MY name is Naima
Forgive Him ....
2 Days later...
"Mak Naima, there is a woman who is looking for Mbak Naima" said mbak Sulastri
"Who's mbak? " just ask Sulastri
"I also do not know mbak, but he said kesaya that mbak Naima know him" said mbak Sulastri
I immediately came out of my room to see the woman.
In the living room of my house, a woman was standing looking out from behind the glass.
"I'm sorry what's needed to find me? " just ask the woman
The woman looked at me
"Mrs Sarah" I was surprised
Lady Sarah smiled at me.
"I'm sorry I bothered you, son" said Lady Sarah softly.
Today I saw Mrs Sarah behaving differently, she said, soft and not rude. And this time Lady Sarah was being so friendly.
"Please sit down Miss Sarah" I said
Lady Sarah sat right on the couch in front of me.
"Is this your house, son?" ask Lady Sarah
I just nodded too.
"Your house is so big and magnificent, I'm sorry son's mother for misjudging you" said Ms Sarah
"It's okay mom, I've forgotten all that" I said
"I have been blinded by the material and busyness of my work, I always judge everything by money, for me everything can be bought with money including happiness, but it turns out I was wrong son...There are other things that money cannot buy. I feel guilty, sinful and ashamed of myself, for I have done much wrong, I am too selfish and I also look down on others too much because of their social status ,whereas behind the poverty of possessions, they have sincerity and wealth of heart, and since the death of my son Dirga, everything has changed the way I think, son,not only my way of thinking but also my way of life.Dirga and you have opened my heart eyes son" said Mrs Sarah
I just kept quiet listening to all of Ms. Sarah's words. I knew that the human heart was not made of stone so I believed that mistress Sarah would change better.
"My goal here, I want to take you to Cahyani's house, son, I'm ashamed if you have to go there alone. Mother felt guilty and sinful to her" said Lady Sarah then bowed with regret.
"Of course madam, I am willing to take the madam there" I replied
"Look at this, son, this is a small gift and an envelope containing a letter.Please look and read the contents inside this envelope" said Mrs Sarah
"But...."
"It's okay, son, please read it to me" said Ms. Sarah pleading
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You are like the fountain of life
Which erases my thirst
Who watered the drought in the soul
Full of fragility and dust..
Cahyan...
Loving you is like holding a fire
Warm up the heartburn, but burn yourself
And when this love must be separated
Because there is no blessing from them
Those who do not understand our hearts
How am I able to get away from you?
How am I supposed to leave you?
If my heart is only attached to you
If my heart only adores you
The oath of allegiance has been made
It becomes an unbreakable bond
Even if death comes to me, I am yours
I'm goin...
Really go this time
Nothing is eternal, neither happy nor hurt
One day we will come to the point of laughing at what used to be pain or crying over what used to be beautiful.
For the girl who has been through a lot of pain with me, don't worry about all this coming to an end.
Believe,
Everything will be fine
Don't forget to love yourself.
Because you always mean something to me
Today, 'sook and forever
I read Dirga's poem to Cahyani, a simple poem that was able to express Dirga's heart to Cahyani, from that poem I knew Dirga loved the girl very much.
Lady Sarah's eyes were glazed, her cheeks flushed not out of shame, but because she endured her grief.
"Please read another one" said Mrs Sarah stammering
To my beloved Cahyani.....
Why are you so angry with me? Why are you avoiding me?
It must be because of Mom, right? Mama must have insulted you.
Cahyani forgive mama, forgive mama's attitude to you. I promise I'll talk to Mama, that we love each other.
I believe one day you will understand our love, even though you know you are currently opposed to this love. Never be afraid because I am always with you.I Dirga will always love you forever.
These are my last words to you.Maybe we are not destined to be together, but my love remains eternal for you. I know God has broken your heart, but in spite of all this pain, you will find the one who is right for you
(The one who always loved you)
Madame Sarah's tears were not contained anymore, her crying broke hearing the outpouring of Dirga's heart. I immediately approached her and calmed her heart.
"It turns out my son's love for the girl is so big" said Mrs Sarah as she sobbed
"Already the mistress there is nothing to regret.Mrs don't continue to blame themselves mistress" said I
"Look at the mistress in the mirror and forgive her who is being reflected, forgive yourself mistress" I said
Lady Sarah wiped her tears with a tissue.
"Will that girl forgive me with all my pride in the past?" ask Miss Sarah
"Come mistress.but there is no harm if the mistress shows regret mistress, she said, those who dare are those who dare to admit their mistakes and he who is great is one who is able to sincerely forgive the mistakes of others. By being able to forgive the mistakes of others, someone has been able to fight his selfishness to not hate let alone revenge" I said
Lady Sarah was silent.
"Naima, thank you" said Ms. Sarah.
"Please drink the tea" said mbak Sulastri who suddenly came, while carrying a tray containing drinks in a cup and a jar filled with cake
"Please drink the tea, Miss Sarah" I said
Lady Sarah then drank a cup of tea served on the table.
"Naima, would you like to accompany me after this to the girl's place?" ask lady Sarah.
"Yes, of course, with pleasure, madam" I said
A few minutes later I immediately walked to my room and changed clothes.As usual before leaving the house I must ask permission to mbok Warti. After that I went to see Sarah's mistress. This time I went to Cahyani's house without my personal chauffeur because Lady Sarah forbade me to take Mr. Gun.
Lady Sarah wanted just the two of us to go there.
Lady Sarah drove the car quietly though I knew, in her heart there was fear, shame, guilt to Cahyani and Lady Sarah trying to calm down.
I stared at the car window, watching the traffic on the road. But why is my heart now feeling lonely, the love story of Cahyani and Dirga reminds me of my love story with Devanno.
"Devanno..Do you think of me there?
Devanno I'm still here, and it turns out Naima Shahya still loves you to this day" I murmured in my heart.