ISTIKHARAH LOVE KUSUMA
CHAPTER 60. GLAZING NIGHT

Spending all day with only Maira, made Shan increasingly hope that the woman who sat next to him will quickly remember their memory.

"Ai. Says the twilight, be not as I am beautiful but temporary. It has a short heart story, which is to love and then just leave" Shan whispered, leaning Maira's back against his chest.

"What should I do for you?" ayu woman glanced with her tail eyes at the man who hugged her body on the recliner.

"Nothing. Just holding on with me, that's all. But if it's too hard, don't push yourself, my affection for you will never be the same as the beautiful twilight only for a moment" Shan said, peeping Maira's head. (My affection for you will never be the same as a beautiful twilight for just a moment)

"Can I, though this heart still be doubtful?" maira still felt guilty.

"At what? Fayyad? tomorrow he's coming, honey. You can be sure of how you feel about her" Shan said in a heavy voice withstanding the tightness that was suddenly present.

"If things don't go your way, how's our relationship going?" princess Kusuma's.

"Ai, I never get tired of waiting, even though dusk has changed a lot, will always be here to wait for you to come home. Although I am not the home you expected, but I am the place that is ready to accompany you every day. Don't worry about me" Shan said.

I don't know what Maira feels, her heart is broken. A moment later and liked what Shan was doing but immediately rejected him.

Maira chose to suppress the turmoil of rejection. He hugged the sturdy body that held him from behind, inching his head into the chest of the dream man's field.

"Let everything go according to what God intended, Ai, sincerely be sweet like this with me at this time?"

Maira nodded. "Hmm, sincere. Hug me tonight yeah, don't go."

Shan took a deep breath. Gluing a hug, one hand circled while the other rubbed the body of the blooming. I don't know tomorrow I'll be able to repeat a moment like this again.

Ezra's father-in-law and father said, if Shan wants to cast Fayyadh's shadow from Maira's memory, then the wife must be confronted with the figure. Dewiq even gave a similar direction, maybe meeting Fayyadh can actually evoke his memory that is scattered.

The conversation between the men led to the strengthening of Shan's decision. If their memories bring Maira's heart to true love, Dilara's son will be ready to let go and unite them.

The decision was heavy even in about by all Kusuma men, including Abah and Uyut when Shan expressed his intention some time ago. But the reason the young man was able to silence the wishes of the elders.

"For what has body but not soul and heart? there will only be injuries for the three of us, especially we are family. If I let go of Maira, at least El Qavi will be easy to break free" Shan said.

Adzan maghrib.

A young couple is still unmoved, reluctant to move on because they know, this is the night of their possibility of being together for the last time.

But Shan did not want all Maira's sweet attitude to make it more difficult to go later. He invited his wife to worship together.

The atmosphere tonight feels emptiness inside. Shan continued to recite his reading until Maira who tried to follow what she could read was crying.

"He's a good man, God, respecting me by not insisting on touching and asking for rights even though he can. Don't throw trouble on him either. It was my fault, who was slow to remember this unpretentious figure. If I were a woman without half a heart, I would have fallen in love and served my husband lovingly."

"Ai. Eat outside yuk ba'da isya. Tomorrow I start teaching campus in the morning, I will try to be home when Fayyadh arrives," Shan said after finishing his studies.

Maira just kept quiet and didn't answer. He still looked at the calm and patient figure before him. It was as if he wanted to keep a handsome face in a new memory.

"Why?" tanya Shan smiled viewed in such a way by Maira.

"A very good idea. Yesterday we just went to stables and tem-bak square. Go to headquarters for a while. When can I remember you if I rarely go to our place of remembrance?" groused Maira.

"Tomorrow mornin' to come to Campus, no, dear? he came back to the stables again. Riding together like yesterday," Shan asked.

Maira nodded enthusiastically. "You want to." He slid into the embrace.

Shan had difficulty supporting the body when the woman who was still wearing a mukena lunged at her body on the prayer mat.

"Still have wudhu loh, beware again isya." Shan didn't dare touch her.

"Living wudhu again, water is plenty and free because the father paid," seloroh the eldest daughter of Guna.

Shan laughed, rubbing Maira's cheek. "Darling, take care of yourself if there's no me."

"Don't tell me that, I'm trying too. Ye know? every night sometimes I wake up just because of the glint of the shadow of a man I don't know his face. He acts just like you. Is that Fayyadh or you?" maira again.

"Either. Ask Allah, dear, pray hajat, istikharah to be given the best choice."

Maira shed tears, seeping up to the cocoa shirt Shan was wearing. "Ikhlas yes, dear. Sometimes God just unites, not unites. If we are together, it could be temporary. All pat," Shan gently stroked Maira's back.

"Here, don't cry anymore. It can still be the same as me until tomorrow" whispered Shan hugging the body on it.

"Why are you so sincere about all this?" maira whispers interrupted sobbing.

"There's no better choice, honey. Sometimes you have to accept that not all hope comes true. All you need is the courage to let go. I'm trying, too, Ahya."

"Don't leave, until everything is clear." Maira's crying was getting stronger.

"But I can't see you're tormented because of me. Ahya, believe me, my heart is heavy even more I love you right," Shan said.

"Does it have to be like this, and all because of me? don't leave until it's all clear," he whined again repeating the same sentence as he hugged Shan tightly.

"Darling, don't make me so hard to make a decision."

Shan let the woman he adored, venting the anxiety of his heart by shedding tears. He was the same, the netra with the retina as dark as night now appears to be filled with clear puddles, just waiting for the dam at the tip of the petal to open the way.

"I don't want to lose you, Ahya," whispered Shan raucously.

"Then don't let go of me" isak Maira. I don't know what prompted the eldest daughter to say that sentence. Her heart kept telling her to ask Shan not to stay away.

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While in another city.

A young man was also the same middle ayu girl staring at the dark sky without stars. Both hearts are restless.

If the man is gamang to meet tomorrow with the woman who made him heartbroken. Another hapless thing belongs to the heart of a Fiora. He tried to suppress, neutralize the confusion and explore the conscience.

The glint of the struggle of the Mother when changing beliefs, often haunting. Will he be as firm as he is when he follows in his footsteps? no gentle male figure accompanied the steep road that blocked.

"All away, I have to face this myself, without a role model like Umma or Fayyadh."

"Can I, not ruin your relationship? also a big family? Fiora, could it be if I share this with you?"

The four creatures of God, are being tested according to their hearts. Will they get away easily or just get destroyed and badly injured.

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