IDAMAN'S BOYFRIEND BROTHER
twenty-two

He looked at me from earlier. I don't know why I became awkward with this situation.I tried to neutralize my heartbeat as I started to look into his eyes. "would you just look at me like that?", I asked him.

"what's wrong with your feet?" he asked me instead.

"that. .", I bowed

"is it not safe for you here, either?", he asked, which made me look at him.

"what is Junkyu, Haruto and Yoonbin not good at taking care of you?", he said in a cold tone.When Yoonbin's name was called somehow I became reminded of the bad incident earlier.

"they were so good at taking care of me, just a small matter" I replied, looking away.

I got up from there thinking I was so fucked up right now. Yoonbin's face and the moment she kissed me back swirled around inside my brain. in this case I feel naive not daring to be honest with Noa, but on the other hand I do not want to cause an incident that shook my parents a second time. I laid my body on the bed I looked up at the sky of my room. I felt all this nightmare that inappropriately messed up the peace of my life.

"are you asleep?", asked Bang Noa as she opened the door and began to approach me. I did not answer that I was just trying to close my eyes and try to digest all this.

"what was your day so hard?", she asked after she had come to lie down next to me. I spontaneously hugged her in search of the comfort I had longed for.

"forgive me the one who created this mess. I'm not going to leave you really this time let me take a–" he said when my index finger touched his lips.

"Please don't promise", I said

"Let's go this same way. Don't promise anything that isn't certain later" I added.

"Are you going again?", asked who made me feel really stuck in my throat.

"Is there someone you like now? Is he your superhero now? Do I mean nothing anymore?", The question railed me he tried to let go of my embrace but I tried to hold him back.

"Because I'm fed up with all this" I replied.

"What I experienced about the feeling of the burden of life was all mixed into one bow of arrow that could at any moment finish right on my defensive wall", I replied in an unfavourable tone.

"I'm sick of the fact that now I feel like I'm being played with by God" I added with sobs beginning to break without being able to hold it back.

"God doesn't play with you, God loves you with the trials we go through don't we belong to the chosen class?" he replied.

"Chosen in this black world is not maxutnya?", answered me who still does not want to budge or accept the opinion of Bang Noa.

"Listen to me" he said, beginning to cool.

"If you think this black world is god's fault. Then listen to this", he added while holding me. He came down from the bed to the dwarf beside the door. He took the gun and gave it to me.

"Kill me" he added.

"I'm the cause of all this, not God. If you want to blame me for dragging you into this dark world" he said as he guided my hand to his head.

I quickly slammed the rifle and hugged it tightly.

"I am indeed a fool" I said after feeling very stupid to have such narrow thoughts. Even I had to be thankful to survive a few times when death could have taken me.

"Take it easy, go to sleep and don't think anything heavy" she said softly as I felt the affectionate caress of her hands in my hair.

****

This morning I had an amazing surprise. Breakfast dishes were neatly arranged at the table, I saw Bang Noa watching tv with a cup of coffee on the table. I walked up to him and took a kiss on his cheek.

"Good morning", I said with a smile.

"Request dong", her reply made me frown confusedly.

"Here" he said, pointing at his lips. And damn it to me with such a thing I remember yesterday's incident where again Yoonbin's face crossed my mind.

Cup . . .

I woke up from my daydream after bang Noa's lips touched mine.

"Bengong aja", he said. My cheeks met I felt myself very hot. I just blinked a few times unable to answer or just scolded him.

"Had eaten there" he said, shuffling my hair.

"Is that really your phone?", I asked cynically.

"I'm working, baby. There's trouble there again", he replied.

"Are you going to take me to school today?", I asked enthusiastically.

"I'm sorry, but today I'm so busy" she replied, leaving me with no appetite and I dropped my spoon. He looked at me and I stood up and rushed from there.

"Are you angry? My company is in the fog right now. Do you want your future husband to go broke?", he asked and I turned my body and hugged him.

"Well, I'm a child but it's unfair that you work and I go to school" I said.

"The future wife of the owner of Crop Company must be smart now that you are in school Yoonbin is waiting in front" he said releasing my embrace.

"Junkyu and Haruto?", I asked.

"They've left first. Yes, we left" he said.

"Alright", I picked up my bag and began to step towards the front door.

"Wait!!", cried Noa.

I turned my head and a sweet kiss landed on my lips.

"Have you been friendly? Let's go", said someone at the door, it was Yoonbin.

My face was already very unsettled when I saw him at the door. "Ah I took a taxi myself yes bang", I suggested to Bang Noa.

"The streets are jammed, besides you will be safe as I am" said Yoonbin, who I can only lyrics for a while before the annoying facial expression made me squeak again.

"Yes, I trust you more with Yoonbin because I can't anterin you'll love" Bang Noa replied.

"Yes, Come on" said Yoonbin immediately pulled me over.

"Hey be careful, don't be rude to my women" cried Bang Noa.

I followed her steps towards a motorcycle, she gave me a helmet but just as my hand was about to grab it she put it on my head instead.

"Old", he said making me just stupefied.

"Even to take from his hand there are not five seconds. You freak", my inner.

We drove the motorbike to split the streets that were crowded with people passing by.

"Handle" said Yoonbin.

"Haaaah? Lu said what?", I shouted not to hear his words.

"Hand of Aho", he shouted

"Eh somplak gw pinter time do not need to scream", reply gw nyolot.

"If you are hearing you don't haaah haaah aja", he cried again.

"Haaah what am I not horrified?", I really want to know this flat-faced man.

"Buddenly", he murmured but I heard it clearly.

Suddenly he drove his motorbike at high speed.

"Eh somplaaak jan kenceng kenceng I still want to live" I shouted.

"Gw also wants. . . .  With you", he replied.

"Haaaah?",