Look at Me, Elle
Chapter 20 Is Not the Wrong
Brielle retreated, keeping her distance from Leonardo and instantly shaking her head. "No, it's certainly not the only one. But that's one of my reasons. But I swear, that's not the most compelling reason. Pure ... The main reason comes from my feelings," Brielle said later.
Holding back a burly hand that wanted to reach her face, Brielle looked into Leonardo's eyes deeply. "I hope, really hope, you accept my decision, Nard. Leave your feelings to me, I also stop struggling to cultivate feelings of love for you. Let it all flow like it should."
"You've been forced to have a love affair with me?!"
Brielle replied, "no! I'm just trying to appreciate your feelings and I'm trying to repay your love. I'm sorry that it was a big mistake, but I didn't mean to hurt your heart. I'm just trying to do my best."
"Although you know the result ended badly?"
"Sorry, I know you're hurt."
Leonardo silenced his mouth and shifted the body. He straightened his long legs while looking up, staring at the dark and overcast sky. Letting Brielle who clings to him full of looks feel guilty? Perhaps, because until now he still stared fixedly at Leonardo. "If I can protest, it's better that we never intertwine so far. You'd rather refuse my proposal than I'm faced with a situation like this, Brielle."
"Excuse me," shrieked the woman who was currently bowing her head. "I'm sorry again once again."
"Look, I love you so much. What makes it so hard to return my feelings?" Brielle did not answer, she faithfully bowed. "Which part of me needs to be fixed? You don't like which one of my traits?" sue Leonardo who did not accept if the relationship ended at this stage. Though there have been many dreams arranged in his brain when Brielle received his invitation to go to a more serious level. Everything is in order, even the beautiful plan will be implemented in the near future.
"Not you, it's my feelings that can't be sincere with you. Until now I didn't really love you, Nard. I just appreciate you being nice to me. Sorry, sorry for everything we've been through." Brielle turned her head, and ventured to observe Leonardo's face carefully. "I'm sorry."
"I can't wait to introduce you to my brother, but this has got to be done. You don't know how happy I was when you accepted my invitation to get engaged first?" Leonardo took a breath before expressing his innermost heart. "All I have arranged, there is a wish to marry you in two months, Brielle Handoko. Don't you feel that deep love for you?"
"I know, but I can't lie to my own feelings. I can't really love you, sorry...."
"I'm more convinced that this is all Naomi. He told you to say all this, didn't he?"
"No!"
"Honestly, Brielle! Just tell him he forced you to say something like this! I know, he still likes me, he asked you, right?!"
"No, Nard!" sergeant Brielle is serious. "It's not his fault! This has nothing to do with Naomi, all I decided on the basis of my thoughts and feelings, that's it!" Brielle gets angry when she catches Leonardo's slanted smile. "Don't blame him!"
"I don't like being lied to."
"Then what is your real purpose, if the reason for our break up is not Naomi's coercion?" asked Leonardo who suddenly got off the park chair. She stood with her legs bent, knelt before Brielle and cupped the face of the mother of one child. "Jawab be honest. I want to hear your confession. Original, without you covering up, Elle."
"I have not loved you sincerely." Staring at Brielle with furrowed eyebrows. "Yes, that's all."
The sky began to rumble, Brielle who was still tightly grasped by Leonardo asked the man, "wake up. We're done, sorry for the umpteenth time. Go home, be happy."
"How can I be happy if the source of my happiness is gone from me?" Leonardo kept his face on the thigh wrapped in a canal as good as that. Drown your face there, covering up the tears that have fallen from their place. "Can you take those words out of your mouth? I'm not ready to lose you."
"We can still be friends."
"I want us to be friends of life, not friends of walls or walls, Brielle."
"I can't, sorry." Despite saying it so softly, the sentence was so piercing Leonardo's heart. Brielle landed her two hands on the man's head and rubbed his hair. "If I pretend to love you, you'll suffer more. Know, this is the best. I hope you understand my decisions and feelings, I don't want to be labeled a cruel woman for cheating a man as good as you." Brielle stopped stroking Leonardo's hair and added again, "who would accept insincere love? It is full of pretenses and beautiful outside. I don't want to be like that, I want my feelings to be the same as yours, but they can't."
Leonardo, who had been crying on Brielle's lap, grabbed her waist and accepted her honest words with a heavy heart. The rain that suddenly fell soaked the bodies of both of them was not cared about. Both Brielle and Leonardo let the sky water fall on them, and focused more on their goals after leaving the park.
"Can I see Elnathan?"
"May, whenever you want, I let you meet. We can still communicate."
"Maybe I'll keep my distance from you." Brielle understood, Leonardo certainly needed time to eliminate the love for him. "It's not easy for me to forget all our memories, Brielle. You made my world happy, but you suddenly chose to leave. It's so hard to let you stay away from me."
"You're gonna stop communicating with me?"
"That's for sure." Leonardo got up and pulled Brielle's body to stand up like him. "Be a happy and cheerful woman. Don't forget our memories, I want everything to end happily even if we can't be together." Brielle nodded, pulled Leonardo's body and clenched him tightly. "The spirit of living your life, Brielle."
"You too, Nard .. thank you for everything you've done, especially this very long time. Be a good man."
"If I choose to fight for your love again, is that wrong?" Brielle pulled her body from Leonardo. "Does love need to be fought?" leonardo asked with a smile on his sad face.
"Don't joke, we're done." Brielle looked at Leonardo timidly. "Nothing we say anymore, Nard." Leonardo was still smiling, even wider. "I'm coming home now. See you around"