Loving Without Seeing
Episode 51 No Flavor

"You cheated!? accuse Kirana in a rather high voice.

"Cheating?!Oh my God, I work all day and you accuse me of cheating?!"ask Bayu.

"Work all day?!You love making out, kissing and hugging women, is that what you call day work?!"sergeant Kirana.

"I'm making out?!Hugs?! Kissing with women?! With who?!" tanya Bayu thought hard.

"Here, it's been caught still ngeles, shocks amnesia," said Kirana

"Oh my goodness!!Ki, that woman was my college friend back then.She's been living in America for a long time so if you meet a known person like that,"obviously Bayu who just remembered that this afternoon he was hugged and kissed by Jessica.

"He has a sixth sense or has people spy on me sich?! Since marrying her I've met women twice and she always knows"in Bayu.

"The reason!!You must have just walked the same as your affair, right, the clock just came home?!"accuse Kirana.

"I came home late because of Ki's work," explained Bayu.

"Lied!!You've had fun with that woman, haven't you changed your clothes before you came home?!"accuse Kirana.

"I took a shower and changed clothes at the office because my body was sticky because of Ki's sweat," explained Bayu.

"Lied!!You did it for sure in order to get rid of your love perfume that sticks to your body and clothes, right?! accuse Kirana.

Bayu rubbed his face violently and ruffled his hair in frustration with his wife's accusation.

"I'm not cheating Ki, believe me!!"say Bayu.

"I can't believe it!!"peekik Kirana's.

"Then how can you trust me, Ki?!"asked Bayu who now had his head turned dizzy.

"Ask yourself?! Now get out of my room!!"kirana's orders begin to push Bayu's body to get Bayu out of her room.

"I don't want to!!"sergeant Bayu.

"Get out!!I don't want you in my room!!"peekik Kirana's.

Unable to push her big body, Kirana finally beat Bayu's chest.

Bayu who was tired of Kirana's behavior finally Bayu holding Kirana's hand locked Kirana's hand behind Kirana's back with his left hand while his right hand pulled Kirana's nape closer to his face with a quick movement then the devouring of the lips that from earlier debated it.

Kirana tried to thrash but did not affect anything for Bayu whose body is taller and bigger than Kirana.

After almost running out of breath Bayu let go of the link, "We did get married because we were forced to not even know each other before.But because every day together, I started to feel comfortable when we were together,"

"I don't know if it's love, but I definitely want to live with you forever,"said Bayu stick their forehead while Kirana just silently glued to look at Bayu as if digesting what Bayu just revealed.

Slowly Bayu let go of Kirana's hand and the hand that had locked Kirana's hand now hugged Kirana's waist then Bayu again devoured her lips gently and slowly led Kirana towards the bed without releasing the link their lips.

One by one, the cloth wrapped their bodies were also lying on the floor.Bayu vented his feelings by uniting their bodies, wrestling for pleasure from the body of his wife who made him want again and again until finally getting release.

Bayu carried the body of Kirana who looked exhausted due to her long wildness in bed into his arms.Smuck Kirana face gently and occasionally kissed his wife's forehead.

"I'm now sure, I already love you," Bayu said raising Kirana's chin for the woman to look at him, "I love you, because I feel happy when I'm with you" Bayu repeated his words,"

"Did you love me too?"tanya Bayu looked into Kirana's eyes deeply.

"No," Kirana said, turning her face to hide the happiness that was emanated on her face because of the expression of love from her husband.

"If you don't love me, why are you jealous?!"tanya Bayu smelled a smile.

"Who is jealous?!"kilah Kirana's.

"You were angry with me when I was with another woman, isn't that jealous of her name?!"tanya Bayu looked at Kirana's face which made her arm a pillow.

"I just don't want my pride as a wife to be trampled on by letting you cheat on me,"kilah Kirana still turned her face away from Bayu, not wanting her feelings to be known to Bayu.

"So your anger isn't because you're jealous or love me?!tanya Bayu assured.

"Of course not" said Kirana.

"Is there not the slightest bit of love in your heart for me?!"tanya Bayu was disappointed by Kirana's reply.

"No," replied Kirana who did not want to confess her feelings.

"After all that we've been through and all this time together, does it mean nothing to you?!"tanya Bayu looked at the ceiling of the room.

"It's normal" Kirana said, looking indifferent.

"Then, what about the intimate relationship we've been having?!"

"The intimate relationship between husband and wife is natural why?!"kirana asked as if the husband-wife relationship they had done meant nothing to her.

"So for you the husband-wife relationship that we have been doing all this time is just for satisfaction?!Without taste?!"tanya Bayu felt her chest become tight.

"Just take it that way, we are both mature and natural not if we do it to find satisfaction," Kirana continued to say she did not want to admit that she had also started to love Bayu.

"I did have a husband-wife relationship with you indeed to vent my desires as a man and as a husband.But I did it with you because I love you and you are lawful to me.You are the first woman I love,"

"I've never had sex with any woman other than you.Even I never know what it's like to have a girlfriend.You're the only girl close to me besides my mother and sister,"said Bayu at length still faithfully staring at the ceiling of the room.

"Where do I know your words are true or not.Can you make up the story.Buktinya last day you played hugging, kiss aja with other women,"sahut Kirana ketus, and, his heart was so arrogant when he remembered Bayu being hugged and kissed by another woman earlier this afternoon.

"So you're not jealous or love me a little?!"ask Bayu again.

"No" Kirana said firmly, contrary to the voice of her heart.

I cannot force you to love me.If my presence means nothing to you, do I stay here with you?If indeed you do not want me to be in your life anymore, I will go," Bayu said slowly pulling his arm that Kirana used as a pillow and then rose from his sleep.

Bayu's heart is hurt because of Kirana's words when Kirana says she does not love him in the least.Even consider the intimate relationship they do as husband and wife just for the sake of venting.

While Bayu did so because of the obligation as a husband to support his wife and also because Bayu slowly began to love Kirana.

Deg, Kirana's heart seemed to stop beating when she heard Bayu's words, "What do you mean?!"kirana asked holding the hand of Bayu who was about to get off the bed.

"I have to be self-conscious enough to keep my self-esteem.We just end it all up here, I don't want us to hurt each other anymore," Bayu said trying to let go of Kirana's hand holding her arm,but Kirana tightened her grip.

"You mean, you want us to get divorced?!"asked Kirana with a heart that was pounding violently.

"Yes," replied Bayu briefly.Hati felt sliced when Kirana said she never had any feelings for him.

"Ma..where can it be like that!!"peekik Kirana's.

"Why?!After all, you also do not have any feelings for me," Bayu said coldly, his heart was wounded.

"Ki..we've been having sex a lot, what if I'm pregnant?!"kirana asked trying to maintain their relationship.

"If you are pregnant, I will remain responsible.You do not have to worry about it," Bayu replied then let go of Kirana's hand and went to the bathroom to clean up.

Kirana fell silent, her throat felt choked, her tongue was cuckoo.Because of her prestige she did not want to confess her feelings to Bayu,"She really wanted to divorce me?! How's this?!"inner Kirana is restless.

"The first time I fell in love and the person I loved did not love me.It hurts a lot, he considers the husband-wife relationship we do just for the sake of venting, without feeling,"

"I learned to accept and love her but when I was able to accept and fall in love with her, it turns out my love was just clapping one hand,"in Bayu, flushed her body with the air shower.

Fifteen minutes later Bayu came out of the bathroom using only a towel wrapped around his waist, then took his clothes and entered the bathroom again.Now Bayu out of the bathroom using a t-shirt and shorts.

Bayu walked to the sofa and laid his body there by putting his arm to close his eyes.Senjak down from the bed, Bayu did not turn his head or talk to Kirana, making Kirana restless.

Slowly Kirana got out of bed to the bathroom to clean up, "Have I gone too far with her?! She looked angry at me.Now what should I do?!"shortly afterwards Kirana finished cleaning herself and was already wearing her clothes.

Slowly Kirana ventured to approach Bayu, "Bay, why are you sleeping here?!"kirana asked but was not responded by Bayu,"Bay, Bay... Why are you sleeping here?!"ask Kirana again.

"It's night, sleep!!"said Bayu flat without looking at Kirana, still with a lying position with eyes closed arms.

Deg, Kirana's body seemed to freeze, Bayu's voice was so cold.Never Kirana heard Bayu's voice that cold,"Ti!Your body will ache if you sleep here" said Kirana nervously.

"No need, thank you.I don't want you to be disturbed by my presence.From the first it should be this is where I.Sorry if all this time I was not self-conscious," said Bayu still with the same position.

Kirana turned around and walked to her bed.Without realizing that her tears were dripping down her cheeks, her chest felt tight to hear Bayu's cold voice.

Although it is difficult to close the eyes, Bayu tried to sleep.Usually lately who sleep by hugging Kirana and inhaling the aroma of shampoo in Kirana's head makes it difficult to close the eyes.

Similar to Bayu, Kirana who was used to sleeping in Bayu's arms was difficult to close her eyes.

In the morning at the dinner table.

"Ki, what's wrong with you?!How pale and lethargic is that?!"ask Susi.

"It's okay, Bun.Only last night it's difficult to sleep because Kirana's body feels sick and sore," replied Kirana lying.

But Susi gave a smile when she accidentally saw a kissmark on her daughter's neck, "Ohh, achy because of Bayu?!"inner Susi.

"Try to go to the spa so that your body does not ache" Susi said.

𝙎𝙥𝙖 𝙢𝙚𝙧𝙪𝙥𝙖𝙠𝙖𝙣 𝙨𝙖𝙡𝙖𝙝 𝙨𝙖𝙩𝙪 𝙗𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙪𝙠 𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙖𝙬𝙖𝙩𝙖𝙣 𝙩𝙪𝙗𝙪𝙝 𝙮𝙖𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙙𝙞𝙧𝙞 𝙙𝙖𝙧𝙞 𝙗𝙚𝙧𝙗𝙖𝙜𝙖𝙞 𝙟𝙚𝙣𝙞𝙨 𝙙𝙖𝙣 𝙩𝙖𝙝𝙖𝙥 𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙖𝙬𝙖𝙩𝙖𝙣. 𝙏𝙖𝙠 𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙮𝙖 𝙪𝙣𝙩𝙪𝙠 𝙠𝙚𝙘𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙞𝙠𝙖𝙣, 𝙨𝙥𝙖 𝙟𝙪𝙜𝙖 𝙙𝙖𝙥𝙖𝙩 𝙢𝙚𝙢𝙗𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙪 𝙧𝙚𝙡𝙖𝙠𝙨𝙖𝙨𝙞 𝙩𝙪𝙗𝙪𝙝 𝙨𝙚𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙜𝙖 𝙠𝙚𝙗𝙪𝙜𝙖𝙧𝙖𝙣 𝙩𝙪𝙗𝙪𝙝 𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙠𝙖𝙩. 𝙏𝙪𝙟𝙪𝙖𝙣𝙣𝙮𝙖 𝙪𝙣𝙩𝙪𝙠 𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙮𝙚𝙜𝙖𝙧𝙠𝙖𝙣 𝙠𝙚𝙢𝙗𝙖𝙡𝙞 𝙥𝙞𝙠𝙞𝙧𝙖𝙣, 𝙩𝙪𝙗𝙪𝙝 𝙙𝙖𝙣 𝙟𝙞𝙬𝙖.

"Yes Bun, if I have time to go to the spa" replied Kirana.

"Oh yeah Bay, your parents haven't come home yet?!"ask Rinto.

"Not yet, said papa maybe another month and a half just returned home all holidays said papa," replied Bayu calmly.

"Oh so, huh?!Bay, you actually work at the bureau of bodyguard services what part?!"ask Rinto.

"The office part, but sometimes also meet clients outside the office," replied Bayu, behaving as usual.

"What is the name of the company you work for?!"ask Rinto.

"Sanjaya Guard, yes," replied Bayu.

"Hemm, great also you can work there.Yes already, dad left first.Come on Ki!!"bring Rinto to Kirana.

"Yes yah.Bun, Kirana departs.Mas, I go first,"pamit Kirana.

'Yes," replied Bayu with a faint forced smile.

Her night.

"Where are you going?!"kirana asked when she saw Bayu packing her clothes into the suitcase.

"From tomorrow I won't be staying here anymore.I'll tell my father and mother if I have a duty out of town for a month.After that I will take care of our divorce papers,"bayu said without looking at Kirana.

🌟 Expecting and loving people who don't love you is a high level art of self-harm.

*Fighting for people you don't want to fight for is a waste.

*Be a self-conscious person to keep having self-esteem.🌟

..."The author"...

To be continued