Lily's Promise
Mental Illness

Andika thought about Abi's words yesterday. He was a little dizzy, wanted to rest but the patient was crowded. Andika tried to focus and remain professional.

"Hey baby, what's up? Is your job done? make Dinner?" Suddenly Ivana walks into Andika's study.

"Hmm, Van! If for example we change so tomorrow only Dinner, how? You suddenly have important business, papa right? " Task Andika carefully.

"Well, is that it? " it looks like Ivana's countenance is disappointed, but she immediately changes her expression to normal.

"Yes, if your business is important! what's the business? " Tanya Ivana wants to know.

"There's my family business, it's an impromptu thing!" reason Andika.

"Yes, if so I go home first! "

"Eh, you didn't bring a car, did you? I'll drive you home, will I? " Tawar Andika's.

"No, I'll have a taxi, you'll be late again, bye baby! i first! The cup! " Pamit Ivana did not forget to give a kiss on Andika's cheek. Andika just smiled thinly.

"Be careful van! " andika's message that Ivana replied with a smile.

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Andika drove her car to Lily's residence. Abi's right, he's got to finish everything with Lily. He's been letting things drag on for too long. Andika has to make sure of everything. He didn't want any regrets afterwards.

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"Loh! Brother Dika? the tumben? Just got home? " Task Lily. He was surprised when he saw Andika that afternoon was already in front of the door of the third floor of his house, still using a shirt and pants material.

"Yes, from the hospital straight here! You busy? I'm not bothering you, am I?" Ask Andika.

"What's wrong, brother? "

"I want to talk to you, it's important! can it? "

Lily was silent for a moment. Some conjecture about what Andika was going to talk about was spinning in her brain. Then he nodded.

"We go upstairs, brother! " Lily leads the walk in front up the stairs towards the rooftoop.

A gentle breeze and a golden sky greeted them when they arrived at the rooftop.

Some colorful bougenville in large pots neatly arranged, as well as sunflowers, and some orange patches.

Lily sat on the white long chair that was there, Andika followed sitting next to Lily. For a moment there was awkwardness and a quiet atmosphere because no one had started talking. They both stared straight ahead with their respective minds.

Andika looked at Lily, the girl was breathing deeply with her eyes closed and exhaling slowly. The breeze played her hair child which made her a little messy. Andika immediately threw her gaze in the other direction when she saw her Lily started to open her eyes. Stopping her activity her sense of sight to enjoy the face of the girl beside her.

"What do you want to say? " Lily opened her voice first. Andika was silent for a moment. Calm down and her feelings suddenly feel tight. Andika took a breath first before starting to make a sound.

"Say, are you sick? How not ngabarin? " Tanya Andika is stalling.

"Just a normal fever, no need to use the news of everything, after all it was healed immediately too! " Andika nodded at Lily's reply.

"Li.. "

Lily turned her head to look at Andika, waiting for the words hanging from the man.

"What do you think our relationship is like? " Lily gasped slightly, not imagining if the question was coming out of Andika's lips. He looked at Andika in disbelief. Then smile miris.

"Why is it now, brother? a lot of time has passed, and her sister after all will end up in vain! "

"You mean? "

"No one knows the answer!" Dika sighed.

"I'll be engaged in a few days, Ly! "

"Yes!"

"You know this is from Abi, right? "

Lily nodded.

"What about you, Ly? "

"Where am I? you mean sister Dika? "

"Can you accept this Ly? Are you gonna be all right? "

"Do I have a reason not to accept Dika's decision? Who am I, brother? My life has not been good, but so much has passed, I think I'm fine. After all who undergo this later brother Dika, not me, so the question for sister Dika. Not for me. "

"Aren't you angry? not jealous? "

"I have no right to that, brother! "

"Say, I'm bad Ly! I'm dickhead! i'm selfish! I was in a relationship with people when my relationship and you had no clarity! "

"Because Abi doesn't know anything about us brother! "

"Ly.. Do you love me? " Tanya Andika seriously. Lily laughed at the question.

"Keep what kept you going all this time Ly? Even from Abi's words, I can catch you never opening your heart. "

"No one asked!" lily replied weakly. Andika looked at Lily seriously.

"I still remember. The day before my sister left for college. Brother love me a myriad of advice. I was so sad that time. Then Brother Dika hugged Lily! " Lily stopped her story.

"I-I like you, don't know since when, you can promise something for brother so that brother can calm you down here? Promise me, you're just for me, your feelings for me, you're just mine, until I get back! That's what Dika said before. And I dare to promise you what Brother Dika asked for. To this day, I have never messed with my promise! " Say Lily slowly. As strong as the energy held by the eyes that began to glaze over.

Andika. He remembered that. But at that time Andika thought it was just a talk, there was no clarity in their relationship. Lily never demanded or discussed it every time they met. Andika worked, her eyes were heating up. Abi's right! He's a real jerk! Letting Lily alone keep her promise without certainty! He who asks then just ignores. Andika's chest hurts! He feels so bad. Dika pulled the silent Lily holding her feelings into her embrace.

"Why Ly? Why don't I ask for certainty from me, why survive when I can't give certainty either!" Andika's whispers.

"I think. that promise is the beginning.I don't know what I felt at that time like, promise is a commitment that binds without the need to involve feelings.there is no need for a relationship. because I myself do not know what feelings can unite two different people. There used to be papa mama who love each other.. have a marriage relationship, but not enough to be their hold... it turns out that I realize now that the promise happened between two related parties... While.., other times Dika's brother once said we have no relationship. The relationship between us has never existed. I'm just tied to Dika's promise... There's nothing else... And I kept that promise until Dika's brother came back here. I kept all the promises.. Maybe now... Inhere... In this place I promise I'll end up... It's not that I can't keep a promise or break a promise... But. because destiny determines... Soon Brother Dika will get married, and it's not with me... But I do'ain brother Dika happy... Doain the same for me, brother..." Said Lily slowly, while holding tightness in her chest. Andika stretched her embrace. In her sparf Lily's face with both hands to look at her.

"Again I asked Ly, do you love me? or have you ever loved me for a while? " Lily breathed.

"I don't know, really don't know! " answered Lily in despair.

"What do you feel about me, Ly?"

"I'm happy, there's Brother Dika. "

"Certainly? "

"Maybe because all this time brother Dika where I share tells a lot of things. "

"others? "

"I don't know anymore, brother.. " Answer Lily.

"Li.. Admit your feelings, I will choose you! I want to hear your feelings once! I'll leave it all to you! "

"Sister, you realize that brother's talking about?" Lily felt desperate to see Dika like this.

"Please answer Ly! " press Andika.

"Lily really doesn't know! "

"Aargh!!!! " Andika yelled releasing her hand from Lily's face. Rise up from her seat walking away from Lily. He rubbed his own face rough. Lily was surprised to see Andika who was like this. Lily didn't even dare to look at Andika.

"Please answer Ly, there's no way you've survived so far if you don't love me! 9 Years Ly!!!! Again I ask, have you never loved me, even for a second? " Task Andika back while gripping Lily's shoulder.

Lily shook her head in fear. He really only saw this time Andika who was like this. this was open to Andika who he had known all along.

"Answer Lily!!! " Shouted Andika, her eyes reddened and her body trembled. Lily tried to hold herself back to stay upright.

"You brother forced me everywhere, I don't know what I feel like! I just know sometimes I can be happy sad, angry, disappointed, if you ask love I really don't understand I don't know!" Lily replied Frustrated.

"If sister Dika wants to go I don't papa, I've prepared myself if the account loses sister! But, please don't make me say love, I don't know, I really don't know!" sobs Lily.

"I told you I'm not leaving!! kamun understand??? " Sheep Andika.

"But please, Ly, confess your feelings this time!! Ooh, or I have to do something so you want to know what you feel like so you can say! " Seekai Andika. Her index finger went down Lily's pale face.

andika's actions made Lily take a few steps back, she was really at the peak of fear seeing Andika at this time.

"Why retreat, baby? " ask Andika full of emphasis. The wrist of Lily. Lily grimaced with pain.

"Sister, it's starting at night, brother Dika go home! " Lily desperately tried to calm down.

"You're upset with me? " Task Andika. Draw Lily's hand until the body is pushed forward.

"I'm not going home before I figure out how you feel! " Andika held back Lily's nape, and pushed Lily into a corner of the rooftop barrier. Andika's roaring breath felt Lily's face.

"sorry Lily, maybe this is the only way you can understand! " Andika is getting closer. His face drew closer to Lily's. Lily tried to hold Andika's body too tightly.

"Sister, realize brother, please don't get rich gini! " crying Lily.

"Why? " Andika touched Lily's lips with her finger. She lowered her lips to Lily's lips.

"Sir Dika, No!!!! " cry Lily. He turned his face away and hit Andika's chest tight.

"Andika!!!! stop!!!!" I heard someone screaming. Lily immediately detached herself and moved away from Andika who was like an evil person when Andika turned her head to see who had shouted to her. Nathan was already standing there with a tense expression.

"Don't interfere! this is my business with Lily!!I want elo to leave! " Hardik Andika's.

"Elo crazy yaaa!!! want elo apan Lily? I want Dika's fiancee! soon to get married! why'd you bother Lily! " Shouted Nathan.

"It's not elo's business! please elo go and don't interfere!!!" Get rid Andika.

"Sory, but I can't help but interfere! I have to give you a little therapy! because it looks like you're sick, brother! elo is mentally ill!!!" Nathan gave a ton of a punch in Andika's face. Makes Andika stagger.

Nathan immediately approached Lily, embracing the sobbing girl in the corner of the rooftop barrier and bringing her inside.

"Elo's leaving instead right now, or I'll have the kids including Adek elo drag you out of here! " Threaten Nathan before he disappears at the door of the stairs.

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