Married to a Widower (Winter X Jeno Ft Jisung)
6. Longs

Jeno, the thirty-year-old man, was now pondering inside his room. Room that may have been a long time, he did not live in. Many beautiful memories in this room, one of which is a memory when he was 5 years old, got a room gift this grand.

How happy he was at that time, jumping with excitement typical 5-year-old. Recalling that, a thin smile was engraved on Jeno's handsome face.

"Time passes so quickly. Could it not be repeated?"

At that moment, he remembered something, then with a quick movement. Jeno set her foot in a drawer that she had not touched or seen for fourteen years.

The lacquer is still in the same place, it is new and of course nothing has changed from this room except the owner who has been away for many years.

He's opening. This drawer wasn't in the lock, and Irene might have opened it. He took a blue red box. Gently rubbed, then took her to the bed for her to open.

His smile was re-engraved as his two eyes stared at a small ring and letter, whose writing was not even neat. It was written exactly eighteen years ago, when he was twelve years old.

"Destiny, it was unexpected. It's like a dream, a worst nightmare." Jeno nodded with mixed feelings.

"This ring is beautiful, when it's on your ring finger," Jeno read a small note inside the box.

He chuckles softly, laughing at himself. In the past, he turned out to be a baby in the figure of a baby who may now be a teenager to adulthood.

He took his wallet, opened it and took two photos he kept and took them with him wherever he went.

The first photo shows a beautiful baby smiling. The photo was taken when he first met the beautiful baby. Gender female, someone who should be her lover now. But God has a different destiny.

Then the second photo is a photo between himself and the baby, who is already 3 years old. The photo was taken before the breakup and a lie he invented, to hide this from the little girl's family.

"I'm sorry.... Sorry for breaking my promise" said Jeno with teary eyes.

Jeno is not the weak type, crying because of a problem. He is even very strong, strong in living life and a great responsibility for children his age.

"Winter... I miss you, "sadly Jeno, this is the first time she's said long. I miss someone she loves very much.

His eyes were too focused on the photo of the beautiful little baby. His longing might not be able to be described by a remark again, if only he had the chance to meet, at least once. Jeno won't waste it.

"Today I'm back. B-but I'm too cowardly to meet. The promise I made was not going to happen. I'm sorry," the stuffing began to sound.

If only you knew, it would be the first time she cried again. Return to the original character and character. After so many years it became a figure that seemed to be firm and strong.  But in fact no one can last longer, when given a heavy ordeal. Including Jeno.

"What if destiny could be changed. I wish I could be with you Winter. And that incident I hope will never happen" Jeno said a little loudly.

Her tears were already flowing down her cheeks. Everyone has the right to cry no matter, whether he is a woman or a man, how old he is. Everything is not important, because there is no prohibition in removing tears.

Indirectly, the purpose of Jeno's speech is not to want his birth. His father did not hate him, but he did not love him. Jisung was confused as to how he lived in his father's life. It means or a burden.

"Winter, I want to change destiny."

One more word from Jeno. Successfully made Jisung crumple his chest that hurt. Doesn't the father feel that the father's words hurt Jisung, the innocent child here.

So with a cry that he tried to hold. jisung slowly passed from there. He had a million guilty feelings in his heart. Jeno never knew how Jisung's life really was. All men know is that their son lives very well.

Returning to Jeno, the thirty-year-old man wiped his tears violently, then reinserted the ring, which Winter would not be able to wear.

Jeno picked up her Handphone when the call came in. And it turned out to be from his father, Suho.

"H-hello Appa?" Jeno tried desperately not to let out the slightest noise. He did not want anyone to know, if at this moment he had cried, shed a great longing for someone.

'Udah arrived, ' asked the middle-aged man behind the phone.

"Yes Appa. I'm home" Jeno replied in a polite tone.

'sorry. Appa's gonna be late tonight. And chances are we're not gonna have dinner together" I'm sorry. That was how Suho felt.

Jeno just smiled faintly. His father always kept himself busy in the office, without any time with his family at home.

"No, Appa." Although heavy, Jeno will still agree whatever is said by Suho.

'Well Appa hang up. Take care of your mother, will you, Jeno?'

"Yes.."

Call disconnected. Jeno breathed a heavy breath. Honestly when it comes to longing. There is so much Jeno misses. Not just about Winter, but all the memories in this house, including his father and mother.

But one person who is also part of his life, he really does not want to be present. All the memories that concern about her desperately want Jeno removed. Including dark events took away all of Jeno's happiness.

Slowly, Jeno laid her body on her king-size mattress. With a bed sheet of motives spidermen. indeed from a long time ago, Jeno very idolized it. Until no wonder if he collects items that involve spiders.

"I hope, when I wake up. I could have been myself fourteen years ago. When everything's okay."

"Let god grant it. I won't have any more requests, enough. Enough to change my destiny now. I want to at least grow up like most other kids without any burden and responsibility" Jeno said.

He closed his eyes, hoping to dream a beautiful dream, at least a dream that could bring him to the past. Greatest time for him.