LET ME FEEL THE HYPERNOVA
Red light: stop

"I should have knocked on the door first, right? Pardon me. Then I'll let her out..."

Jojo left, in every step did not forget he berated himself, tapping his head as if he did not accept if true Danur is a figure that as he thinks now.

"Joo, stop!" Calling Danur, he seemed sorry to let Jojo see such a scene earlier.

"Can we talk?"

Jojo clutched his sling bag strap, his body shook violently but still could not refuse Danur's invitation. They sat on a long iron bench, in the courtyard of the house.

"You must be surprised" Danur said. He was nervous, confused about how to explain that he was gay.

Stared deeply into Jojo's face, he wanted to hear one or two words come out of his mouth but Jojo remained silent with a hand that could not even stand still, and a quick breath.

"You don't want to ask me anything? I'll open a question and answer session like a national seminar so you don't get curious."

Jojo was silent, his face kept bowing. "Joo, I don't want you to die curious." Seloroh Danur to get Jojo to respond.

Again, there was no clear answer from Jojo, but the sound of his mouth saying "me" without a sound.

"You need a drink? I'll get you a minute..."

Not yet Danur stood up to get a drink, Jojo held back by holding his hand. Jojo shook his head with a stifled smile.

"I-I'm fine. It's just that suddenly my voice couldn't get out" he said.

Danur sat down again, looking inside again at the round eyes that had been smeared. Jojo certainly can't think of anything right now, shocked to learn that the people closest to him are hiding this from him. All the guilt of the people in the world seems to be shifting to him now.

"So I could imagine the no-no, I also could not accept if what I thought was right. Sorry to ask this, you guys have a relationship?"

"Ah, that, I'll tell you from the beginning..."

"Everyone's path is different, now I understand that," said Jojo without wanting to hear first, he could not hear the story. Danur was silent.

The atmosphere was silent for a few seconds.

"We're friends, so don't think I'm gonna stay away from you just because of this, I appreciate your choice, I'm so sorry I wasn't so polite."

The hug was a form of disappointment Ranu who had just decided. It doesn't become useless if explained, but 'friends', that word doesn't give him strength. The words sounded like an order to be silent and look like a red light which means the same thing, stop.

"Ah whatever! At least you should be mad because I wasn't honest in the first place."

Danur was silent, increasingly feeling guilty.

It is enough for Jojo to have the courage to open his heart despite his intentions. His head bowed again, contemplating that it seemed like God had not allowed him to feel the feelings that many lovers had, and it felt like Danur was only destined to be a friend. Although still surprised, Jojo tried to strengthen himself and also Danur.

"You must have been in trouble all this time..."

"You're busy with a lot of things, you also need time to be yourself. I'm sorry if I came so you did a lot for me..."

"I don't like you saying things like this!" Danur.

"Hey, listen up! Maybe I often trouble you, but my presence also brings the atmosphere to life, can make you happy and proud to be close to me. I'm special, I know that, we're a symbiotic mutualism!" Seloroh Jojo's.

Selfish is a word he does not want to know. That's why Jojo has to accept the truth.

"It would be better if you weren't like that, but your life is what you decide to live like..." Jojo still holds Danur's palm, even now his face is close, making Danur's heart beat.

"Danur, I'm always grateful you're with me. Be honest from now on, when you're sad, when you're tired, or when you like someone, tell me everything. Understood?"

Honestly Jojo said? After what happened where can Danur say honesty? For example, about his heart that has now fallen in love with the woman before him. Will not be able to say those words after seeing Jojo's shocked facial water like that. In my heart, Danur cursed herself.

"Whatever, just say what you want to say, as long as you don't lose your appetite, go, avoid, let alone isolate yourself into space." Babe Danur, so they both laughed.

"I'm that kind of person?"

"M..." Danur nodded." Then gently stroked Jojo's head.

"So, how many questions have you got in your head, should I answer?"

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Jojo took a deep breath, maybe at that time he was too rushed, so quickly disappointed as well. But nothing is regretted, NO ONE. 27 years, become a journey to mature yourself by feeling all the flavors in the world. There is no point in rejecting destiny, cursing God for what? Everything is over, everything has its purpose, everything has its silver lining. Now Jojo enjoys what is going on, including Geri's affair, because then it will be easier to keep the jerk out of circulation.

While still alive the sign he is still needed, still have to write a story on his own path. Life is the beginning, and death is the end anyone knows. It's okay to be alone, it's okay to wait for a long time, Jojo has already died once when Akas left him, then now is a life that can not be wasted at all.

Now, no matter what people say about single adult women, Jojo doesn't care. First of all he only had to heal the pain that was hidden from many before his condition got worse.

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