In Memories
part 116's
"You can't be that Ditya, your wife should know."
"I don't want to make him anxious and keep thinking about my condition all the time."
"But it would be more painful if he knew later but not from you."
"Nobody will know if everything is silent."
"As if Ditya you know the saying that says whatever we keep the carcass smell will be smelled too. And I'm sure your wife will be suspicious of you if at any time your illness recurs." continued Bara.
Aditya closed his eyes for a moment, now he does not know what to do anymore because what his best friend said all has a point. With his hands in his pants pocket, he still stood staring at the beauty of the city in front of him which was so densely populated, with all the vehicles that never died.
"You know I'm the one who's never afraid of anything, but after knowing my illness. There are many things that I fear, especially those related to my wife." Aditya sighed slowly.
"I'm afraid if I go ahead of him, who will calm him down, who will make him a place to lean on later. And the one thing I'd be most afraid of if he knew my pain he'd get away from me."
"I'm sure Ziana isn't that kind of person Ditya, I who isn't even a person so close to her can only judge her. Why do you think that far?" Bara shook his head not understanding what his best friend was thinking.
"You won't understand because you're not married, so immediately banish your noisy girl."
"Why did the discussion turn this way?" Bara also walked to the sofa to sit down and stop the increasingly unclear chatter.
A moment of silence he was thinking to make Aditya want to immediately seek treatment and Ziana inevitably had to immediately know Aditya's disease without having her reveal it.
Ah my head feels like it's going to break, he's sick but I'm dizzy to persuade him to seek treatment plus his ego is too high to still not tell his wife. If this continues it will only aggravate the existing condition.
"I know you're in the lowest phase right now, but please don't make things worse. You should tell Ziana immediately, I'm sure she won't leave you even I'm sure she'll take good care of you."
"If he doesn't leave me, then he has to take care of me, right? I'm a useless man." Aditya laughed heartily, laughing at himself to be a weak man who would depend on his own wife.
"You have to convince yourself that everything will be fine. Because the healing lies in the intention that is in you."
"I'm sure your wife will be very hurt and feel insignificant if she doesn't hear it directly from you, are you ready to be hated by her? in your condition like this." Bara continues to provoke Aditya so that he will change his mind.
Aditya looks silent trying to digest everything Bara said, his current condition is the thing that makes him unable to make a decision, he is still very worried. Unlike usual if not this problem, making decisions for his company in fantastic numbers or when the company is having problems he will be very easy to make decisions appropriately.
"Trust me you are not alone, there are many people around you who are very hopeful of your recovery. Look at it from their point of view also Ditya not only from your point of view. If you keep going like this there'll be a lot of people hurt, especially your wife." Bara patted Aditya's dreamy shoulders, resuscitating Aditya from all to his current egotism.
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Meanwhile, in a different corner of the earth looks a handsome man who is now sitting by staring at a photo of himself who is smiling with a woman he loves, they were still wearing white uniforms. In the view and in his swab of photos that he kept on his bedroom nightstand, Evan smiled wryly recalling the memories of his time with Ziana. It was just a photo of the memories he had.
"I'm sorry I can never forget you, somehow this heart is so hard to let go of you, the more I try the more I remember you."
Actually, it has been since High School he likes Ziana just that he was too timid to express his heart, he said, he used to accept Elena because it was forced by Elena who always never gave up on approaching him to make herself trapped with Elena's game and make him accept Elena's love. Evan thinks maybe the feeling will disappear with time if he is with others, but in fact he even more regret with his decision.
True what people say if the first love will be difficult to forget, unlike the love after it will easily find a replacement. Maybe because it is the love that grows for the first time we feel, so it imprints the feeling that is in our hearts and memories. So even now Evan feels, it is too difficult for him to forget his first love.
"I hope you're always happy with the man of your choice, Zi." muttered Evan.
After that he went to the bathroom to clean himself, because today there is a afternoon lecture that requires him to go to campus. Even though he is currently lazy where - where because the weather is so hot.
Evan is an only child and both parents are successful businessmen, so expect if his son can continue their business. So when Evan decided to study abroad again, his parents were so happy to hear the decision Evan took.
Drrrt.drtts.
"Hallo what's up, baby?" Frida's cousin from Evan who has always been an eye for her regarding Ziana. Every development he ever knew from Frida.
"Hallo my handsome Evan brother, what are you doing?" ask Frida across the street.
"So don't you want to go to college, is there any news about him?"
"Ishh Kak Evan every time I call always ends up in it, I can't do that if I miss Evan's sister."
"May but the moment is not right, if to talk about Zian the time will not be enough. You have to go now."
"So don't always know what I think, alright study diligently ok? bye Evan." The call was interrupted, after which Evan put his phone in his pants pocket then he stepped out of the room to attend college this afternoon.