Love of the Journalist
95. Never Half a Heart
...95. Never Half a Heart...
Danang
The intensity of Pradipta's arrival as a lawyer for one of the suspects in a fictitious insurance case is increasingly striking. Even though he tried to avoid it. In a way,
“Please be in direct contact with the Reskrim Case handling that case.” He said when he accidentally met in front of the room Kasat Reskrim.
Since the issuance of the Order of Commencement of Investigation (SPDP), automatic 3 former members of the city DPRD, including EW status changed to suspect. And has been called to undergo questioning as a suspect several times. Where the lawyer was always present accompanied him.
Or, “Ren, if the lawyer nyariin me. Say busy. Case affairs directly to the investigator only.” And Rendra can be relied upon for that.
But Kirei's arrival that afternoon to the office was finally right along with Pradipta who came to accompany the suspect for further examination.
“I accidentally, met Aldi's lawyer outside earlier.” Kirei said for a moment after sitting himself on the sofa.
He who was still staring at the computer screen and ready to turn it off became anxious, because he had promised to keep a distance with any woman except as agreed. Feeling worried? Evidently.
“Mas Danang often meet with him?” Ask Kirei. Lunch on the table.
“Gak. The affair was the same investigator.” His kill. He turned off the computer. “I go to the toilet first,” hurry to the outdoors.
But unfortunately, when out of the toilet was about to return to his room, coinciding with Pradipta who also came out of the room Kasat Reskrim. Oh, ****!
He breezed no matter. Although,
“Abang!” Pradipta.
He sighed.
“Wait, Bang.” Pradipta said then after being able to teach his existence. He had to stop.
“I filed a restraining suspension Mr. Edrik.”
“That sequence please get in touch with the investigator.”
“Bang, I want to talk about this. Can we chat for a minute.”
“Sorry, Dip. I've been waiting for someone in my room.”
***
Kirei
He who deliberately wanted to leave the room because he wanted to go to the toilet also stopped continuing his steps. Stand nailed in the doorway. Accidentally overheard Danang's conversation with a woman.
He quickly returned to his seat as the sound of Danang's footsteps drew closer.
Attempting to put on a normal face. Although his heart was broken. He's speechless. With busy hands serving her husband.
A few days at home. He always took the time to send and accompany lunch to the man's office. Unless you are in the field. Even this afternoon, who accidentally found a lawyer he nicknamed miss exactly here.
He instilled trust in Danang. But, annoyance sometimes enveloped if you see the man close to other women. What else has to do with his past. Is this natural?
What because some days he did not have busy, so his mind was too focused on thinking about the man. He tried to suppress the negative thoughts that attacked him. But the results are not yet maximal. You could say he is still trying not to dissolve and inedible with emotions.
“Mas,” said as he cleaned up their former lunch. “I'd like to meet the kids TVS.”
Danang put the glass on the table, “What time? Later in the afternoon there is no schedule to see Doctor Yoiku?”
Why did he forget? It was Danang who reminded. He bit his lower lip, “Iya, kok forgot.” Mumbled.
“How about tomorrow afternoon just meet your friends. This afternoon we go to the doctor. I signed up this morning,”
“Hah?!” He's flabbergasted. So much for Danang to him.
“Sembrono!” Danang Salak.
“Doctor Yoiku is a lot of patients. A day can be dozens. If not a list far away, definitely get the last queue number.” Tukas Danang's. And it's true. Doctor Yoiku is the best obstetrician in the city. Patients floundering. Many patients come from out of town.
“Don't ngarepin ask Anita for help. Nepotism his name.” Danang Tandas. Then get up from the couch and call someone. Still heard the man said ‘sore’ and ‘ Just prepare’. Then keep the phone on the table while sitting next to it.
“Mas, nowadays that's not so hard. Anything needs connection. Unless you want a plate, it means you have to accept the consequences. Dicedein. Ikhlas. And prepare yourself to eat ati.”
Danang clucked. Disagreeably.
“And it wasn't me,”. Seeing her husband's face disagree with her. “Mbak Kasih who gives way through Mbak Anita.” He defended himself. Not to say nepotism with Anita.
“Ngeyel!” Danang clucked again. “After this same return driver.” Sneakily.
**
Danang
An hour before his return, he confirmed the schedule to Rendra again.
“Sore I don't want to be disturbed, Ren.” He told Rendra as he got out of his chair.
Rendra nodded, "Ready sir!"
This time he brought his own vehicle. Although Rendra offered to deliver it. He wants to be a standby husband. He was absent enough during the first consultation. This time he did not want to leave Kirei alone.
Arriving home, he greeted Kirei with a smile.
“Mas Danang want to shower first?”
“Iya, sultry. Bentar, yes.” The man rubbed his head. Danang is missing behind the door. While he was in the kitchen making drinks. Then bring him into the room, store on the table.
He took the man's clothes from the closet and put them on the bed. Bending, rubbing it slowly.
His heart is not calm. In jubilation. The second time we had a decision. And it was determined in a moment.
Suddenly a cold hand hugged him from behind. It has a whining reflex.
“Ngagetin.” He said when he looked back.
“Against what?”
He turned to face Danang. His sense of smell was instantly ambushed by the white musk scent of bath soap emanating from the man's body. A body that only wears a towel wrapped around the waist. With some water still dripping. Habits. His anger in the heart.
His lips pursed in response to the bad habits of the man after bathing. “I follow wet,” suck. Danang chuckled still wrapped around his waist.
“Can change clothes.”
“Ck,” it clucked. It was easy for her husband to say that she thought.
“Do not worry.”
Silent.
He looked up at Danang, “Kalo for example the result is worse ...” Momentary pause. “Where?” Sluggishly.
“Whatever the result. Doesn't change anything. I've never half-heartedly loved you, Rei.” The man kissed her forehead.
Her chest was swishing. His eyes are heating up. Her tears are still there.
And they hold it deeper. “Believe me, we'll face it all together.”
**
Kirei
Arriving at the hospital they do not need to wait long. His name was called after sitting for about 10 minutes.
Danang always held his hand. Doctor Yoiku greeted them kindly when he and Danang entered the gynecologist's room.
“How are you, Mr Danang with Mom?” Yoiku asked as she looked at them commenting on a smile.
“Good, Doc. We are good.” Danang Sahut. He also smiled. They were sitting in the front seat of the doctor's desk.
“Second control. How are there complaints?”
He shook.
“We ultrasound again yes,” said Dr. Yoiku after reading the patient's card history.
With the help of the nurse he lay on the examination bed. He must have a second pelvic ultrasound test. With transducer tools. Pretty long. Several times the doctor printed the results.
He was taken by the nurse to the toilet. To perform a pregnancy test.
Until the doctor Yoiku explained the results of the examination and observation for the second meeting.
He made a forced smile. Trying to wet his lips.
The results of the USG prove that ovarian cysts undergo a change in size. From the initial examination measuring 4 cm is now 7 cm. Clearly beyond normal size. He had been on hormonal therapy at the first meeting. And the chances of it growing steadily are getting bigger. It means it must be done immediately. To anticipate all risks such as torsion (revolving ovaries) and rupture, namely bleeding due to the rupture of cysts inside. Which could threaten life.
He had trouble swallowing his saliva. Danang calmed him down by rubbing the back of his hand.
Blood tests that have been done at the beginning of the test. Prove that the content of protein levels in the blood called cancer antigen (CA-125) is lower. That is, not including cysts that are dangerous or lead to cancer or endometriosis and pelvic inflammatory disease.
Doctor Yoiku explained what actions should be done. The doctor suggested a laparoscopy.
He fell silent after leaving the room of Doctor Yoiku. Even throughout the journey. His gaze continued to lead to the window glass to his left side.
“Sayang ..” Call Danang when their car has stopped.
“We're here.” Get that man.
He's still flinching.
“Rei ...” Danang took off his seat belt. So does he have himself.
“Hei ...” Her cheeks were rubbed gently by her husband. “See me.” Reciprocity.
She looked at her husband. A clear liquid slid from the corner of his eye.
“We can go through this. You can get through it. And we'll go through together.” Danang.
It's getting sobbing.
“Sorry, Mom. I ... I .. maybe this is a punishment for me.” He remembered his dream of meeting a boy who would not admit that he was the mother of the child. Is this a punishment for him? Never dump the fetus that had grown in his womb. The regret came back.
“Ssshh .. You were horrified, did the doctor say what? After the laparoscopic procedure, you can still get pregnant again. We can get pregnant. Even the chances are greater.”
He hid his head in the man's chest. Chest twitching. If only he had not been rash. Not oba. No ....
“Now we are in.” Danang unravels the embrace.
He bowed. Shrink the corners of his eyes and nose watering with tissue.
And come down first. Then he turned around the car and opened the door for her. He only realized when he stepped foot to the terrace.
“Tonight we stay here,” sergeant Danang before he asks. They stayed in the upper city house.
A middle-aged woman opened the door for them. It cringes.
“That's Mbok Sumi. Who cleans at home here.” Tukas Danang's.
He smiled at the smile.
Mbok Sumi smiled back, allowing the owner of the house to enter.
“You go straight to the top?”
He nodded.
Arriving at the room, he immediately slept curled up. Dunked his face into the pillow. Andang covered him up to the waist. Swiping head. Then leave him alone.
***
Danang
After calming Kirei down. He's out of the room immediately. Towards the kitchen. Instruct Mbok Sumi to cut the fruit. Fill the glass with warm water. Put it on the tray with the pieces of fruit earlier.
He went back to the room. Keep a tray on the nightstand. Kirei was still curled up like the beginning as he left her. Deflect door.
He's conscious. His wife must still be in shock. Must perform laparoscopic procedures. Although at the beginning it has been explained by a doctor. All the possible good and worst effects they have to face.
Recalls a snippet of their conversation as he finds Kirei sitting in the park after the first consul with the doctor.
“Sorry was—” It came late.
“What's wrong,” cut Kirei, “should I apologize ... about ... can't ... give ...” Kirei bowed within. His fingers crumple each other on top of his lap.
“Give Mas Danang a child asap.”
He took his wife's hand.
“Doctor said, there's a cyst on my ovary. The size is 4 centimetres. Must be observed again. What cysts develop or not. Whether violent or not. Or get into endometrioma or not.
“Doctors recommend taking hormonal therapy drugs. To prevent the cyst from growing new and enlarged. And the drug prevents pregnancy.”
“Jadi ...”
He held Kirei in his arms.
“It’s gonna be okay .. we'll skip it all together.”
His intention to wake Kirei vanished. He knew his wife was not sleeping. Instead he crawled up to the bed. He took his wife deeper. Encapsulate him, channeling his best warmth, comfort and protection.
He knew Kirei was in grief. Worry and need himself to lean.
“It’s gonna be okay.” Suggest the sentence he said repeatedly. Since leaving the doctor's office.
“I really want a child from you. But that doesn't mean it has to be now. There's still time. There's still a chance.”
“Didn't the doctor say the chance of getting pregnant after this is great? Even healthier and less risky,”
“I want the child you gave birth to healthy and safe. So is the bundle,”
“So ... tomorrow we go back to the hospital, yes ...” Quite simply by peeping the head of the old Kirei.
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