My husband Seleb Hits
Forgive Myself

"Didn't that mean anything to you,?" Hanna started to seriously ask, she put her spoon on the plate. Then he looked at Rayyan with a serious mimic. Rayyan looked at Hanna fixedly, it suddenly felt like Hanna looked like this. "If you think of me as the person closest to you, you should have said what happened, not covered it up," Hanna again let out a tear in her heart.

Rayyan was still speechless, Hanna was protesting. Rayyan nodded with a small smile.

"Sorry dear..," Rayyan tried to hold Hanna's hand on the table, but Hanna pulled it. It was time for Rayyan to start hating him.

"Dam...,"

"If I'm not the right person for you, even to hear your complaints you doubt me," Hanna continued to look for loopholes, this was her chance. "I've repeatedly said that we're not going to achieve the same goal,"

"Han..why is it like this, not this Han..," Rayyan tried to explain. But Hanna who is actually aware of Rayyan's position tries to reject any explanation from Rayyan. Because the goal is to make Rayyan stay away from him, rearrange his life and career to be like before.

"Rayyan..," Hanna gulped her saliva, her throat choking. Between being able to take out her teardrops or not, but she must, she must do.

"We can't be together" finally the sentence came out of his mouth. The world seemed to stop spinning now, his head felt heavy and his gaze felt blurred. Hanna just stared at the table, not daring to stare at Rayyan's face. "I'm tired, I'm tired of being next to you" he added, holding back his tears, hoping not to fall now, because it would be Rayyan knew if it wasn't true.

"Han...," Rayyan still did not believe what she heard.

"Yes, I'm tired of being with you Rayyan, we're so different, our world is so different. And not to mention their denunciation of me, made me very tired, and I could not bear it," Hanna stiffened herself, holding back that voice sounded loud and bold with her decision.

"You mean,?"

"Yes, I want us to break up" Hanna asserted. Rayyan looked at Hanna with a pus. It was this gaze that made Hanna feel weak even though she only saw Rayyan's eyes at a glance, it felt like she wanted to hug her tightly.

I'm sorry Rayyan, I'm doing this for your own good. He murmured in his heart

Rayyan closed the matany, trying to understand everything Hanna said.

"You're kidding, aren't you Han,?" rayyan asked with a smile.

"Do I look like I'm kidding, huh,?"

"No way, here look at your eyes," Rayyan was still not desperate, she was very sure if what Hanna was doing was unnatural. There must be something else hidden.

Hanna melengos's. "We better go home now, because what I said is clear," Hanna rushed to pick up her bag and quickly passed.

"Ha...Han..," Rayyan's after Hanna.

"We go home each yes..," Hanna did not look towards Rayyan, her steps halted as Rayyan managed to grab Hanna's arm. Hanna accidentally does not see Rayyan, because the water matany has begun to spread.

"Ok we go home," Rayyan grabbed Hanna's hand and held her out, Hanna already had no more energy to let go of her hand. His mind is at war, it hurts. With all her might she kept her tears from spilling.

Along the way, Hanna fell silent lamenting the contents in her head. So did Rayyan who felt increasingly chaotic. This is not what he wanted. Not these.

Why would Hanna do this? what's wrong with her? is the reason he is tired of being hit by a lot of blasphemy from his extreme fans?

The car stops in front of the fence of Hanna's house, Hanna opens the car door and gets off. So did Rayyan, already down and approaching towards Hanna who was staring near the car waiting for Rayyan. Maybe this was the last meeting with the man. Hanna could already master her feelings, she tried to smile.

"Han..think carefully, I'm sure this isn't the true desire of your heart," Rayyan held onto Hanna's shoulder and gently stroked it. "I'm always the same, I'll be there for you,"

Hanna lowered her head, then nodded with a smile.

"Come in, it's getting dark," Rayyan spoke softly, not forgetting her smile.

And what Rayyan did made her mind feel even more guilty, feeling sliced. Because this is not what he really wants.

Hanna stepped up, leaving Rayyan. She did not turn around, as her tears had already started flooding her cheeks. It really hurt, but she had to hold it. Rayyan saw Hanna walking over with a pushy look, wanting to feel like she was hugging him. Is this the end of his relationship with Hanna? will this be all?

Hanna has entered her house, she knows that Rayyan is still in the same place. Hanna immediately closed the door of her house, she stood there. Leaning his body on the door, his tears were now increasingly heavy. A farewell he didn't want.

"Rayyan..hu..hu..hu," his cry grew increasingly, sounding extremely bitter. Hanna sat down in front of the door, putting her bag next to her carelessly. Hanna hugged his knee. This is the last meeting with Rayyan. Even if it hurts, everything will be fine. Rayyan would forget about it easily after this. Rayyan had to manage her life well after this. "I'm sorry Rayyan, I'm sorry, because I made your life fall apart,"

Until Hanna sat there for a long time, her tears had dried up. But his mind still hurts.

"Why am I this bad,?" Hanna cursed herself. "May you understand Rayyan, I love you, but this is the best way for us,"

Some time Rayyan stood there, still very much hope Hanna opened the door of the house and scatter towards him. I wish this was just a joke. But the door was still tightly closed. Rayyan leaves Hanna's house.

Throughout the journey, his mind grew increasingly chaotic.

"Haaaaaah," Rayyan hit her wheel, scrambling her hair. This was the outburst of his anger that exploded. The anger he held after some time he was quiet.

What's he gonna do now? why Hanna can be like this. Rayyan pulled over her car, moments later she was silent in her car. Hair disheveled. Rayyan opened the windshield, the wind hitting her face.

The road looks deserted, the night begins to thick and increasingly shows the dark side. Rayyan opened the car door and got down, choosing to sit on the sidewalk facing the open sea. Think about what just happened in his life. The one he held tightly started to leave him for no apparent reason.

"Sorry Han.if all this time our relationship is damning your life,"