Love On The Side
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'At that time, I felt, if only I loved her then that would be enough. But I was wrong. Because I only love him, it will not be enough. This household will not be able to survive with love only from the side.'

The clear circle fell slowly across Rere's white cheek which was currently resting behind the room door. Rere immediately closed his eyes while holding a sobbing sob not to be heard by anyone.

Two years ago, he told his parents that he was in love with Rohan. The response of his parents also made Rere's heart happy.

"You really like Rohan, Re?" The mother who was very enthusiastic, immediately confirmed Rere's words with a big smile on her lips.

Rere immediately replied with a slow nod. His face immediately showed a red hue from a bit of embarrassment.

Meanwhile, her papa who was also there carved a smile. "Rohan's a good boy, Re. Papa won't mind if you like him either. But ... So the question now is, does Rohan like you too, Rere?"

With complete confidence, Rere answered his father's words. "Rere's still not sure about it, Pah. But ... Rere believes in one thing, Rere can make Rohan fall in love with Rere."

Either get the confidence from where until Rere can be so sure at that time. But clearly, that belief puts Rere in a very difficult position as he is today.

A year and a half has passed since the day they got married. The day that Rere was so happy without thinking about how Rohan felt being her husband. And, without thinking about how Rohan feels love for her. Because at that time, he was so sure of the power of love that he had. She can make Rohan fall in love with her as time goes on.

It was a very selfish thought. Because of that thought, it had left the Rere household on the verge of collapse.

One and a half years can't make Rohan fall in love with Rere. Although Rohan's treatment is very sweet, like a husband in general, but knowing the truth behind it all makes Rere very sick.

Rohan already had a lover who he loved with all his heart. The gap was full, until there was not the slightest gap for Rere to enter into Rohan's heart anymore.

'I was too confident and turned out to be stupid. Mas Rohan was not mine from the beginning until now. I have his body, but not his heart. The love from this side turned out to be very painful.'

Rere again held back sobs as he remembered what he had just heard when he came to the office a few hours ago. Earlier, he wanted to visit Rohan's office while giving a surprise to the husband. By chance, today is Rohan's birthday.

However, when he wanted to open the door of the room, his hand was held back instantly because of Rohan's words to Amira, the half-brother who was only two months from Rere's age. Amira, Rere's half-sister, has lived with Rere since she was a child.

Mama Rere is so heartened to take care of her own honeymoon child after her honeymoon is gone. Mama Amira died when Amira was just over a year old. Out of pity, Mama Rere accepts her husband's request to take loving care of Amira. Yes even though Rere is a top priority. But he also did not abandon Amira because Amira was innocent.

Meanwhile, Rere did not consider Amira as a half-sister. Rather, a younger sibling or rather as a close friend.

Rere didn't even think about where Amira came from. Because just like the mother, Rere also thinks the same. Amira was not wrong for what her mother did. Because there is no one above this world who wants to live with a bad background.

But ... Today's reality makes him regret all that. Amira is the one whose husband loves. It was clear she heard when her hand wanted to turn the doorknob from her husband's room a few hours ago.

"Happy birthday, Mr. Rohan. I don't have a fancy dress for you. Only this simple watch can I give you. Hope you like it." Amira spoke softly. And Rere heard it very well.

At first, he thought it was normal. But after he heard Rohan's words, Rere's world changed.

"Whatever you give me, it's the most special gift of my age, Ami. For there is no gift more precious than that which you give."

"You are my world, Ami. I love you with all my heart. Not a single change from my feelings. Since long ago, until now. You're all I love."

"Mas! Don't talk like that. It's office. Have you forgotten where we are now?"

"Why really? Why is this an office? Is there something wrong with this, Ami?"

"Mas."

"Amira. Let me talk about anything here while we're alone. Because I won't be able to be the one who loves you when I'm in the middle of people."

"But, Mas .... "

"Amira. I love you so much. I love everything you have of you. Your simplicity, your intelligence, your tenderness, your maturity, and. I like everything."

Really, that was a very hurtful speech for Rere. Because of that remark, Rere was not strong enough to hold out at the door to listen to the talks of two people closest to him who he loved so much before, even further.

He chose to return after ordering to all the employees he met in the office. "Don't tell Rohan that I came here just now. I'll make a surprise at home."

As much as possible, Rere spoke with all the calmness he had previously accumulated with great difficulty. Because at this moment, his heart was really broken.

After arriving home, he closed the door of his room tightly while thinking about what he had heard. The harsh reality she received on her husband's twenty-eighth birthday was very painful.

'You like everything Amira has, Mas? Actually, what does he have, that I don't have, Mas Rohan? Was I so bad as your wife that you couldn't see the slightest advantage I had?'

Rere continued to cry until his body felt tired. Eventually, she fell asleep on the front floor of her own bedroom door.