My Story
My Story | I Want Him

Tonight the star is shining brightly, the moon is no less emitting its light, hiding the darkness of the night. This makes Carrisa very happy, because he can see the stars as much as possible. In contrast to Casey, his best friend who closed his eyes towards Carrisa as if the beauty of tonight is not attractive to him. But behind it is a past.

“ Casey, don't tell me you're fascinated with my face.” Carrisa turned her eyes to Casey while putting on an amused face.

“ What ? that's right. My eyes closed. You think I'm a fellow jen ~ ah already.”

“ haha. Calm calm I am also not a typical woman like that.” Carrisa's chuckle

“ Good. How about we go home, it's been almost 2 hours we've been lying on this grass and I think my skin is frozen now.”

“ Ah come on. Can't you enjoy what I'm enjoying right now. Look at the beauty of the night. Stars, the Moon, the wind and everything else. That's screwing Casey.”

“ And I don't like.” Casey Protests

“ That's always what you say every time we come here. I know you're my best friend, but if you don't like this routine you better not come along. Though what I heard from your mother you loved the science of astronomy and researching the sky.”

“ Indeed. And now I'm not interested.”

Carrisa sighed. This is what Casey always answers if he has started to bring up this kind of thing. Casey's gonna turn into a shitty, sniffy woman. But, Carrisa is already her best friend since 5 years ago and goes to this place almost every week, she should already know what causes Casey like this. Silence is re-created.

“ I don't know what makes you like this Casey. But you should know that I'm here because I miss my parents. They say they will always be among the stars. And I'm just asking you to show me that I'm not lonely here. Because I have a best friend.”

Carrisa started talking. While Casey just closed his eyes as if what his friend said was the wind. He was lazy to talk about things that smelled of death with his best friend.

“ Ah, and you should know Casey too. If I am no longer in this world I also want to be a star, the most shining.”

“ I don't think you're normal Carrisa. How could you possibly want to be a hot ball of gas ? and be the most shining ? that means you're the hottest star. Look for another transformation place.”

“ I know that the star came from a ball of gas. People don't even want to get close to me. But, doesn't everyone like the stars that look from afar ?”

“ Everyone except me.”

“ Really ? maybe if I die you'll like the stars.”

“ Stop talking about Carr's death. I won't forgive you if you leave now. And of course I will hate everything about the night.”

“ creepy once heard you to have to hate the night.” Carrisa shook her face at the words of her best friend.

“then what can I do so that you do not blame my death ?”

“ Stay alive and be my best friend until we've grown up and I've let you go.”

—————–

“ Carr, it's okay I didn't accompany you to go to the city park tonight ?” Casey said from the phone.

“ Ah, you finally admit that you don't like things that smell of the night. Like Stars for example .” Carrisa replied with a slight chuckle.

“ Not no. Tonight I'm doing dance practice. You know that in two days of school we're gonna have a race?”

“ Yes yes. I was just kidding, then hope the training goes smoothly.”

“Ok. Bye.”

Casey immediately disconnects her phone, and somehow her feelings turn out to be unpleasant. Without thinking about it, he immediately went to the family room, saying goodbye to his Father and Mother who were watching television.

“ Well, ma'am.I left for Dance practice first.”

Pamit Casey to her parents. His father just nodded his head in agreement.

“ Tumben once. Usually you go to the city park every week night with Carrisa.” Ask his mother

“ Two more days, ma'am. I told Carrisa anyway.”

“ Okay. then don't go home too late.”

“ Certainly.”

When Casey was about to leave the family room, his father interrupted.

“ Hm. Cass, aren't you interested in visiting your sister ? you haven't visited him since.”

“ No. Wrong whom he did not keep his promise.”

“ Then until when are you going to blame your innocent sister?”

“ I don't know. Maybe one day I'll forgive him. But not now.”

—–

Casey rubbed the sweat that continued to flow from his temple while asking for permission to rest. I don't know how many hours he practiced dance with his group without pause considering the time to the race is near. He saw the clock on his phone, 9 nights. Usually at this hour he is spending time with his best friend in the City Park, it makes his feelings back unpleasant. And he was a little jumpy feeling the tremors in his HP. Phone from someone.

“ Yes, Casey here.”

“Nak Casey, Can you go to the hospital now ?”

A voice that crossed with a little sobbing that successfully made Casey jerked.

“What's up ? Who is sick ?”

“ This is Grandma Carrisa. Grandma will explain when you arrive here.”

“Carissa ? Which hospital ? let me go there now !”

After getting the address of the Hospital shown by Granny Carrisa, Casey in a hasty step asked permission from her Tarinya Coach and immediately left the Studio where she trained. Then he stopped the taxi that passed in front of him.

“ No stars tonight. Darkened. As that time.” Casey muttered.

During the journey Casey's brain never stopped asking. What happened to Carrisa ? what caused him to go to the hospital ? and other thoughts that continue to be unpretentious in his brain. Not until 10 minutes later Casey had arrived at the intended hospital and immediately met with Grandma Carrisa who had been waiting for him in Loby with a face as veiled.

“ What's wrong Grandma ? what happened to Carrisa ?”

Casey said in a bit of a hurry and was still overwhelmed by confusion. What if something happens to Carrisa. Carrisa is the only friend Casey has.

“ He was hit by a passing car when he was going home. The wound is pretty severe, and now.” Granny Carrisa sighed before continuing. “ He's been quiet with his parents.”

Casey was stunned when she heard the words from Grandma Carrisa who had now shed her tears again. Calm down with her parents ? are his parents gone ? What could he be ..

“ He's gone, son. His life cannot be saved. Carrisa is already a star in the sky, as she wants.”

Obviously Granny Carrisa once again. Casey shakes her head, ‘No. There's no way he's gone this fast. My memories of my past have not even faded. And they both left me this way’ luked Casey.

“ I know you're the only friend he's got, he talks about you a lot. You're not like other Carrisa friends who always insult her because her parents are dead.”

“ I want to see it now !”

Sela Casey with slightly high intonation. He knew it was disrespectful, but he didn't believe it all. Can't believe that a friend who is only 5 years close to him should go this fast.

“ Alright. Follow me.”

Carrisa's grandmother showed me the room where Carrisa breathed her last. She hasn't been moved because her grandmother knew that Casey would want to see her first. When Casey approaches Carrisa, she believes that her best friend is gone.

“ You don't appreciate the promise I made Carrisa. So fast, I haven't even told you why I hate Carr.” stars Casey said. “ If only I had accompanied you maybe not everything happened.”

It turned out that this was what caused Casey's uneasy feelings since disconnecting from Carrisa's phone. The phone was his last conversation with his best friend.

Now there's no more Carrisa. There will be no one to accompany Casey, no more Carrisa to play with. No more fussy Carrisa. No more Carrisa who always takes her to the city park. And there was no longer any Carrisa that could make Casey feel the presence of her Brother from Carrisa's side.

Now the two men are gone. There is a night sky without stars.

——-

A week after Carrisa's funeral, which Casey has not been able to forget until now, arrived, this afternoon Granny Carrisa called Casey to come to her house. I don't know for what reason.

“ Login .. ” Grandma Carrisa said as soon as she saw Casey at her house.

“ Actually what's wrong ? tumben once grandma sent me here ?”

“ No. Grandma just accidentally discovered this.” He said while offering a letter. “ Looks like it's for you.”

Without reading it, Casey immediately asked Carrisa's grandmother. Because how can his grandmother still look happy. In fact, he has lost everything. A child who is the mother of Carrisa and Carrisa herself.

“ Grandma. I know everyone has to let their loved ones go. But it looks like grandma is very quick to forget about it?”

“ Well. Actually granny happy Carrisa no longer exist now.”

Granny Carrisa's words suddenly made Casey flabbergasted.

“ Granny means ? didn't grandma really love Carrisa ?”

“ Indeed. And that's why grandma is happy. Because the people who dear grandmothers do not have to feel pain as experienced by Father and Mother.”

“ I didn't know Carrisa was sick. Even he never told me why his parents died.”

“ The symptoms are not yet visible. He's still young. Carrisa has HIV due to her parents' mistakes. He doesn't have to be rehabilitated now.”

That surprised Casey. HIV. So that's what makes Granny Carrisa happy that Carrisa's gone. Glad to not have to see the person she cares about suffer for a long time because of the illness. But, how does his best friend stay cheerful ?

“ And I as his own best friend do not know.”

“ That's because not all secrets have to be revealed right. Everyone has their own secrets that no one else can know. For the safety of his soul perhaps. And you should also know Casey, God shows his kindness through anything. Although others feel it is not a kindness.”

Not all secrets need to be revealed. God is always good.

‘ I guess only I have personal secrets. ‘ thought Casey.

——–

Hi Casey,

How are you doing now ?I hope my best friend who hates this star has changed. haha ? I don't know when this letter will be in your hands, but I do believe that if it reaches you, it means that I'm gone, joined by my parents, and of course, the brightest star in the sky. I don't care about that gas ball thing. 

Don't blame anyone for leaving. Because that's what the god Cass has destined. And if you want to talk to me, look for the brightest star in the sky. That's where I accompany you with my light.

Your Bestfriend,

Carrissa

Casey doesn't know what to do after reading Carrisa's letter. His mind was erratic now, it was difficult to let go even though he knew that was the best and unwittingly his eyes began to glaze over.

And by that time Casey had reached where he was headed. A place he himself had forgotten when he was last here. With the night sky somehow now filled with stars and a moon that looks brighter than usual.

SARAH DIANITA'S

“ Hi sister Sarah.”

Casey muttered. After returning home from the house of Granny Carrisa somehow she wanted to visit her brother's grave, but from a long time ago she refused raw raw if there were her parents brought her here.

Not because he hated his brother. But because of his closeness to his brother that makes him not want to visit his brother's grave. He would not accept the fact that his brother is dead.

“ It's been a long time that my sister hasn't asked me to research stars again. It's been almost 6 years.”

Sarah always invites Casey to research the stars in her place of work first. Just like Carrisa who always invites Casey to go to the city park to look at the stars. It was for that reason that she hated stars, even so she did not reject Carrisa's invitation every week because her little heart wanted to always remember her brother.

“ You know brother ? Your dream is the same as my best friend who just left. I want to be a shining star. Haha.”

Casey continued to tell her own story while imagining her brother being there, talking as if her brother was still alive, and forgetting all the logic that had made her unwilling to meet her brother.

“ I go home first brother. I promise now I will always visit you because I know big brother is here because god wants the best for big brother.”

Casey got up from her brother's grave and went home. Without realizing it, in the sky there are two stars that shine from earlier. Continues and continues to shine throughout the night during various weathers, always accompanying Casey at night, illuminating his world. Because they are the shining stars.

——

Cuz’ in the sky, you’re so high.

There are beautiful stars who shine the night.

She’ll be dancing in the clouds and she’ll be singing in the rain.

Among these beautiful stars.

( Greyson Chance – Stars )