybe Azra's in her room right now. Tomorrow if he's here, you better apologize, because you don't know what he's feeling. And he will also definitely apologize to you for what he said yesterday” Eric gave Zeria advice while randomly shuffling her hair.
“You're right. I'll ask you to forgive me tomorrow, by the way you're dirty, Eric. You just finished training, right? You better take a shower soon, it's time for dinner” Zeria closes her nose, as if she's coded that Eric stinks.
“Jeez, how nasty are you. Alright I'll go, see you tomorrow”
“iya”
Throughout the night Zeria kept thinking about how to apologize to Azra. Wouldn't it be strange if he knew to apologize? However, the thing that Zeria had thought about so hard all night was in vain. Even after the sun had risen, until sunset, Azra, did not come at all.