Micheal Emerson's Choice
Episode 29's

Inner breath, one of the obligations that must be fulfilled by a husband and wife. An impingement of desire that is halal and certainly filled with reward, they call it with a beautiful word, making love.

However, what if one of the brides is not ready to do it for some reason?

Like Zenwa, who is still very unprepared if he has to give himself completely to his husband. The relationship between the two is still tense, still chaotic, still rigid, especially with various facts that make Zenwa uncomfortable even if only close to Micheal. Then how can he share a room, bed, pillow and even a blanket with him?

Zenwa had a very good religious education since childhood, and he knew what the duties of a wife were, but in this situation?

"Why? What am I supposed to do?" murmured Zenwa restlessly, he had been pacing back and forth in his room, thinking of Micheal's words about the inner living. "If Micheal asks for it, and I continue to refuse, God can do me." Zenwa was so frustrated thinking about it, that her gaze was now fixed on her picture with her brother..

"Why should I, brother?"

.........

"In Shaa Allah, their relationship will have progress after this, Bi," said Ummi Zainab as she crawled up to her bed.

"Why could that be? Zenwa and Micheal lived in different dimensions." Abi Hamka said as he closed the book he had just finished reading, then he followed his wife to bed.

"Yes, but Micheal was talking about the inner living, Bi," said Ummi Zainab enthusiastically.

"really? Continues to?" ask Abi Hamka who is no less enthusiastic.

"Let's just pray, Bi. Hopefully their relationship improves, although Ummi knows this must be difficult for Zenwa, but everything has already happened." he explained.

"May Arini bless them yes, Ummi. Especially before exhaling his last breath, Arini looking for Zenwa," said Abinya.

Talking about Arini, of course, the two returned sad, even the eyes of Ummi Zainab were already glazed.

"If this was just a dream, Bi. It feels like Ummi still can't believe Arini isn't around." Umm Zainab rubbed her eyes that began to be myopic because of the tears that pooled in her eyes.

"Clearned, Ummi. The child is only a deposit from Allah, and whose name is kept, the owner has the right to take it at any time," said Abi Hamka and he embraced the wife with affection.

.........

After a long time, Micheal was finally able to sleep soundly after he spoke freely to Zenwa, letting out a teardrop in his heart.

And the matter of inner living, Michael himself is certainly not ready to do it, because until this moment, there is still Arini in his heart and in his mind. Micheal also wanted to give Zenwa time, familiarizing herself with Mrs Emerson's status.

.........

The next day, Oma Opa who still missed Arini came back to Zenwa's house and they took Zenwa on a pilgrimage to Arini's tomb. While Micheal did not participate, because he wanted to learn to distance himself from anything related to Arini for a while.

The three prayed for Arini so solemnly, that even Oma shed tears when she remembered her grandson.

"Oma, shouldn't Oma and Opa stay here?" zenwa asked as they returned home from the funeral.

"Yes, Zenwa. We do want to stay, we miss Arini a lot," Oma replied in her voice "I'm sorry we didn't tell you about Arini, huh?"

"It's all happened, Oma. Now all we can do is try sincerely, God has written everything in the destiny line of our lives." said Zenwa who made Oma and Opa smile, Omanya stroked Zenwa's head fondly.

"Your brother loves you very much and Micheal, Zenwa. He really wants you to live happily together" he said later but Zenwa only responded with a faint smile.

Arriving at home, Zenwa went to Arini's room to clean the room, because Opa and Omanya would sleep there while Ummi Zainab was currently going to study. Since Arini's death, Zenwa did not dare to enter his brother's room, because it would make him sad again.

After cleaning the room, Arini's gaze was fixed on the sister's study table. Zenwa recalled Arini, he often saw his brother sitting there, he wrote or read books.

Zenwa approached the table, and her gaze was fixed on a blue notebook and outside it was written Arini's full name, Zenwa opened it and read the book with longing eyes. Until on one sheet, he found something that made him surprised and immediately he shed tears.

"Sister..."

Tbc...