love in the wound
Chapter 10

"Yes, Mas" I answered softly. I dare not look at his face for too long. Roland must have been hurt by my decision. How else would you like? I don't have any feelings for him and he will still be disappointed.

"Lo, why did Miss Naima leave? Then who will teach Kia and her friends to teach later." That 6-year-old little girl made me feel unbearable.

I sat down on my knees and held both of her cute cheeks.

"I'm sorry, Ma'am yes Kia. Mama has to go home. One day Kia will definitely find a more proficient njai teacher than Mbak Nai," I said giving understanding.

"But Kia wants to be the same Ma'am Nai." Kia whines and looks sad. Must have been the family of Ida's mother who thought I was a bad woman.

"Think carefully, Nai," said Mas Roland. I'm sure he didn't want me to leave either. But as a woman who is liked by men in one roof of the residence, of course, there is discomfort in it.

I put my smile on both of them and I hugged Kia tightly.

"Sorry." I told them. Whatever the weight of evasion is the best way. "I can't linger here, Mas. I miss my parents so much" I continued with a shredded feeling.

I got up from my position and reached for the bag I had not realized on the floor. I will really go and will not undo my wishes.

"Assynn...!" I said the farewell sentence one last time to them then started to step past Mas Roland and Kia who finally shifted from where it was giving room for me to open the door.

Arriving at the peacock port border. I immediately bought a ticket to ride a very ship. I live in East Oku. The journey will be exhausting to get there.

"Assynn...!" I say hello when I get to the door.

"Wa'alaikumsalam.." they answered compactly. "Nai, you finally came home and I thought you decided to stay at your Boss' house" said the Mother, hugging me. I also greeted Dad and Bang Gino.

"Yes, two days ago Roland came here to propose to you to Father and Mother" Bang Gino said.

I just looked cynically at Bang Gino and explained to Father and Mother that I who have often experienced the failure of this matchmaking want to establish myself first. Thank goodness Mom and Dad understood what I wanted.

"Oya, Ana and Dista. Here Ma'am has a gift for you guys," I said to my two little sisters who were busy watching tivi.

"Hore, we have toys" cried the two together. Ana and Dista are very happy. Today is a red date so I can meet them sooner than expected because it coincides with school holidays.

I feel tired decided to clean myself and lay down my body in the room. I thought I was going to fall asleep soon, but I found it hard to close my eyes.

Some time later Azan Ashar reverberated, I immediately went and took ablution to carry out the obligation. Although I'm not a worship expert but at least I never left that one.

Partama-tama that I do in my prostration after the end of saying my final tahyatul greetings I stretch my hands to the life-giving that I get a soul mate that can bring me to the good of the world wal acherat.

O Allah, there is no power or effort unless it is of your will...