LOVE CHOOSES ITS MASTER
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the gazes of the two also involuntarily met, some time looking at each other, so Nana decided to give up first and turned her gaze to look in the other direction.

"do you want me how else, baby?but to help you, I will if you ask me to close my eyes." said Arif with his hand still holding nana's hand on his wife's lap.

then Arif immediately closed his eyes and tried to slowly follow the direction of his wife in front of him, so that all the top nana clothes were released perfectly.

"Alright mas..already settled..eiiittts..don't ngintiiip..exit slowly yes mas..."nana said as she turned her husband's body to the door and Arif slowly walked towards the door without opening his eyes.

Until he really got out of the bathroom,

Arif took a deep breath and exhaled slowly, then he walked out of his room, on the front porch of the hotel room door he occupied, there were two chairs and in the middle there was one table.

He occupied the room on the top floor until the hotel courtyard looks beautiful in his view at night.

Some time nana enjoyed her bath, then after finishing.she then wore her husband's shirt that is dark blue with long sleeves that she singsing up to her elbows and the bottom of her up to her knees,so contrasted with her smooth white skin without stains, for nana it was commonplace.but no longer know how her husband would react if he saw her with such clothes.

Short hair with contemporary style makes it more impressed fresh when viewed.

Nana came out of the bathroom, her gaze staring in the direction, she was looking for her husband, but she could not find him in the room.

Then he slowly walked towards the bed and sat there, covered his legs and grabbed the phone that was next to the bed pillow,

seen he plays his fingers on the screen of the phone he was holding, apparently he tried to send a message to her husband, his heart was not careless.he felt guilty for his unilateral arrangement on her husband earlier, he was,she should not have acted like that even though she did not want Arif to see her naked, but Arif is her husband, it is her right if she wants to see him,now nana's mind is increasingly feeling guilty and guilty, whether the feeling arises when and where she does not realize it, which there is now a feeling of being betrayed to herself and in favor of Arif her husband.

"mas...kamu where?why isn't it in the room?"

nana asked the message she just sent,

and arif.with a grin reading the message.

"why?do you feel guilty for your husband?"

arif asked with his fad and nana only fell silent after reading the message from her husband.

"what does it have to do with feeling guilty about not being in the room?mas rambling?"nana asked her reply again to her husband.

"hmmmz..honey...for all my mistakes with you..Where can I sulk because of trivial things that my wife does not like, I am on the porch?or...do you want me to come carry you here?"arif asked teasingly to his wife again.

"mas...my sick hands..not my legs...I can walk kok mas...mas sure ask me to come out now?not nyesel?"

nana said really, because Nana realized the clothes she was wearing were so inappropriate to come out what else if seen by others, but different from Arif...he did not know the meaning of his wife's words.

"why do I have to mess up anyway dear to accompany a beautiful beloved wife.yes it is not.." said Arif just like that and made Nana flick the blanket that covers her legs and get off the bed,slowly she walked towards the door of her room, then she opened the door until it was seen her husband was sitting in a hatch with a drink cola can in his hand.

"God!!!!sayaaang..."his instantaneous words as nana stood right in front of him, do not his heart beat irregularly like to be dislodged so surprised, but also his eyes that bulged almost sticking out that Arif felt.

As Arif moved away from his place, he hurriedly walked a little faster into his room, then as he exited...Arif carried a blanket in his hand and covered it to his thigh to his wife's feet.

"if this is the story.only I can see dear.remember that." said Arif warned his wife, and nana just smiled in response.

"mas...good yes it turns out to be seen from up here.andai mas not sulking..I also will not come here." said nana with a glance staring at her husband.

"who is also craving.I do not sulk.Just get some fresh air.."say the wisdom really.

"yes.yes.yes..well.mas does not sulk..

I believe..okay..okay.." said Nana again but her tone mocked her husband a little.

"worth yes.if you do not believe.."pronounced her husband, and it made nana go silent for a moment.

then.he was silent for a while, the two were silent to each other without a word, Arif once glanced at his wife but his lips were unable to say, awkward...nana opened her voice.

"mas...ngak not want a story why did you refuse me to die?I'm very much waiting for the story itself without me asking for a story...but.mas never any intention for the story is not it?"tanya nana momentarily made Arif's gaze instantly turn sharp and the look on his face kept a dark history that only he and his former lover knew, even though he had told his father and his mother...but his story is really not able to reveal, but he realized.to be able to live side by side with his wife now, he inevitably had to bear the burden both with him, slowly...he will share his dark story.

"are you sure you want to hear my story, baby?"ask Arif first to his wife.

"mas...do not even ask me like that..but ask yourself....is it ready to share the story with me?"nana's back words that make Arif take a deep breath and then exhale it instantly.

"i used to have a lover.where he was always there for me. We have been together since high school, and he was a little bit always complaining of stomach pain, but when he was with me...he felt strong.he said it like that..until.. upon our graduation.he forced to participate in the graduation party, and at that time was the worst condition in his pain,

I just thought it was a pain because it came monthly only, thus forbidding him to go check every time he complained of pain.

After a few days of graduation, he didn't come and didn't call me, I couldn't reach him, I thought,until I came to his house and his house was confiscated because of his family's debts so much...he had a severe cyst on his uterus, and it was very rare.Both his parents said.that he did not want to check...a few days before I went to his house, he had left me and his family for a long time.that was the greatest folly I had done...and do not want to repeat the same incident again.make the person I love must suffer again.I can not stand it.until.kamu will be my sister's wife...I still can't believe you sincerely love my sister.and my sister likes you so much.I really envy when you have someone who accepts her with her circumstances...instead throw away my love and make it wretched because of my judgment." said Arif with glassy eyes beside nana who was still faithful to listen to every sentence Arif said.

"then..do you think it's your fault when your lover is gone?"nana asked her husband.

"Sure it's my fault.when we were together.he just listened to me.Didn't listen to anyone else even though his father and mother said.I said it was a common illness.I said don't worry...until I buy anti-pain medicine for him and every pain he always drinks..is not stupid to have a lover like me?do I deserve to be loved?do I deserve the love of anyone other than that stupid girl?who foolishly obeys whatever I say to take his life?until now I was too cowardly to admit my faults to both parents.I'm really a coward to be loved or even loved...nor do I grandiosely force you to be able to accept me. Because I realize I do not deserve what I want." said Arif as if he was cursing himself.

Arif cupped both palms to his face for a while, he closed his eyes there and permeated every word that was thrown away after all this time buried in his heart.

"mas...kamu already got your karma, right?so. Assume that now you have passed the karma that you went through by falling awake is not that easy...and whether before that how many years mas without a lover.fortify yourself with sharp thorns that only stick on yourself mas if you want to be close to someone,it was a punishment for mas.and now assume all has passed and go mas.look ahead and do not look back, I am sure...and not drowning in the grief that is dissolved."

said nana sincerely, then her fingers grabbed her cupped husband's fingers and then grasped them, very soothing.

"now..look at me.I will not dinggalin mas.and if I'm sick.I will self-diagnosis without the help of mas." said nana trying to comfort her husband,and Wisif only smiled a little in response to the words of his wife who was right, because his wife is now a specialist in internal medicine.

"in any case..about that part..yamu will never escape my supervision dear..want to try?"

asked Arif with a little tease on his wife, nana forgot if her husband is a specialist obstetrician, automate all parts of her femininity will never escape from her husband, and it is true.