Married to Brondong
A failed marriage

#DINIKAHIBOCAHTENGILL #PART3

“Aida? Where's aryo? Don't eat all of you?” Mama who accompanied papa in the living room stared in wonder.

“He's not hungry, Ma!” I replied slowly and wanted to go to the dining room immediately.

Mama held back, the patient woman approached.

“You can't accept him yet, huh?” Mom looked for answers in my eyes.

I smiled bitterly. Then exhale.

“Da! We cannot reject destiny. Seek to receive the ordinance of Allah with grace. Lots of people out there married without love, but can survive until death separates.” My mom is right.

However, until now, I am still in shock with the incident that befell. In a matter of hours, from a girl, I became the wife of a teenager who had just graduated high school.

I would love to marry someone more mature than me.

“I eat first, Ma!” I tried to distract my mom.

“A wife, must pay attention to her husband's stomach. Serving it, and of course having to be his step reinforcement. Mama knows, you don't love Aryo. But mama is sure, she will be a husband to be proud of.”

Mama's confidence made me have to think again to ask for separation from Aryo. The eyes seemed to know how the true personality of his son-in-law.

“Learn accept Aryo, Da! Your wedding is halal.” Mom approached me while I was taking rice.

“I mean, Mama? Aida doesn't understand.”

Mama poured water into a glass, then drank it slowly.

“Aryo can marry you, and he himself buys you his dowry. Before you were allowed to get married. Mama and papa have been talking to your in-laws, and Aryo as well. If he can't fulfill the above, papa's plan is you will refuse. Let's be ashamed we bear.” Mama gave a smile.

I was more confused by the sentence that my mother threw in a very serious tone.

“You know, who is your husband? Maybe because it was dark last night, so you didn't see his face. After marriage too, because he felt he was a child, you did not pay attention to him carefully.” Mom laughed short.

I who was about to take the side dish from the plate stopped my hands, then looked at my mother with question marks.

“Before, mom asked, why can all happen. Aryo explained in detail, just like your explanation. One thing that makes mama like him because he is responsible, when it is only a disaster that you do not expect.”

Yep! It is a disaster I will remember for the rest of my life.

“He wants to keep your pride, after the incident was photographed by some people who came to raid you. You know what he said when he asked you to be his wife. Please marry me to my father's daughter, because I don't want her name to be ruined just an incident that accidentally happened to us. I will raise her degree by marriage, believe me, I can support Mba Aida, even though she just finished High School.” Mama's eyes glazed over, it seemed like she was completely moved.

“You know, after saying that. He showed you a job you might not believe in. About papa's promise to give her a job, just to convince you that she deserves to be a husband.”

My forehead is getting wrinkled, who is Aryo really, what's his job?

“Aryo is a Youtuber, also a writer on an app. The income is more than enough for the cost of living both of you.” Mama assured.

I feel deceived.

“Mama know, ga? How know he wants to raise his popularity by marrying me. It could be that he doesn't sincerely want to be my husband, but this is just mode.”

I immediately left the dining table, and ran to the room. Aryo has to explain everything to me. I'm sure this is all he's been planning. He must have framed me for content and material for him to reap his own benefits.

“Bring your husband food!” My mother held back my steps.

“Let's go, Ma! I'd like to take him to dinner!”

The real reason is not that, Ma! But I had to lie, all the more it made me feel like I wasn't on earth anymore.

**

“Shadaqallahul Adzim.” Aryo immediately put the Koran on the nightstand near the bed.

I who initially burned emotions, slowly extinguished like water watered a bucket after seeing him teach.

“What's up, Mba? Not so eat?” He stood up while tidying up the sheath cloth that covered his lower body.

I approached with a cold face, then sat on the makeup chair while looking straight at her glowing face. Maybe because of the light of the lamp, not because he sholeh.

“You set me up?” The accusation instantly made him speechless.

I heard ******breath before sitting on the bed replying to my sharpened gaze.

“For what?”

“To raise your name? Isn't it by marrying a woman who is older than you, your YouTube channel will skyrocket.”

He looked down deeply, then looked back at me who was trembling.

“Mba! I'm not that bad! By now, Mba is already my wife, I am supposed to keep the honor, Mba! Not selling Mba to make money. Too naive, if I do everything.” He rubbed his sweaty face.

“Why didn't you tell me from the beginning about your work?” I emphasize the voice.

“Mba! How to tell, people happen to exceed the speed of the electric train. Plan, once we can accept each other, I'll tell you everything. But, what power. Mba was always angry with me. Yes, I'll miss the moment to talk a lot.”

True, we did not have time to talk about who and what is an activity before marriage. I don't know what I like or don't. Not yet known thoroughly, so Aryo is not wrong.

“Okey! Please explain to me honestly, why would you want to marry a woman who is much older than you? Don't you have a lot of followers, many like your content. Why did you choose me? Is it because you feel sorry for me?” My chest felt claustrophobic asking like that in a loud voice.

He laughed softly, seemingly unconcerned by my feeling of being held tight in the chest.

“Mba! You must believe in destiny, God created man in pairs. So too with everything on the face of the earth. I was Istiqarah before asking Mba to papa and mama. Apparently, the God-ordained Mba crossed his head after a long prayer. Even if I want to avoid it, actually I can do it, because we did nothing at that time. But, yes, never mind! I will try to be a good husband. Although Mba has not been able to accept me as a husband.”

Slap by slap made me even more helpless to look into his eyes. Why is he so mature? Should I do what my mom said?

“Mba, Rasullullulllah, different age with Umi Khadijah. But he can complement each other, even become a role model for mankind.” He started giving me.

“But I'm not the good one and sholeha. Who can keep the oral and the deed, which can be exemplified. I'm just a woman who until now did not understand why suddenly married ....!”

Asataga, why is everything flowing unhindered. I closed my face, my eyes were heating up.

“Buying boy? Mba doubted me? Or should I doubt Mba? It could be that all this time Mba closed himself from men because it was not worth using.” Cynical and painful.

“You mean what talk like that!”

My voice beats the thunder in the rain.

He smiled cynically. Then put your hands on the bed.

“You don't think I'm a virgin anymore, do you? Listen up, Aryo! I never did anything that would lead me to hell. Therefore I shut myself off from men who may be just to get close, but do not want to get married. Out there, there are a lot of guys like that. Under the pretext of love, the pretext of affection, then asking for what is not his right. Then, a woman who has been eaten persuaded by the devil on the basis of loving each other, will give up her honor! You are wrong!”

My chest up and down held back the already bubbling emotions. But, Aryo remained calm, she seemed to let me be in a whirlpool of energy-consuming emotions.

“Good, if Mba finds out about that! Means I should be grateful no one has touched Mba's skin other than papa, and people who are muhrim with Mba.” Flat and flat.

I immediately stood up and approached.

“Then why are you saying that I am not worth using?”

I wanted to pull the shirt that was attached to his body, then push it against the wall. Let it break its head, or break its bones.

“Because, Mba isn't sure of me. I could be more evil, if Mba continues like this!” He looked hard at me.

I sighed many times throwing the tightness in the chest. Seeing Aryo as deep as water, I thought long. Why can my emotions get out of control like this? I am more mature than him.

“But why would you marry me?” I repeat with my lips shaking.

“Because I believe, Mba is my destiny chosen by God. That answer! I will try to be a good husband, even though we are different ages. A person's maturity cannot be measured by age, Mba! The proof, a more mature Mba, even behaves like a child.”

He humbled me back.

My patience is thinning, perhaps even thinner than a piece of thread.

Immediately I approached his body in a hurry, I pulled his shirt. Then I stared at his pitch-black eyeballs.

His thick eyebrows shot up like an understatement, as well as his mouth that formed a small line of cynics.

“Mba won't be able to be rude to me, if Mba remembers what my status is?” His voice remained calm.

Immediately I hit his chest, then pity whack. I cried loudly, she was clutching my shoulder to her chest. Gently, he drowned my head there.

“Cry, if indeed it can relieve emotions, Mba! I only want one thing, learn to love me, respect my partner, and make me a partner in the face of the next step. Because of what Mba does, it will certainly reply.”

He's too mature, he's too good at stringing words. So that my tears get louder and plunge into his chest.

Long enough I was in his warm embrace, with no vibrations in the chest. All I think about is peace, though I'm sure it's not love.

“If it's quiet, we're looking to eat out, yuk!” He pulled my shoulder. Then remove the water flowing on his face with his palm.

“Actually, I prefer that Mba is cynical like yesterday. Wild pigeons, that's what makes me like.”

“You mean?” I asked slowly.

“Female characters like Mba, just hard on the outside. But inside it is very fragile. Usually such people are very loving and considerate. And of course it is very protective of those closest to it. I'm sure, one day Mba will fall in love with me.”

In love?

He thinks it's easy, huh? But is not God almighty, turning the hearts of men. I can't be takabur. Maybe what he said later is true.

“Now, Mba is satisfied with the answer. I added, I will not sell content about our marriage, but if anyone raises the issue in cyberspace, Mba must be patient. Because surely after this, what Mba was worried about would indeed happen. But one thing I want to say, God willing, this is my first and last marriage. Believe!” He winked, I was shocked. This is not how you ask to be served.

I shook my head quickly, and took a few steps back.

“If it's not ready now, a week or a month away, I'll wait, really, Mba! Now we enjoy our courtship. Besides worship, of course dating after marriage is innocent. May I state, I Love You?”

Asataga!

It's a boy he thinks I'm a kid his age, huh? Take advantage of the show shoot everything! If so, I will continue to be young.

“Mba, answer dong!”

“What answer?”

“You want ga, so my girlfriend?”

“What girlfriend, my man is your wife?” My eyes widened as I answered.

“Kan, unrealized, Mba! Mba people do not want to play in bed.”

My face reddened, as she innocently asked me to immediately become her runway.

“I'm hungry, mama forbid me to eat alone.” The sound vibrates to remove the nervousness that rules the body and soul.

“Then, we eat first. Just relax on the beach.”

“Ke beach? These nights?”

He laughed crisply, then replied softly. “ Let's just say our room is a beach, Mba. And you are the moon, so I can look at her for a long time!”

Please strengthen this heart, Lord! If every day it gets bombed, I'm sure my head can explode.

**

“You're not eating?” Mama immediately approached as Aryo and I left the room.

“It's for food, Ma!” I replied, Aryo just gave a smile.

Mama looked very relieved, then told me that papa had eaten. So we just ate two.

“You are, Ma! Already accepted me as a son-in-law,” said Aryo politely.

Mama who was standing next to me, immediately caressed my arm slowly.

“Mama and papa also thank you, you have covered the disgrace of this family.”

“Aib what, anyway, Ma? Aryo and I did nothing last night. Just being unlucky.”