In 30ths.
54.

What's the matter Ra?" Tania asked who was already next to Dera at this time.

" You read this, and look at Al's chat." Said Dera who was crying sobbing.

" You're patient, Ra." Tania sympathized and hugged Dera.

" I'm confused as to what Tan should be. Hiks, hicks, hicks!" Dera was crying in Tania's arms.

" Go meet him, he needs you now. He needs the support of his wife." Tania said she gave advice.

" But Tan, you know what my status is in the eyes of his family. I'm just a stranger in their eyes. What am I supposed to say?" Dera really doesn't know what to do this time. Her brain was like a flea dead at the thought of her status in the eyes of her husband's family.

" Find me first. Trust in Al. You just follow your husband's steps." Tania said strengthening her worried friend.

" Alright Tan, I'll catch up with him soon." Reply to Dera who then left and canceled her stay at Tania's house.

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Dera was in a village that was no stranger to him. The village was a village that had been visited by the grandfather of the dera for a while.

More precisely, Dera grandfather used to have a coffee plantation in Al village.

" It turns out his hometown is the village where Grandpa used to meet Grandma." Mumbled Dera on her journey alone.

Long road trip with rocky roads, finally Dera reached the end of the village with a yellow flag that stuck in the bamboo fence.

Dera could only stop from a distance and observe what was going on. It was seen Al stacking some plastic chairs and holding a broom handle and began cleaning the courtyard of his house.

" Al, you must be sad this time." Mumbled Dera who also shed her tears.

Dera got down slowly and closed the door of her car. The sound of a locked car made Al turn for a moment.

" Dera?" Lirih Al called his wife's name.

" Assalamualaikum." Seriously, Dera.

Dera wore a simple black shirt and walked over to Al. Al smiled faintly seeing the arrival of his wife between happy and also sad.

Happy because the most important person in his life is now present to provide encouragement and support, sad because maybe after this will reveal new problems.

" Wa'alaikum greetings dear." Welcomes Al who shakes his hand warmly.

" Why didn't you tell me you wanted to come?" Ask Al.

" Ay, I just can't think anymore after reading your message. I'm so sad." Dera said sincerely.

" Come in, and honey, please just be normal here. I don't want them to misunderstand and spread slander. I don't want to add to my mother's suffering, her grave is still wet." whispered Al in Dera's ear.

Meanwhile, the neighbors have been gossiping to see the proximity of Al and Dera. All of that was clearly visible from the way they looked at Dera from head to toe.

" Please, hide our real relationship here." Al again.

DEGH!!!

Hide it? Why should we hide it again?

Isn't our official status only need to hide from campus lecturers? Then why did you have to keep everything a secret?

Al, what's going on?

My heart is very worried about Al. Dera piles all her tons in the heart.

I'm sorry, honey, I didn't mean to take you out of my big family life. But there is something you should not know.

I'm not ready, it's painful for you, baby. I don't want to see you hurt.

I know you love me very sincerely.

Let me solve these strange problems without dragging you.

Inner Al who was staring at the heart of Dera who walked in and lost his passion instantly.

" Come, please sit down" Al invited her as if she was a stranger to him.

I wanted Dera to leave at that moment. Apparently his worries were not in line with what he was getting at the moment. However, Dera does not want to make Al sadder and worse. Dera could only reply with a smile and sat down on the old wooden chair in the living room.

" Who is Al?" Asked a middle-aged woman who came to accompany Al and sat down beside Al.

" Him, one of the friends at Bude's college. He came here to represent the others, offering his condolences to the Al family. His name is Dera Bude." Kata Al introduced Dera as his classmate.

What is this Al?

Is it so hard for your mouth to speak if I'm your wife?

Al, am I just your toy?

What does that mean to you Al?

Whahuh?

Dera really broke his heart. Formless crumbs. Her husband did not admit it in front of his close relatives.

" Yes, I'm a representative from the college. I came here to give my condolences and to give you this. It's the result of our support Bude. Please accept." Dera said that he offered a small amount of money that was still tied up from a bank worth 20 jt.

" I'm sorry I didn't have time to put it in an envelope." Said Dera again who this time stared coldly at Al.

Al was well aware of what Dera meant by giving money without the envelope. Al stared at Dera flatly.

The money was going to be given directly to the Al family for all funeral needs and tahlil events.

" Thank you, Dera. We're so happy that Nak Dera has taken the time to visit here in our hut." Bude Yanti said softly.

" I made tea. You guys keep talking." Said Bude Yanti who was about to stand up.

" No need to Bude. My house is far away, I will be late if not immediately home. Sorry doesn't mean anything, but indeed I can't linger." Dera said as subtly as possible to reject Bude Yanti.

" Al, you're the stoic one. Excuse me first. Pamit ya Al, Bude." Said Dera who then greeted the two without waiting for a reply from Al.

That's how you behave to me Al.

I thought with your mother gone you could dare to acknowledge me as your wife.

But it turns out I was wrong.

Your advice is bad Tania.

Dera muttered and started driving her car away from her husband's hometown.

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Dera soon returned home on a long road trip again. Dera accidentally deactivates her phone and rests in the Apartment without interruption.

Dera was still silent and thought about everything that happened.

Back tucked a sense of regret in him where at the beginning he forced Al to marry him.

Dera was crying alone. Dera did not dare to complain to his best friend after reading the stories of his two friends on the chat application.

^^^Tania.^^^

^^^Self healing is silence.^^^

^^^Mayang.^^^

^^^With the action to come.^^^

" They are also confused." Murmured Dera who then took her suitcase and opened it.

"This illness is apparently not recognized.

This illness seems to be unassumed.

This person apparently clapped one hand.

Have I been in one-sided love all this time?

And he, he's just pretending to love me, using my wealth and my body?"

Dera packed and changed clothes without bathing first.even his business office has also been entrusted to the right hand of his trust.

" I have to go." Said Dera who was really burning with emotion.