LECTURER
Chapters 24. Do Not

Yoona breathed out hard. He intentionally did so for the young man beside him to ask.

"Is there a problem?"

Yoona's smile was instantly engraved. Jung Jaehyun always managed to eat his bait. Yoona exhaled again, this time quietly. Her lips cut and then dropped her head on the table.

"May I use your last name, Jung?" yoona asked, she took a breath. "I thought I'd be dumped by my family."

Jaehyun frowned, hearing it. "Is it because of the day's problems?" jaehyun asked cautiously, afraid that Yoona might be offended or change the mood.

"Jung..."

Jaehyun is again confused by Yoona. "Hm?"

"Sori, I haven't said it straight yet, have I? Then, I'm sorry." Yoona was silent for a while as well as Jaehyun who was silent, still did not understand Yoona today. "On you and Seola, I shouldn't blame you, it's not your fault that you like and accept Seola, it's not Seola's fault either." Yoona smiled miris. This is a topic that Yoona avoids, she does not want to show her weakness in front of others, every time talking about Seola .. Yoona's heart feels pain like Seungwoo who was betrayed by the woman. The memory of Seungwoo's face with desperation made his breath tight. Because at that time Yoona realized, no matter how close Yoona is to Seungwoo, still Yoona is not everything to Seungwoo because Seungwoo's world is still Seola. During that time Yoona hopes too much, unknowingly Yoona opens her mouth wide and says Seungwoo only cares about her. Yoona never thought that all this time she was always alone, Seungwoo's shadow was just a delusion that he created himself.

Depressing. As the Lecturer said.

"I don't like business but I try to like it. I want to be seen by both my parents, once I want them to say the sentence they used to say to Taeyeon. But, that never happened. That word is so expensive to give to me that it is worthless to them. I thought if I acted like I liked business then I would distract them from Taeyeon, but no, it never worked. But just then, Seungwoo came to me. Say ..." Yoona took a breath, like feeling her lungs releasing all the oxygen in her body. "‘Thank you so much for your hard work.’" Yoona smiled, those memories replayed by her memories.

Since childhood, Yoona has only been close to Seungwoo. And after Seungwoo said that line, Yoona clung more and more to Seungwoo. The only person who appreciates Yoona and appreciates Yoona's desire is not to go into the family business. Just Seungwoo. Even before YoonA knew Jaehyun and became close to the young man, the place where Yoona spilled all of them was Seungwoo. Yoona appreciates Seungwoo's presence in her life and is grateful that he is Seungwoo's younger brother.

Yoona hid her face, facing directly at the table with her hands folded on the table into the pedestal of her head. "I don't know what sin I've committed, until everything I love slowly leaves me," Yoona's voice sounded softly and softly, while Jaehyun was still faithfully listening. "The Seungwoo that I thought I was worth more than Seola, chose a workaholic to forget everything and worst of all he couldn't see forever. Seola, who I've been thinking of as Taeyeon's replacement, is committing treason, Dan ..." Yoona gulped bitterly she continued, "i love the Lecturer who never even saw me and chose that damn woman."

Remember, Yoona slapped him at that moment. It was fitting that Yoona felt Jaehyun betrayed her. Jaehyun never really knew what Yoona's life was like.

"You are valuable, Yoona. Least for me. Seungwoo also definitively thinks you are very valuable," Jaehyun paused, looking at Yoona who was flinching, he gave a lip and continued, "I'm sorry because it wasn't there for you, I should've known you sooner so you wouldn't feel that much pain, I'm sorry."

Yoona remained unmoved. Still did not want to raise his head and remained silent in tears without the slightest sobbing sound. But isn't that kind of cry that so heartbreaking?

Jaehyun rubbed Yoona's hair, trying to give Yoona some understanding, letting Yoona let go of her prank. "That's okay, Yoona."

Slowly Yoona's shoulders began to tremble, her sobs slowly starting to escape her lips, sounding soft and restrained. Making the people in the class stare at Jaehyun and Yoona full of question marks, curious.

Yoona pulled her stuff. "I-I promoted, I already learned my lesson. Right now ... I want to be not okay ... I'm so tired because it's always gonna stay the same," Yoona's hoarse voice rang out and raucously slashed Jaehyun back. 

Yoona turned her head to face Jaehyun, revealing her wet and messy face. "I want to give up" Yoona said as she looked at Jaehyun.

"Yoona—"

"No, Jaehyun's. I am so over all this bad luck."

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