Married to a Widower (Winter X Jeno Ft Jisung)
20. There's someone else in Appa's heart

The two eyes met, staring at each other in silence. However, the more mature man immediately cut off his gaze, and turned his gaze to another object. As if behind the eyes of the teenager implied an invisible wound, for the adult man. Wounds that will never heal, and will continue to scar forever.

Every time he saw those eyes, he would be reminded of someone in his past. The eyes are very similar to a woman who had given birth to Jisung, but the woman chose to leave and got her stuck in accountability. Give up her future, and let the woman be free from her role as a mother, for Jisung.

However, when asked if Jeno ever played himself as a father for Jisung? Answer's no. More precisely not, because since Jisung was born to grow up like now, Irene was caring for and raising the child. Jeno did take part in caring for Jisung, but not really sincere, and wanted it, just because of compulsion. Irene is forced, because she does not want Jisung to grow up not knowing Jeno, as a father.

The atmosphere is now very awkward. There are many things that Jisung wants to say to Jeno, but his tongue seems to be funny just to take out one word. He just kept silent rigidly, Jeno raised her dislike gaze over Jisung's presence here.

"Why?!" until the adult's voice was heard. Make the daydream Jisung become scum and return to its main purpose to get the key to the room.

"I want to ask for the room key, mother," Jisung said in a polite tone. His eyes are still glazed, his count also blushed, because of the effect of crying earlier. At the current state, Jisung hates himself a lot. He who turned tough but honestly so fragile. Only tears could be shed without anyone. He just does not want to be considered a crybaby, and increasingly become a burden in this family.

It was Jeno who did not answer Jisung's question. However, the man stood up from his seat and walked to a drawer beside the mattress. His hand opened the drawer and took the key, which was Irene's room key. Indeed, Suho told Jeno to open the door, but Jeno forgetfulness because suddenly Jisung came with foreign guests. He didn't like it if anyone came to this house, other than his family members and someone he knew a long time ago.

Getting the opportunity to enter the father's room, Jisung did not waste this opportunity, glimpsed the room he had just seen and the first time he entered. Not a suitable room for Jeno now, because this room is so synonymous with a cheerful teenager. From this, Jisung can conclude that Jeno used to be a cheerful person not now a cold-hearted one. Although this room is dominated by black and gray, but this room is still memorable as for cheerful teenagers.

That thing, added guilt in Jisung's heart. He really took everything from Jeno. Including taking her happiness and turning her into another character. If Jisung can change the time, he does not want this to happen. He does not want to destroy the lives of his parents, a burden that is always in the face of guilt.

"Here," Jeno handed the key over to the bed. Instead of handing Jisung over, Jeno placed the key on the bed. Then after that, Jisung immediately turned around and sat in the chair where he was.

There was guilt in his heart when he saw those always sparkling eyes turn red, from crying. However, Jeno would choose to remain silent, ignoring. That is the desire of his heart, he is willing to be known as a father, but not one hundred percent must act as a father like most parents out there. Enough status, that's the deal Jeno once gave to Irene. The agreement came a day after the death of Jisung's mother.

In addition, there is a photo where Jeno is playing with the baby, looks cheerful and so happy. Seeing that, Jisung can only smile faintly, imagining if he was never created, maybe Jeno and the baby are happy now. However, they never heard from the baby again, as if they had broken up.

Both Irene and Suho were never again in contact with Chanyeol and Wendy. Suho and Irene chose to shut up and disappeared without any news. Until now they never knew where the Chanyeol family was.  They moved to China in a few years, until finally Suho and Irene returned to Korea, but when intending to visit Chanyeol's house, the man turned out to have moved, taking his family away from the Suho family.

"She's So Lucky Because It's In Appa's Heart. Unlike Me, Which Will Only Be a Burden to You, Appa," Jisung's inner gaze fixedly on the photo.

His father was so happy to play with the baby girl, but when he recalled their moment when Jisung was little, Jeno never wanted to take the time to play with him. He was busy with school, until he came home after nightfall. However, even though Jisung had given up his sleep to wait for Jeno, hoping that his father would accompany him to play. Jeno still refuses and prefers to go to the camp to sleep, and ignores Jisung's crying voice.

"When can I also be in his position? When would you like to see me as a child for Appa? I always hoped that I would meet him quickly and be happy. But I also feel afraid if later appa is happy because more does not care and may expel Jisung in the heart of appa," his inner.

Not wanting to linger here, Jisung immediately took the key and ran back to Irene's room, of course ignoring the pain in her heart.

When he arrived, Jisung opened it. And look at Irene who's sitting on the bed with her panda eyes. Maybe Irene didn't sleep and kept crying because she was worried about Jisung.

She hugged Irene and cried there. Irene certainly returned Jisung's embrace was no less tight. They both miss because of unexpected events last night.  Irene knew her Jisung would never leave her, she would continue to stand by her side even though the wound she kept feeling alone.

Irene always hoped in God, someday the suffering for Jeno and Jisung soon changed with happiness.