MAS DUDA IN THE MIDDLE OF THE CLOUDS
Homey

Feels in the chest there is a rhythm that is timid, getting closer to the figure of a modern woman with a modern but simple look thrilling who sits in the corner of the guarantee, aloof no friends.

"Dek.., how are you?" I extended my hand to Sekar, the girl I missed.

"Okay," I looked at my beloved, the longing buried in my heart. After that incident, let alone look at his face I can't. It was very exciting to hug the girl, release the longing that piled up and did not want to take it off for a second.

"Don't be late eating deck, your body looks really skinny. Take care of your health as well," these eyes fixedly looking at his face, Sekar looks more tapered than the last I met him. That's all I can say, I'm afraid of mispronouncing.

"Sir, be angry not for long? I'm kidding you." Unknowingly out the words that I should be able to keep were not spoken. I cursed myself who was unable to hold my lips, at first glance Sekar's lips developed a smile that I missed for the past six months.

"Here you are, please don't reveal it again," this heart feels sliced to see the clear eyes glazed with glass and his request. Somehow what should I be now?

Is it so painful that there is no apology for me deck and until your tears have not dried up until now? it's all my fault that I never learned from my mistakes in dealing with Dance.

"Hi how are you?" Suddenly the clouds approached Sekar, this heart is jealous and many prejudices arise "don't "guess my heart.

"Well, Wan, haven't we met in a while?" my reply was stale and there was a sense of why he had to be present at the moment that I had longed for.

"So when was this announced?" The question of Clouds, removes all presumptions but my jealousy still ambushes the heart because there is no one worthy of me to be envied this big besides Clouds.

As an experienced man, this confusion was soon resolved.

I am sure that Awan and Sekar are not in a relationship anymore, even Awan himself who opens the veil of my confusion when he sees them together. I firmly believe that Awan has no idea what happened in my relationship with Sekar.

"Cie who met the ex, shoot again continue to invite to KUA mas, later we will wine the rame rame around the village using a cart. Will you deck Sekar?" All my friends laughed, only I, Awan and Sekar, looked wry.

Damnit damnit! when I felt safe arriving here came Heru, revealing the state of my relationship with Sekar, in front of the Clouds.

"former?" Even though I can hear the murmur of the clouds. His face also turned bright, making me who was on the wind now slumped down under.

"Tomorrow I go to the deckhouse," Sekar did not say whether or not to answer, but I had to fight before Awan took Sekar back.

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"Dek.." I was waiting for Sekar on the porch of his house reflexively woke up from the chair I was sitting in.

Sekar welcomes my outstretched hand to regret it.

"What do you drink? water, coffee or tea?" bargained for.

"I'm just here to talk to you deck," these eyes keep staring fixedly at the face of my heart.

"So soon, I'll get you a drink." The pampitnya, a moment later Sekar came out with a tray filled with tea water in a flower-patterned glass.

"Diminum mas," I nodded.

"Thank you deck."

"You're still mad at me on deck?" Sekar.

"Nobody should be forgiven or forgiven, it's your right and you deserve to be happy."

"Sir..."

"Among us there is never a commitment to a relationship that is certain mas, so actually I have to apologize to you because it is not appropriate that I am angry with you."

"Sir," I tried to cut off the conversation that not only was I hurt but his heart as well, but in vain Sekar did not heed me at all.

"So when are you going to invite me or have it been re-opened but I'm forgotten? I hope you still think of me as a friend and invite me on your happy day," I can only shake my head, it hurts to hear every word Sekar said.

"Sir, I think without having to say the word love to you, you already understand that I love you. I think we're all the same adults so no more asking if you want to be my girlfriend? I think with us often walk together, we share the news, share the sorrow it has proved that among us there is a sense of mutual belonging.

turns out I was wrong! I gave my heart to you without me telling you if you would accept my love for you.

Deck, it's too late now but I want you to listen to what this heart has in store for you.

I'm not a romantic man, so I didn't come with a single rose let alone a flower marking my love for you, but I brought this heart and my future hope to offer you.

I can't string up a slick sentence for the adoration of my heart, I'm a much older man than you, the man who failed in marriage and from my old marriage I had an eight-year-old son.

If your heart is attached to me and willing to accept what is in me, I am not asking you to be my lover right now but I am asking you to be my son's mother, to be my father's son-in-law and live as I do. Do you want to live with me deck?" I clasped his hand, looked at him with shahdu, assuring his heart that this heart was indeed his.

Slowly I felt her hand pull out of my grasp.

"Daddy.." call me.

"It's already, already! enough please don't continue again. I can't tell you how you are."

"Why deck?" Seen Sekar only shook weakly.

"Give me the deck excuse? Do you not love me? What the hell we've been through this whole time doesn't mean anything to you?" I felt my chest jolted feeling played with.

"Together with you, I feel a lot of happiness mas, in all that you do makes me feel privileged even though in the end I also have to feel tremendous pain for knowing your love.

Six months we've been so far apart I honestly miss your presence, your jokes, your attention and all about you, I miss you but I'm self-aware that love doesn't have to have."

"Is it because of deck dance?" Sekar.

"Then?" I replied impatiently.

"Is it because of the presence of the Cloud that makes you doubt me?" again just shakes.

"Sir, are you ashamed to be with one-child widows?"

As I sobbed at the question about my status, it felt so heavy this breath.

"I guess, you can accept me for what the deck is because from the beginning there's nothing I've covered from you. And when I approached you there was no rejection, I thought you could accept me for who I am." It is my regret that I have misjudged Sekar all this time.